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Years ago, when I had very little money but a lot of time, potential seemed like a very loose thing. What did I want to do? Because I could do it. There were a few things I was naturally bad at, but everything else could come with work. And as I got started in my career and watched the people around me settle into relationships, kids, TV, divorces, I got a sense that either other people weren't thinking this way, or perhaps they were sleepwalking into something that became a source of disappointment or resentment later on. Some days I felt an almost physical pain as I looked around, telling myself this would never happen to me.
This is going to be a short entry, and just to say that, approximately halfway through my life, I still see potential (or maybe just some people's potential, and hopefully mine) as a pretty loose thing, even if day to day my life follows particular routes or patterns. Nothing is actually set in stone. If I see something I want to make, I can do it. I'm proud of what I've been able to do so far. The best time to start something is always before, but now's as good a time as any. I don't have to have everything figured out, and rarely do, but I can work it out as I go along. I can make the world I want to live in. Or at least some small corner of it. Four decades in, I hope I'm doing that.