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"nothing's gonna change my world"

~tffb

I sat in boredom, and I lay silently, sick with the tonality of my life quality being fairly low. It's been this way for some time, so it is what it is. But I started on meds that work ok, so there's some "clarity" coming back to my brain.

Then I went and put on Tidal and put on The Beatles song (mostly Lennon) of "Across the Universe", which upon hearing it for the first time, seemed like somehow he, Lennon, just *manifested* pure beauty into this world via guitar. What a track!

And the lyrics "nothing's gonna change my world" rang true this evening. Nothing IS going to change my world - new habits are being formed, starting to attend a "working program" of sorts, and also talking to more neighbors, so I'm glad about all of that.

Still "nothing's gonna change my world" - the "overall", the "base" of my world/life just *is* as it *is*, and that's how it is.

Onto more evening :)

A coffee, ~bartender? Thank you

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~inquiry wrote (thread):

Damned amazing song.

I was a huge Lennon fan growing up.

Late in high school I went to a Baptist church with the high school girlfriend, and a couple years later I was attending what I imagine must be the premiere fundamentalist Christian university.

I was on a cleaning crew there one night when during lunch break one of the others said something like "Did you hear John Lennon was shot tonight?"

I didn't want to sound too interested fear mild fear of revealing some past big time idolatry. So I waited a bit, and said something like "Oh? Shot?"

"Yep. Shot an killed...."

I finished my shift in a daze that may have bordered on coma, came back to my dorm room (FOUR roommates...) and played radio stations definitely forbidden by the university, especially at something like 2:00am.

That was the beginning of the end of high-end religiosity for me. I started reviving Beatles songs on pianos in small practice rooms, sorta kinda begging to get caught performing "worldly" music.

And of course I can remember the scene where "I learned the news today, oh boy" as though it were yesterday.