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by Wetdryvac
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Duality
October 1, 1991
here I sit mulling over the reasons
look out my window
I see the grey and falling rain
why is it -
when I look out in the falling shadows
I find only shame?
I thought to make a difference
looked out for a place
a place that needed me
but I found this quiet in my heart
a disease of depression
no start, no end
just silence -
so I sit watching the falling rain
wondering what has become of my world
watching -
knowing I can do little
just become one of the masses screaming
about a just cause
unanswered -
too much I cry -
banging my head against thick glass
all I see are the shadows
a world where peace is the only answer
where peace is never found
too much -
I turn out to the rain
watch it splatter on my window
waiting for nothing
falling to earth as a thousand droplets
see powers rise, see powers fall
it keeps on raining...
I wonder what would happen to me
if I cried out
told the world to stop
run in the rain
tell the answer
never fight -
I look out to the rain that's falling
and know -
I'm just another one of them
ripples in a lake overflowing
too full to hold another thought
just another point of confusion
conflicting views -
so I stay here
watch the sky, hoping for thunder
fearing it will come
knowing -
when it does the world will fall further to chaos
even in the rain
so I sit here fearing nothing -
it keeps on raining...
I wonder,
does anyone really understand?
night is coming
end the fighting I want to say
but I know I will die
or sit and rot in a cell not my making
so I wait here
watch the sheets of water pouring
who cut the sky -
I ask myself these and other questions
watching the world for a spark of hope
knowing as I sit here
it could be me -
is it worth anything?
I really make no difference I think
I will be ignored
like all before me
make a difference for a moment
then fall like the rain
can I take it -
could you -
it doesn't matter, you know
I have no heart left to speak about
my fighting days are gone
streams from the lake overflown their shores
lightning on the banks striking closer on the horizon day by day
another power come and gone
does it matter -
I do not really know
I recognize only that I have this weakness
disease of depression
the end has come
so I sit here
looking out my window
to see the world fade away
it keeps on raining...
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