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I feel like I can't play video games anymore

I know it sounds pretentious to say "I've grown out of video games", but that's kind of how I feel?

As I've gotten older I've had the desire to play video games less and less.

At this point I basically don't play video games and every time I try to I get very little in the way of enjoyment out of it.

The only games I tend to be able to play these days are either old favourites from my childhood or games that don't require a lot of time to be invested into some long campaign or something.

I think part of the problem for me are games that require me to mentally exert myself.

I feel like if I'm going to mentally exert myself it might as well be in working towards something worthwhile, not on a time-wasting activity.

In order to mentally exert myself without giving up and getting lazy I need to be motivated by working towards something worthwhile.

Every time I've tried to enjoy a video game that I've found difficult I always end up getting annoyed and thinking "I hate this game, it's bullshit" and never going back to it.

I don't really have this issue when I try to do a difficult task that has some real consequence.

I might get frustrated and have to take a break from it or something but I'm always able to accept the blame for getting something wrong or finding it difficult.

I have been watching the changes in video games as a hobby fairly closely for the past few years and it just keeps getting less and less appealing to me.

The barriers to entry (mostly in terms of cost) have pushed me further away too.

My PC was built in 2013 and it wasn't even really high-end or up-to-date at the time, so it cannot run modern games.

Whenever ask myself hypothetically if I'd be willing to spend the money on upgrading it or buying a modern game console (if I even had the means to do so), my response is an overwhelming "pfft, fuck that".

There are a thousand things I'd do with that money before spending it on gaming equipment.

Every now and then I'll make some attempt to re-ignite my love of video games but I've realised it's time to accept it.

I've grown out of video games.

(Please don't take this the wrong way I'm not saying "video games are for children" or anything like that, I just have no interest in it anymore.)