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once again floundering from work :0
my classes start this week which is mostly fine. i wish i didn't have a thursday class though because it seems like Everything happens on thursdays, but i only have the one in person which is nice
overall im feeling good lately. i would like to go blueberry picking soon. and perhaps kayaking.
had a really good session with my therapist earlier. it was mostly about how good things can bring bad things with them and that it's okay to not feel good about something that overall is a Good thing. i feel very seen by my therapist. she likes to use a lot of artistic tools in our sessions like whiteboards and color charts. she's a big role model for how i want to be as a therapist.
going to the shakespeare festival tonight with my friend richie :) any flounderers are welcome to join us! i will have edibles on me at all times. if u meet up with us and want one u can use the code word: "weed"
had a very cool time with some very cool people last week. we went to a show that rocked and saw 2 ambient noise sets, and then we went to an improv show that was really fun. i used to do improv club in high school, and i thought it was cringey for a while, but i forgot how fun and freeing of an art form it is! i want to incorporate it into my life again. killing the part of myself that cringes etc etc
this week and last week ive been hanging out with one of my college friends who's in town for a month. so far we've missed 2 shows we were planning on seeing just because we were talking the whole time at bars beforehand. we've been talking about going to new orleans this summer and giving each other shitty tattoos.
this weekend i was working working working. i worked 4 big rush days in a row including an event where i had to stay for an extra couple of hours. i love my bosses and coworkers and i love my job but i forgot how much it is to be on my feet and have my customer service persona On for so long. im glad i have a couple of days off this week. i didn't realize how much i needed a rainy rest day until it happened today. ive been spending it doing laundry and dishes and now im watching the new pete davidson show with my bf over discord :)
it's too early. i really just want to roll over and go back to sleep but i have work. im working by myself for the first time today-- just for the first hour, and then a coworker is gonna come in and help. im still nervous though.
sleeping alone sucks ass. after 4 nights of being able to cuddle with my bf, waking up alone feels like a smack in the face. we both struggle to get to sleep when we're on our own too, which is partially why im exhausted today. i read somewhere that that happens because your brain feels safe with the other person and lets you fully relax. i hope that's the reason. it's very sweet. nonetheless i have a strong desire to be Held first thing in the morning
i always tell myself that im gonna take a nap when i wake up tired, but usually by 8am or so im fully awake. im still gonna tell myself that ill take a nap though because i am so eeby.
my bf's mom showed us home videos of my bf when he was little. it felt kinda surreal. he has a huge family and every family event of theirs is so full of life.
today he's driving me back to stl & i have work all weekend during the day, but im slowly putting together plans for after work. thinking about getting a couple of disposable cameras for the summer :)
im gonna miss the feeling of being in jeff. even though theres really nothing to do there, ive associated it with this impossibly peaceful escape from the stresses of my life in general. time feels like it stops when im there. it just feels like my bf and me in this other dimension where we don't have to do anything but be with each other.
him coming to stl is a good thing, especially timing-wise now that my car is going to die soon. im such a nostalgic person, though, and i wasnt really expecting to feel nostalgic about this weird in-between time.