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A Poetry tDrop
by Wetdryvac
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Internal Conflict
April 21, 1992
that which is good is bad
sensation wrong by nature
childhood learning of feeling good
banishment of pleasure
effective in the teaching
love, to admit love,
ill befit, to be avoided
caring deeply, motivated
unmanning, wrong unspoken words
nowhere to turn within such a state
though she be there for you
depression, medications set in
all you can do to derive base leisure
the question, help, the question
and open you mouth �� but nothing happens
she knows ��
this the most terrifying fall
she hears the spasm of doubt in you
that you breathe hurting ��
you are ��
yet admissions are confessions
and confession drives on sin
pain of it all seals in, admission
revealing worse the pain of admission
to tell what you feel, relief
good in relief, denial
no trouble to the answer, faster
and to be happy
you are sure with �� anyone
you would be, happiness not belonging
and the views of the child so harshly broken
no comfort nor right this condition
and how ��
you look out into the gloom of the bed
see the glow in the dark stickers on the walls
constellations �� childhood ��s motion
there was never any innocence
the hunter killed the swan, ate her heart
threw the other part a meteor
cancer growth, you know this now
stamped and crushed
even innocence was wrong
so now
here you lie without comfort
no reprieve from the night
no one to hold and share the love
for in your hour of never needing
her span was cast away
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