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ill get into the diary-writing straight away - just a few thoughts that pass in my head as a set it up: to be quite honest, i dont have all that many interesting things going on in my life but ill try to make do with what i do have going on. i guess ill talk about music that ive listened or movies that ive watched here, i doubt ill get into much detail about my personal life.
today was a pretty good day overall, im on a break from being hospitalised and at home, and ive been spending time mostly relaxing with my family. i hope ill be out soon - my treatment seems to be working and i think ive stayed there more than enough. i went on a long walk somewhere nearby, which i happened to really enjoy - nature hardly ever makes me feel any worse. combined with some *fishmans*, it really helped with my mood and energy. still a little too hot outside for extended walks.
thats about it, i doubt ill end up writing as much for days past my first one, if not drop this entirely, but hey.
music listened to:
fishmans - orange : amazing, timeless album, full of energy, liveliness, and beautiful passion. endless summerly spirit, a cool breeze on a sweltering hot day. my favourites especially are melody and kansha (odoroki). fishmans are unbelievably good.
finally out of the hospital, my date of release came as a bit of a pleasant surprise. glad to be leaving though and im forever thankful for all the people who made everything possible. i definitely feel better, and everyone says i am better, so everything is alright. dont really know what im going to do with myself now though. i guess i have plenty of time to figure that out.
music listened to:
deepchord presents echospace - liumin : super groovy, incredible atmosphere. just really solid album overall
the excitement from being outside is more or less wearing off, and im starting to come to the realisation that i dont really have much to do with myself all day. i feel like i will definitely fall back to my old habits if i dont quickly find something to do, something to occupy my mind. ive spent most of today playing videogames and browsing the internet and dont really feel like ive accomplished much to help my situation.
once again, doing nothing. getting urges, but im managing to hold myself back. im scared theyll put me back in there if ill start doing it again. listening to comforting dsbm. trying to write something, or think of programming ideas, and failing. its okay.
music listened to:
odz manouk - s/t as well as the new one : pretty good black metal, excellent riffs, crushingly heavy atmosphere. love the druggy sound of the new one. maybe my favourite album of the year so far.