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Yes, I was able to take the psych med last night, had some indigestion, and then it settled and I was able to eat. I ate before that too without a problem.
For me, in terms of hunger (because let's face it, I've never had to face ACTUAL starvation, fortunately), I have much less mental focus and much more anger and feelings of impulsiveness. For example, I returned home from a botched trip out west at the beginning of this month, and by the time my Greyhound bus arrived in St Louis, I hadn't eaten in 20+ hours, and I hadn't slept in that time, either. I was supposed to walk 20+ blocks to get to a Western Union location to retrieve a money order to catch a cab back to my apartment, and instead I called my sister in (self) anger and disarray, because I was so distraught that that time, that I thought I would "snap" at anyone who might have caused me the slightest inconvenience between me and the 20 block walk. Like, I didn't trust myself to control my emotions at that time, and wasn't sure exactly how to do what I was doing (walk 20 blocks to such and such address to fetch a Western Union and then arrive back home).
Kind of a "Hangry" on steroids, in a way. LOL!
Glad I got straightened out, and hope I don't have to experience anything like that again.
Hope you're good, tetris :)
Glad to hear you got through it!
My SO gets Hangry if she doesn't eat at very specific times of the day. I'm the complete opposite: I eat whenever, usually out of boredom, and normally in an unplanned manner that leads to bad food habits. The upside of this is that when the option of food is removed, I quickly adapt.
I've actually got a very similar story to yours in regards to this: For a job interview I took a bus from the UK to my current country, but was robbed at the bus station. There I was stranded without a passport or wallet over the weekend, in a country where things typically close during non work days. The police were of no help, the embassy was shut until Monday - I had nothing except my phone which was very low on battery.
To keep myself sane I would slowly wander the city from one side to the next to pass the time, in a weird relaxed but alert state admiring the sheer beauty of the city. At night I would keep walking, but I'd spend a few hours of twilight until the morning bustle sleeping on benches.
During the whole time, I was aware that I needed food, but I did not actually get any hunger pangs, and was more acutely aware of my boredom than anything.
Speaking of Western Union, the first meal I had during that unfortunate excursion happened because I chance spoke with a Quebecois Canadian who agreed to accept money on my behalf sent by my brother (you need a passport to receive money...). Super friendly guy, I even tried to offer him some of my money for the trouble, but he just refused and wished me a good day. The first thing I ate was a Subway cookie. You'd think I would remember that cookie, how it felt and tasted, but it was an utterly unremarkable moment.
This is why I think I can actually function without food, but I've just trapped myself in this eat→boredom→eat cycle and can't seem to pattern my way out of it.