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A Poetry tDrop
by Wetdryvac
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Evening
October 26, 1992
why do people fear me
shrink from me like the child from night
am I now so distant I make them cold
force them to shiver like the death I have become
is it all so silent on the outside of my soul
do they fall away because of the how
intent on intensity whirling in my eyes
do they fear that I turn inward
that at the point of pain I have nothing on the outside
do they fear my control
that controlled does no damage
for a while
is it that I hide pain so hard
refuse pain �� in a way to loose
is it that pain exists in force of will
for others and not for me
is it that I lock on
try to be without offence
should it perhaps be worth the risk involved
is it understanding humankind
self gratifying and rarely anything else
is it that I do not accept this in myself
should I reach to grasp whatever I want
or do I even want ��
at this distance, hard to tell
why do people fly away
I learned too much, may be
can layers of knowledge prevent loneliness
untrue ��
it is a wedge between the single and the masses
as the masses are so ignorant
yet I would prefer did I not fear them so
did they not fear me
I learned to take two things and make one ��
explosive combination �� frightening to behold
yet this I do not provide
just so much knowledge in mind
to know so much to no purpose
and the running �� always from me
without solution
my god, I say
but it is blasphemy
I know no god
all that I see are people ��s backs
I love all in possibility
yet this frightens too
frightens me ��
why is it harmful to love
I do not know
all I see ��
I fear people
people fear me
so complex it must seem
and the rest is nothing I can change
I cannot trust those close to me
I cannot lower another layer
no more defense than a flash
I know what I want, it is out of reach
and humankind fears me
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