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Hello! So the gist of this update post is: Since I've been taking Melatonin pills and sleeping with earplugs on my sleep has turned 1000% better, and thanks to that I've been able to have energy in the mornings and afternoons. Since I had this energy I've been completing a small amount of tasks that were fast enough and not intensive enough to complete, so I felt more accomplished in these last 2 days than I have ever felt in my entire high-school days or after.
Now, here are the more in-depth updates in my life, enjoy!
So, did you all know that Pride in Brazil is in September? I sure as fuck didn't, I so didn't know that when I learned about it my immediate reaction was to go and participate with anxiety and pure joy! The event this year will be held on the 10th, which is very close to the date of my yearly anniversary of when I started dating my fiancée, the 13th of September, making this one of the dates I'll be having with her.
I learned of most of this on my therapy yesterday, when my therapist suggested I join in with them in order to have a bigger community of people who understood my experience as a Trans pan poly woman, the therapy itself though was actually really nice, no confrontation, just updating him on my continuous better health.
This also ends up involving the earplugs and Melatonin, which made me be able to go to therapy without anxiety and without fear for the first time.
I'll try going to pride with my fiancée and will post pics here and on my Pixelfed.social account too. God, it's good to have a void to speak into.
Now to next topic in the docket, related to the last one, smooth transition (lol).
I've not been into blogs until I turned into an adult, so even though I have a Tumblr since I was a teen I've never used it to blog; Rather, I've only ever used social media as a lurker because why become famous when you can just enjoy yourself, right? But when I became an adult I wanted to document my thoughts and ideas for Destiny at Play much more. So I started for a while a blog on the fediverse (Paper.wf an instance of Write Freely) called "Fleur & the Code" where I simply spoke my mind, it was not very popular, which is good, but the idea of being constantly watched and judged by complete strangers put me off. So I started 2 more blogs which were meant to be more professional with my content: "Destiny at Play" which would only have the stories of DaP in it, and "Folkloric Studies" which was meant to house research of my world-building and me talking about that research.
Eventually when I found this, I felt much more at peace, because now I didn't have to worry about being judged and could host everything myself! With my own name on it, my own domain!
Thanks to all that I've decided to delete my old account on Paper.wf, and I'm going to show all the finished posts here while I slowly work on getting the draft posts finished in order to post on the blog and the site proper! Hope you all enjoy!
I only ever posted 1 full post on this blog, but I had many others planned, some of which are actually in the drafts and will be posted onto the site.
Here is the post:
1st and Only Post: The Old Owl and the Young Woman
These are pretty embarassing, but I'll deal with it, so here are my only posts from the Paper.wf blog which I was more active in.
This was an introduction of my blog to the people in Paper.wf. It was the best I could do at the time, and I hope I can make something better for the about me page later on.
My second post: Destiny at Play my never ending always edited playground of inspiration
This was a horrible post to make and be introduced to. Genuinely why did I ever think this was ok? Either way, some of the words in there ring true to how I felt and feel towards my own work, I did this during a mental breakdown and it shows. I hope anyone reading this can somewhat overlook how badly it is written.
Final post: Words of All Kinds
Going to be honest, this post was made just after the other one, and I tried letting my poetic self out, it feels like slop to me, it feels embarassing. Still, it is better than the second post which I *had* to do when I was feeling like shit, because of course I had to.
This was one I was proud to make, but could never quite get the feeling for. This blog was going to house all my research on the various topics of the world-building of Destiny at Play. I couldn't actually get a single post finished, but I have one in drafts about fae and their legends in the real world and in Destiny at Play which I'll post on the site when finished. Hope anyone reading this can actually see it.