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3/28/2022

noon

29°F partly sunny 🌤

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~~~ sad thoughts ☽

each day i feel so aimless

am in that constant state of feeling like i need to be doing or making but looking at my backed up to-do list feels overwhelming. can i blame getting covid in january for feeling so absent minded?? having too many interests is a curse maybe when you just want to make games, make 3d models, draw, make a comic, learn 2 code, make a website, live in ur own head

i applied for a job last week but haven't heard back. i feel kind of bad for not constantly job hunting but burn out is what got me into this big mess in the first place </3 i worked so hard for so long at the sake of my mental wellbeing i just quit everything in the end. i still dont regret leaving my toxic job. not having stable income sucks and is making me anxious the longer i am living on my savings but not wanting to die all the time is 100% better. present me is thanking past me for saving a big chunk of my salary lol

its been almost two weeks since i had to put down tiki and i miss her like crazy. i just feel so heartbroken. she was my best friend

i dont talk about it much anymore but my other best friend also had cancer and passed away in 2018. she was just 24 years old and i still think about her all the time. part of me is in a constant state of grief

~~~~ happy thoughts ☾

⠀⠀⠀ ＿
⠀⠀ /o･ｧ
∈ミ_ﾉﾉ
⠀⠀ヽヽ

now that its spring im trying to cheer up since i am a sunlight fiend ✿ ❀ ✾ ❁

i've updated the look of most of my game models except the main character, which i am doing now! it feels so satisfying to see them with new hair, its totally reframes the character. i was never too happy with the outfits i made her, so i am making some new ones based of some hella cute gyaru l00kz uwu ^-^

i am working on some cool projects that i dont want to spill the secrets on >_> <_< >:3

other than that, i finally got to finish chapter 1 of my gemini webcomic >:-o i really want to work on this more since i think about the story all the time buttttttttttt getting the motivation to sit down and draw and write is ever fickle SDFSDG

im going to spend today not being too hard on myself. work on some things i need to work on and get lost in some creative time ~~~ ☆彡

xoxo