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Title: Milly Witkop-Rocker Author: Rudolf Rocker Date: June 1956 Language: en Topics: biography, obituary, Milly Witkop Source: Retrieved on 10-08-2021 from http://dwardmac.pitzer.edu/anarchist_archives/bright/rocker/RockerMilly/index.html
We came from different worlds, worlds as unrelated and strange to each
other as the little town of Slotopol in the Ukraine and the ancient city
on the Rhine where I was born. As to how and why life brought us
together, a whole story could be written about it without getting closer
to the truth. The how may perhaps be explained; the why is as
unfathomable as life itself.
What we call the “purpose of life” is the only purpose we ourselves
ascribe to it, for it is the logic of human thought alone that gives
life a purpose. But Life has no logic and is full of contradictions and
dark riddles. Logic on the other hand, is nothing more than a device,
unable to function without the aid of metaphors and symbols. The finest
logic is merely a creation of man, and therefore as imperfect as man
himself. It often leads to wishful thinking, and is as illusory as a
mirage in a desert.
The short span we call our life cannot be estimated in advance and is,
at bottom, only what we ourselves make of it or what is made of it for
us by others. In this domain there is room only for surmise, but not for
certainty.
We found each other, and although each came from an entirely different
world, we built a world of our own together. This, alone, was the
essence of our union.
When I first met Milly in London, sixty years ago, she was already an
active and devoted member of the Worker’s Friend Group. Milly had a
deeply religious nature when she came to England. But the new
environment into which she came in London was one far removed from that
of her native little town in the Ukraine. In the notorious sweatshops of
the big ghetto where she had to earn her meagre living, people worked
even on the Sabbath when they had to, and did many things which were
contrary to the principles of Jewish religion. The young girl rebelled
against this, often courting trouble and losing her job. It was at the
time that her first doubts arose. Given her character, nothing else was
possible. Any half-measure was repugnant to her. Whatever she was she
had to be wholly and completely. Then, when chance brought her together
with a comrade of the East End, in one of the little shops where she
worked, and she began to learn the causes of the terrible misery which
made the ghetto into a hell at that time, a great transformation
gradually took place within her. A new vision began to take shape and,
in time, she found her true place. And as she felt everything deeply she
embraced the new ideas with the same fervor she had shown for the
religion of her childhood. For she was one of those rare people who
think with their heart as well as with their head. She devoured all the
libertarian literature that came her way, and thus found new channels
for her great yearning which burnt within her and which she retained to
the last.
Milly was a person with an inherent sense of responsibility, such as one
seldom finds, and it is precisely for this reason that she was a truly
free human being in everything she thought and did. When she arrived in
London, a girl in her teens, she denied herself every extra penny’s
worth of food until, after three years, she was at last able to bring
her parents and her three sisters from Russia and provide a home for
them. The effort required for this can only be appreciated by someone
familiar with the unbelievable working conditions which existed in the
London ghetto at that time. Doing things of this sort was to Milly a
matter of course.
I lived with her for fifty-eight years. We knew bitter privations and
experienced many hardships, but none of them could destroy our quiet
happiness. There was something in our life that can hardly be described,
a hidden temple which we alone could enter. When in lonely hours I now
think back to that wonderful time, there come to my mind involuntarily
the words of Auban’s wife, in Mackay’s Anarchists. To a fool who asked
her what she had contributed to the happiness of mankind, she replied
with fine irony: “A great deal! I myself have been happy.”
Each of us could have said the same. The worst enemies of human
happiness have been those who have sought to impose their formula of
happiness on others. Happiness that is forced upon one is nothing but
gilded slavery. There is no happiness without free choice. We should
never strive to make mankind happy according to a universal panacea but
should instead create living conditions that will permit each to find
happiness in his own way.
We had to endure many a malicious thrust of fate, but we also
experienced many joyful hours, such as are granted to few and cannot be
bought. When we were alone together in our free evenings, I would read
aloud to Milly many of the world’s great books. Over the years we
enjoyed hundreds of works by writers of every nationality and every
period. A unique atmosphere pervaded then our home, exhilarating and
purifying.
We were never bored with each other, and always found that which was
worth while and made life more beautiful. Had Milly been in accord with
everything I said, this would not have been possible. But her native
intelligence allowed her to form her own opinions on everything, and she
was able to express them with skill. When, on such occasions, the
discussion became heated, she would suddenly smile, put her arms around
me and say: “We really are a funny couple.” At that we would both burst
out into happy laughter. We never had to seek the blue bird of happiness
afar; it was in our midst.
Milly was a woman of rare stature and nobility who rejected all that was
ugly and mean. She was like a mother to her younger friends and
comrades; even in her later years she was always surrounded by young
people, who loved and revered her. Wherever we lived our modest home was
a gathering place for people of different races and nationalities and it
was Milly to whom it owed its warmth and charm.
Only a few of her many activities in the libertarian movement can be
mentioned here. She took a conspicuous part in the struggles and
constructive endeavors of the Jewish workers in England, and was to be
found wherever useful and needed work was done. She also participated in
all the great international demonstrations which took place in London at
the time.
During the great strike of the London dock laborers in 1912, she played
a prominent part in helping to place hundreds of children from families
involved in the homes of Jewish comrades. This was a a splendid
demonstration of international solidarity made even more conspicuous by
the fact that the Jewish workers themselves had barely come through one
of the greatest strikes ever fought in the East End.
In Germany Milly found a fertile field in the anarcho-syndicalist
movement. She was one of the pioneers of the Syndicalist Women’s
Alliance, an organization which was represented at all our conventions
and developed into an important adjunct of the Freie Arbeiter-Union of
Germany.
Milly was a courageous woman who always stood up for her conviction.
This she proved during the first World War as well as on numerous other
occasions. When, during the war, the English government issued a decree
compelling all Russian immigrants in England to enroll in the British
army or face deportation to Russia, she immediately joined the protest
movement and was promptly arrested. The defense lawyer who was placed at
her disposal had, without consulting her, presented a plea in which he
endeavored to absolve her of all guilt in the matter. Milly first
learned of this statement when her case came up for trial. She
immediately lodged a protest and declared: “I am grateful to my attorney
for his good intentions but nevertheless declare that I will openly
voice my convictions, come what may. I believe that the voice of one’s
conscience is the only true forum of justice.” This forthright avowal
resulted in her imprisonment for two and a half years, but even her
judges had to respect her honesty and courage.
When two people whom fate brought together share a companionship as long
as ours, they gradually become inseparable. This happened with us, too.
Whenever the name of one was mentioned, the name of the other was
echoed. Thus we became the “romantic pair,” as our Spanish friend
Tarrida del Marmol once called us in jest.
It was inevitable that some day the hour should come when one of us
would have to go. But this is sober logic which cannot lessen the pain
of the bereaved. I only know that, with this wonderful woman, something
was taken from me that no eternity can bring back. We have all lost her,
for, with Milly, one of the last of the old guard has passed away, one
who contributed sixty years of her life to a cause that will never die
as long as men live on this earth.
What she was to me personally, I cannot say. There are moments in our
life when words become meaningless for they can never express one’s
deepest feelings. Since these are hardly a subject for public exhibition
it is perhaps just as well. During the long and yet so short years of
our union I received he best and the purest that this noble woman had to
give. For this I must be grateful.
She died as she had lived — brave, composed, and without complaint.
During the last ten months she was often ill, but always recovered. But
gradually her strength began to wane and she felt tired nearly all the
time. The doctors comings and goings became more frequent. Nevertheless,
she would rally now and then, giving us new hope. During the last weeks,
she often had difficulty in breathing, and I believed she herself felt
the end approaching but concealed her feelings, so as not to cause us
any worry. The doctor believed that her breathing difficulties were
caused by hardening of her arteries. Once after a short rally she said
to me: “I wish I could live another year or two, to see our Philip grow
and thrive.” She loved our grandson with all her tenderness of which she
was capable. Her words made a deep impression upon me. I said nothing,
but I clearly felt what was going on in her soul.
Two weeks before the end the real agony started. Breathing became
increasingly difficult for her so that we finally decided to take her to
the hospital. I felt what was coming and my heart was numb. When Fermin,
Polly and I came to see her the next morning, we found her in an oxygen
tent. She smiled at us as we entered and asked me to open the curtain.
Then she kissed us tenderly. When she noticed the gloomy look on
Fermin’s face she said: “What is the matter, Fermin? You should not be
sad, my dear boy.” Then she threw her arms around my neck and said in a
weak but distinct voice: “I will fight to the last, my dear, and if I
fail, you will know it was not my fault.” Then she kissed us all with
great feeling, as though she wished to say farewell, and sank exhausted
upon her pillow. We left the room in silence, to let her rest. When we
returned two hours later, she lay in the same position, but she was
already unconscious. The doctor told us that her blood pressure was
sinking. An hour later she breathed her last.
She died on November 23^(rd), 1955 and was cremated on the 27^(th) in
accordance with her wishes. Once when we happened to touch on the
subject she said, half in jest: “Perhaps it is all the same to the dead
what happens to them but I find it beautiful to be consumed by flames,
for fire is a pure element. To be eaten up by worms in the brave is ugly
and repugnant to my feelings.” She was right. We went to life together
for almost sixty years and my ashes will mingle with hers when my hour
comes.
The news of her death spread rapidly all over the world. From almost
every country came messages of condolence. Old friends, libertarian
groups, trade unions and other organizations, all sent expressions of
sympathy. I was touched by the kind words that were said about my
companion of so many years. They helped to ease the forsaken feeling in
this most difficult hour of my life. It is good to have faithful friends
at such a time. However, I do not want them to worry about my future. I
am not in despair and shall still be able to face life as I always did.
One of my closest friends, who understood the intimate relationship
between Milly and myself, wrote me: “You and Milly have lived so
intensively with and for each other that she cannot be taken away from
you at all.”
These words rang home for they contain a great deal of truth. I shall
have to rearrange my life but she will remain the inspiration to me that
she always was. From the very start she had taken the strongest interest
in my work, and just a few months before her death, when I had a chance
to resume my interrupted work, she said smilingly: “The tapping of your
typewriter keys is music to my ears.” Her boundless devotion made
possible the full development of my creative powers, and will be an
inspiration in the future.
I may say without false modesty that I always have had the strength to
face calamities, but I have never thought of myself as a hero, even less
as a martyr, as there was something in both that was alien to my nature.
I endured suffering because I had to, not because I wanted to. I am not
stronger than others nor weaker. I shall continue to work, not because I
want to deaden my sorrow but because I have the inner certainty that
this was Milly’s wish, too
Great suffering should purify a man, direct his thinking inward, make
him milder and more human. It should deepen his understanding and
strengthen his character. But when anguish destroys his moral fibre his
powers of resistance crumble and the energy so necessary for a new start
is dissipated. Suffering can become a tyrant that puts the will in
shackles and robs it of its purpose. I was not made for this.
Milly and I have loved life because it gave us so much happiness, so
much beauty and opened such rich perspectives, more than compensating
for all the misery, the hardships and the gray monotony of everyday
life.
Calderon may have been right when he said: “Y toda la vida es sueño”-
and all life is but a dream, because all things are transitory and
subject to time’s eternal drift. But it is man who gives shape and
substance to the dream. It can become either a luminous experience or a
nightmare that crushes and pulls him down into the depths.
Therefore I shall continue to work, to create, to hope and to fight,
just as I did when Milly was at my side. I know I have not squandered my
life; hence death has no fear for me. But my friends and comrades, who
have shown me so much love and kindness in these trying days, I can only
say: Do not despond. I still feel strong enough to defy fate, just as
Milly would have done, too, had I been the first to go. The words of the
poet speak for me, too:
“I have seen much sorrow and many tears in my life, but I have also seen
great happiness and exultant bliss. I have looked into the abysses where
horror dwells and pale fear, but my eyes have also seen blue shores
veiled in dreamy remoteness, the home of man’s great longing and eternal
hope. I am armed against every storm. He who suffers much, comprehends
much and does not snap like a dry twig in the wind.”
Those of us to whom nature has been generous should accept her gifts
with modesty and humility. If we are blessed with more than average
intelligence we should never forget how little we actually know. There
was much that I was able to give to Milly and she accepted it with
gratitude. She, on the other hand, gave me far more in return. She
opened a door in my heart which had been unknown to me before and which
might never have been opened without her. Through the open door came
sunshine, came joyous experience and inner peace without which life
would be hopelessly distorted. That is why she will always be with me,
my companion of so many fruitful and happy years. She stood undismayed
through storm and stress and, at the same time was a tender mother to
our child. She was a part, and surely the best part of my life. Death
may separate us physically, it can never erase her image from my heart
or dim the memories of the precious years we spent.