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As I open the window of my appartment on the seventh floor, the chill air - the winter is soon - comes into contact with my skin. Tiny needles of frost pierce me. I can now breathe freely, I didn't know breathing this freely was ever possible.
The entire universe gets divided by a two-dimensional plane running through my window, through me, standing in that window, perpendicular to my line of sight as I look forward into the dark nightly forest.
My house is at the city's edge. I am at the city's edge.
The appartment is behind this invisible universal split. I will return, give me time. Let the time stretch as I forget my present, my past, myself, as I run
run
run
a mental marathon from whatever it was that comprised my existence up to this point in time.
This absolutely mundane moment in time that doesn't mean anything as such. You will only remember it because it's night, and you normally are not awake at night, and after all these days, months, years of nothingness you used to soak in you finally made this one decision, you opened your eyes instead of closing them, you opened your window instead of closing it, you opened your soul instead of closing it and you decided to run
run
run
a mental marathon - for the first time - towards your future self, from your past self.
The universal divisor is local to my mind. I will tell no one, it will cease to exist, nothing really happened.
It's so cold I like it. I close the window and I'm back to my room and it's bigger than it ever was, and I'm smaller than I ever were.
You feel things and it never shows on your face. These aren't things you ever wanted to feel. Aren't you in control?
The night will pass and the universal divisor will erase from the universe, only to fully emerge in my mind. I will walk as I always do, I will smile as I always do, I will say things that I always say, but actually - you will not know it - I will run run run run run run
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Keith Aprilnight (aprilnightk@tilde.team)