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How to Destroy Everything
by 6billionghosts
"You have enemies ok you want to destroy them ok." - tH3 m4n!4c
"noise"
the gods (kami) provide the noise
spirits lurk in the corners of our perception. whether they are born from
within or from some external force is not important. the impulses and
compulsions of everyday life fuel an assault on the psyche.
humanity isolates, interprets the signal and broadcasts it through human
creativity.
instead of the classic organ at service there is a noiseboard. it is
preprogrammed to emit nonmeaningful data while the human youth sing over it.
one of the greatest programmers of nonmeaning took it upon himself to program a
day of meaning into the noiseboard. he was exiled from the church thereafter.
holes in head provide access
cosmetic surgery
aura = spirit noise embodied
each head has spirits
try to block out human signal
cult of the universal signal
silent for a day
"it is not the ripples in the water that are beautiful..it is the water itself;
peaceful, undisturbed. here at CUSP we try to isolate the moments of beauty we
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enabled. well i may as well give it a shot considering i really have no other
desire but to do
there are cultures, cults of noise. there are musicians who use noise as a tool
but when it becomes a lifestyle, when it overwhelms the ?=8??e?2v???S?j??
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"mechanical me"
I hate the pictures they put on the walls. I remember Donald Duck at the
nursery school. I despise I despise. The big brown sun shines over NITKE and
the Harvard assholedickcunts in us all. Harvard is like an underground mansion
with many rooms and all of them are filled with Macintosh products and droning
voices like cellophane and NO NO YOU MAY NOT CHANGE YOUR WALLPAPER IT IS DONALD
DUCK OR NOTHING YOU LITTLE BASTARD.
She told him to greet the brown sun and he said what-ever do you mean because
Harvard people always speak with those dashes dots and semicolons and by god if
I ever see another semicolon I swear the revolver is on you. in you. in your
mouth. it's not just any revolver it is a special model for my mecha robod
which is as lesbian she prefers asian women or possibly Portugese but she's
really an all-around great person and she's my carapace for facing the harsh
world of Reaganomics and fast food and christianity.
"I don't celebrate Halloween, I'm a christian. But it's okay, you look cute."
said the boy at the coffee shop
So she told him to greet the brown sun and he looked out the window and he
realized his little harvard-born silver spoon laserdisc fatheaded existence was
overshadowed by doubt. doubt in the shape of a brown, bordering on pea-green
sun.
Whenever I think about writing I want to break down in tears and just start
bawling in someone's arms and cry out "I just don't make sense anymore."
When really I do it just takes a lot of time to stop making sense, sit down,
relax, and make sense for someone other than myself.
I think I make sense when I am talking to Nitke though. I don't really need the
robod then. My room mate just called me about lunch. I don't think I want to
go. The thought of food in my belly
Well I just thought it and it wasn't pleasant. The robod feeds off the
sexuality of others because people are very sloppy with their emotions and they
spread them all around. smear them on everything. some things ought to be
spread because of the impact they have but others are just filler. there was a
cool delivery truck last year that delivered snak foods to the machines in my
dorm. i lived on the 2nd floor above the front entrance (next to AJ) and i
could always hear the music coming from the truck. the delivery guy always
played this fascinating trip-hop music. one day i hope to look forward to the
hours ahead and say to myself with arms outstretched "Oh, what an exercise in
futility" and smile a genuine smile. I've never smiled an in-genuine smile in
my life and I don't think I ever could. I've smiled in fear but it was a
genuine smile. The robod's artificial smile is located at my belly and when it
amused, like when the muscles I acquired over summer atrophied into nothing,
its flesh twists into a ghoulish smile with no teeth. its skin is pale and
clammy and its insides are warm and soft as snow.
So I've been thinking and sitting and being somewhat relaxed and in this
relaxed state of mind (when I have some of my bestest ideas) I decided I would
like to relate my story to you. I will tell it to you how I wanted to in a
novel this month for national novel writing month but I've decided I don't
really want to do that just yet. I want to write it out to one person and
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"CONCAVE"
voices rise and fall
limbs struggle, reflecting sunlight
and spread your chest inside out, concave
no body can speak whole oceans of voice
no body can get out
from under your see ing fingers
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