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Heather writes
this seems important to do for the others
getting thoughts down also useful for me
keeping up with useful activities that re-energize
or reconnect to body
` `having lots of sudden flashes of thoughts that interrupt me
just before writing this,
i was trying to calm my heart rate down through breathing and witb energy work which wasn't working
I found myself waking up from a disassociative state with no idea of how my heart rate was now at a resting pace
oh now I remember I was pulling the energy out and massaging it before sending it out to the world, kinda remember this kind of working but not quick enough. then I found myself waking up.
also still kinda wondering if Jae is poking around or if it's truly just me
two nights ago, had an intense trigger and decided to container it.
got close to it and it burned, so had to move slower to get near it to drape something over it to handle.
after doing so, the trigger opened up and wei were able to feel ok with putting it in the town square.
it was also discovered that Jae shares in this trigger and once this blockage was cleared, Jae decided to leave the front area that Jae was hiding in, leaving Heather, me, alone on front
the worry is if I am truly alone up here right now, and I think i just gotta trust the others that they are all letting me front solo
this experiment is trying to see what happens when each if us solo front
Ive been solo fronting for about 3 weeks, but 2.75 of those weeks have have with Jae as a silent and secret witness and mediator
the only ones who haven't so far are Jae, zel, and Dikarya