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🙙 Half-baked thoughts and brain farts 🙛
I haven't written anything (outside of the gutter) lately, but my head just keeps spinning, so much that it affects my sleep. I think I have cycles of seeing too many paths that I should take in life/career/research, and then exhaust myself, intellectually, emotionally, or all of the above.
I saw a friend whose work is finally paying after 15 years pushing a passion project. I'm not sure I could ever choose a single project.
It's very warm today; we went from winter to summer temperature in a few days. My daugther's sleeping with a blanket for the very first time at home, but she's already so attached to it that she asked me to tuck her in when she woke up around 11:30. I didn't understand the word she used for blanket: "aistu" (with the French "u", but very long, trailing to an invisible consonant), for "couverture". Fortunately, she's always very patient with me.
I might have accepted the fact that I'm going to feel tired and exhausted. Like, there's no way I can climb back from this sleep debt hole, is there? Might as well start reading the Upanishads and bake.
My daughter seems to be making the same reasoning...
My daughter cried to me twice tonight, just to be rocked a little. She will still sleep through the rest of the night. Gods I love it.
Just made this page because I wanted to put something in writing, but didn't want to post a facebook status. But the compulsion has passed.