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played mtg with friends at the usual spot we used to play at
feel the anxiety later
feel the shame later
feel sadness that wei don't really see them any more
also feel anger at the past self for being so hostile
feel intense dysphoria below the surface
wow this is really intense dysphoria. mostly related to sce and hair issues
really can't wait til that hrt appt
taking a lot of energy to fight the accompyning panic attack right now.
focusing on breathing, and grounding
about 30 minutes later finally able to breath more normally.
still. under the surface
asked zel for help to disengage