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by Wetdryvac
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Self Pitying Rub
July 24, 1993
bitterness
nothing they could do
would hurt any more
to turn me off
if I were nothing
I want sleep
I want TV
talk about the pain tomorrow ��
never
you must leave
but I was never here
silly, vengeful
though I too have grown into slicing back
repressing urge
because hurting was fun
destroying more amusing than killing
must I join the plague
yet where to turn without destroying
there can be no peace without destruction ��
must I join ��
it is their metaphor ��
to shout is to abuse
to use the words they spew
hypocritical that they would outcast ��
those who speak in their words
what more could they do
one fights to rend another ��s heart
one destroys the other ��s pleasure
one hides �� never defending
one attacks because it ��s easy
where am I
must I attach to gain recognition
destroy myself to regain any lasting peace
one but for the money would go
�� away, home, anywhere else ��
the other simply goes
ignoring money �� everything
one breathing to destroy
one destroying to breathe
one ��
so alike ��
deserving I suppose �� each the other
I have no pain threshold in this body
and will fight until the body goes
but the mind that can take no more
must take yet more ��
gorge and pretend enjoyment
bloat �� love the lie �� pretend satisfaction
time ended and folded to before
even as we can half close our eyes
returned to the play
they say punishment can be pleasure
so I wish I knew
why when happy for a time
I finally fell
I cannot accept the lie I must be
nor fake suffering
and I need answers
lack questions even ��
the whirlwind pulls me across the center
and I ��
don ��t think I shall feel my pieces land
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