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But I've always had a rather terminal case of work ethic
Restless hand and mind syndrome. I suffer from it too. I like to think that I'd live out my retirement in some virtual reality game-sphere thing, but I've had vacations where I do nothing but that and it gets mind-numbingly boring.
I need to create instead of just consuming, otherwise I feel like I can't justify my existence. There's a nice anime called "Welcome to the NHK" which explores similar themes, of a uni-dropout shut-in NEET whose trying to bring meaning to his existence, and it resonated with me a lot.
But... well, my wife was horrified to hear I was 166 lbs a couple weeks ago (was about 185 lbs when I started the job)... and this morning I blew 163 lbs on the weight scale whistle. No idea what to make of it, as I'm eating to beat a "the band" conference.
You lucky SOB! Stress does the opposite for me, where I just gain and gain without release. At least you can look at yourself in the mirror amidst the most wretched mindset and think "hey, I still got it".
> Restless hand and mind syndrome. I suffer from > ittoo. I like to think that I'd live out my > retirementin some virtual reality game-sphere thing, > but I'vehad vacations where I do nothing but that > and itgets mind-numbingly boring.
"Doing the dishes" (manually) provides the most relief.
And that's actually childhood related, as I recall at family gatherings on my dad's side feeling far more comfortable around the "womanfolk" (a non-offensive term in my day) than the men in conversations after the meal. The males seemed what I want to call "uncomfortably gruff" in speech, and of course at least one wasn't unfamiliar with drinking at levels conducive to "saying things you probably shouldn't". That invariably led - yea, drove - me to becoming the primary dish-washer at such events.
> You lucky SOB! Stress does the opposite for me, > whereI just gain and gain without release. At least > youcan look at yourself in the mirror amidst the > mostwretched mindset and think "hey, I still got it".
Oh, sure... load me up with quality guilting while I'm down and out! :-)
<ponders a "Load Me Up" song spoof on Wham!'s "Wake Me Up">