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SURVIVAL AND THE PARANOID by Kurt Saxon (c) 1977
"One suggestion; you should have the newsletter folded the
opposite way. The large title attracts the attention of the mail
people and people's family. I don't want everyone to know that I'm
stocking up and thinking they can come to me for help. So please
have THE SURVIVOR folded backside out"...
..."I'm also wondering if it is possible to have a
subscription to your publication, THE SURVIVOR, and/or back issues,
sent to us in plain envelopes, First Class, if necessary. Inasmuch
as we live in a very conservative community, receiving your
publication in a plain envelope would prevent alarming our local
postmaster!"...
The above two writers may not be clinically paranoid but they
demonstrate the simple inconvenience of paranoia. Both are so
afraid of their own neighbors that they will miss out on THE
SURVIVOR. No big thing in itself. But what else are they missing
out on just because they don't dare let their neighbors in on their
preparations?
The term "paranoid" is used constantly but hardly understood.
The clinical definition of paranoid is one with delusions of
grandeur coupled with feelings of persecution. (A lesbian is a
mannish depressive with delusions of gender-pass it on.) A paranoid
believes he has gotten to the hidden truths of matters most
important to him. He also believes that such knowledge makes him
dangerous to those actually running things.
Believing there are enemies all around, fantasizing about
plots and such, gives him a feeling of importance, of being in the
know. But that feeling of importance is counteracted by the terror
of the realization that one's enemies will step on him like a bug
once he learns enough to be really dangerous to them.
Paranoids can't accept our social decline as a result of
climatic change, surplus population, reduced resources, mental
defectives and other natural influences which have been knocking
out civilizations throughout history. No, paranoids see a plot
behind the whole thing.
Some group, easily identifiable to the initiated and aware, is
manipulating civilization. Our collapse is imminent. THEY are
destroying everything THEY can't control when the time comes. Then,
THEY will step in, run up THEIR flag and assume complete control.
THEY will then destroy all those who anticipated THEIR fiendishness.
Of course, these Agents of Darkness have sympathizers in every
neighborhood. THEY are also entrenched in the Justice Department
with links to every police station and dog pound in the United
States.
So the idea of surviving civilization's collapse is actually
incomprehensible to the paranoid. He may play at survival but THEY
will win in the end. Of course, it all depends on security.
To the paranoid, his only chance lies in secrecy. If a few
hundred of the right type can survive, in spite of all the traitors
planted in their midst, good will eventually triumph.
The above doesn't fit every paranoid but too many hold to this
general pattern.
When I began THE SURVIVOR, an old man wrote to me about his
homemade security system, his advanced age and his ability to
survive whatever adversity might strike. I thought he was such a
fantastic old man I wanted to share him with others as an example
of self-reliance in old age.
I printed his letter and address, thinking he would like to
correspond with elders in like circumstances, or young folk needing
a granddad figure. As soon as he got the issue with his letter in
it he sent me a screaming note about how I'd exposed him to the
world, lowered his property values and generally put him in jeopardy.
I answered saying that no one else withing over a hundred
miles of his town took THE SURVIVOR. If his homemade security
system was offensive to a realtor or a potential buyer it could be
taken out with no loss of property value. Nothing I said mattered.
He was going to sue if I didn't take his address out of the Survivor.
I told him his address would be out the next printing, he had
no case and he ought to get his head read. This might have calmed
him down except some reader had to go and send him a letter. This
started him off again and we had another go-round.
Nowadays I'd just have thrown his letters away, cancelled his
subscription and forgotten him. But then I was concerned. I felt I
had caused him anguish and wanted to make amends.
However, once you've gotten on the wrong side of a paranoid,
there's no making amends. I'm now part of the plot.
Anyway, my point is that paranoia is not funny. It is also a
serious drawback to anyone's attempts to survive or to better
himself on any level of endeavor.
Paranoia is simply exaggerated and useless fear. Normally,
everyone is afraid at times. Normal fear leads to normal caution.
But when fear becomes obsessive caution, distrust and universal
suspicion, it becomes paranoia.
For instance, say you decide to become a tightrope walker. If
you are clumsy and awkward and hung over and strung out and normal,
you will fear falling because of a lack of ability. If you really
want to be a tightrope walker, you'll go over your shortcomings and
eliminate them, thereby fitting yourself to become what you want to
be.
But if you are paranoid, you will disregard any of your own
short-comings. You will reason instead, that the Circus World is
controlled by people who will feel threatened by any success you
might achieve. Lest you become a star in their private world,
they'll hire someone to shoot you off that high wire.
So the paranoid is actually a self-imagined winner, beaten
before he starts. If he isn't actually mentally ill, he has an
overactive imagination, putting non-existent obstacles in his own
path. Instead of developing his abilities, taking his lumps and
successes as they come, he relieves himself of the challenge by
stacking the deck against himself. He's really just a cop-out artist.
Usually he has MBD (see Page 57) which keeps him in a state of
arrested development. He's like a child who imagines himself the
hero of his fantasies but sees his parents and elders as blocks to
any successes he might achieve. An adult with this problem has
lofty fantasies but replaces his elders with various authority and
power figures who might feel threatened by his achievements. So he
doesn't really try to improve his circumstances. In his fantasies
he feels little guilt about being a loser. After all, if he weren't
so magnificent and superior, would the forces of International Crud
be united against him?
Every paranoid, however, has sane moments the same as I do. He
realizes that whatever is really keeping him back, he's far behind
and he's not very happy. Maybe something got in his way during
childhood which made him stop testing the system. That's the key to
it all; testing the system to see what one can get away with.
All children do, and if their elders understand and don't
over-punish, the child will have a good idea what he can get away
with and how far to go in finding his limitations. But if a child
has overly strict parents, or MBD, punishment might be so severe,
or seem to be, that testing the system is not worth the effort, or
it may even seem downright dangerous. So the guy reaches adulthood,
either not trying anything, as an individual, or becoming such a
Secret Squirrel no one will ever know what he'd doing.
This would be all right except the paranoid often tries to
impose his own fears on others who share his stated goals. This can
be a drag, especially in my case.
Years ago I saw books hinting at do-it-yourself mayhem. They
promised a lot more than they delivered but suggested that any
stronger stuff would be suppressed. Well, I'd dabbled in paranoid
gutter politics for years and didn't believe such material could be
suppressed. I set out to write, publish, and sell the most
outrageous, potentially destructive manual ever created on this
planet. If interested parties had the power to suppress knowledge,
they would suppress the work you know as THE POOR MAN'S JAMES BOND.
Well, first I was talked to by the D.A.'s man and our local
FBI agent. Interesting. Then I was subpoenaed to a Senate Hearing
in Washington, D.C. They paid my plane fare both ways, put me up in
a hotel room with TV and let me rave at a panel of bemused
Senators. I had ever so much fun and got a lot of laughs.
There was not one request that I stop publishing the material;
there was no threat to my person, my freedom or to my economic
security.
I've sold about 40,000 copies of the work over the past five
years with no interference from anyone. Yet, I still get orders for
the PMJB which are wrapped in aluminum foil so Federal Agents can't
read them by X-Ray. Some orders are so coded to protect the
identity of the one wanting it that the book comes back marked,
"Addresse Unknown". Paranoia!
Common sense might suggest that since it's legal for me to
write it, publish it and sell it, a customer can legally own it.
Despite the fact that, to the best of my knowledge, no one has ever
been hassled for owning the PMJB, paranoids around the country
consider ordering it the last thing they will be allowed to do
before being led away.
No matter. What really bugs me about paranoids is their
attitude toward THE SURVIVOR. THE SURVIVOR isn't an underground
publication. It isn't political; it doesn't advocate any sort of
criminality or extreme social activism. Nor is it pornography. THE
SURVIVOR is a family publication. Plain envelope, indeed!
Anyone really interested in Survival will have to drop all his
paranoid fantasies. The ones who inspired this editorial are too
afraid of their neighbors to have an effective chance at surviving.
Survivalists must examine each fear and eliminate it. There
are enough real things to fear without being hung up on imaginary
fears.
Every fear is an unconfronted weakness. I'm no longer afraid
of the calamities which face the general populace. I faced my fears
and eliminated their cause.
At one time I thought my mail might be monitored. Instead of
frustrating the monitors by going out of business, I called my
postmaster and had a long talk about it, wherein it was explained
to me how mail was monitored and why mine wasn't.
I think everyone gets flashes of paranoia where he entertains
irrational fears. But rather than give in to such fears and work
out elaborate habit patterns to reinforce them, one should go
straight to the source and confront it.
Such an action not only eliminates a fear but makes it harder
for new fears to settle in. Practice makes boldness and the
Survivalist must be bold.
A guy hiding his survival preparations might as well forget
it. His neighbors are more important to his chances than any
survival gear. The neighbors I'm talking about are working people
who are acquaintances and potential friends. I'm not suggesting one
share his plans with welfare bums, winos, dopers and general trash.
No. I'm talking about decent people who simply don't share our
views at this time. These people will come around to our way of
thinking in time.
The Survivalist's early preparations will give him status in
his neighborhood as things get worse. The neighbors will listen to
him in the near future if he will only give them the chance to
agree with him now. But if he automatically writes them off as
hostile and potential looters, that's exactly what they'll be when
things get really bad.
I think some of you get survival preparations confused with
having a fallout shelter. If you had a shelter and your neighbors
didn't, you would be severely mobbed in the event of a nuclear war.
Your neighbor's lives would depend on getting in. But an extra
supply of food, weapons and trade goods in your home would not give
rise to panic. There would be nothing immediate about it.
There won't be a government message saying that everyone with
a stock of survival goods will live and those without will die,
period. There won't be a stampede to your place. Before things get
bad enough for your neighbors to loot you, they will still have
time to imitate you, although not as cheaply or with your wide
selection.
But let's say you're a real Secret Squirrel and have made your
home a storehouse of arms, food, etc. No one knows and finally the
system collapses and your nieghborhood goes through the turmoil you
might expect.
Now your neighbors, who you've considered enemies, have
managed to fight off some bands of looters and are setting up
neighborhood defense and help organizations. Instead of being among
the leadership, you are simply one who shares what they have
because they think you are in need.
You're in real trouble because if your neighbors find out
you've been holding out and taking help from them, they'll shoot
you. If you don't take their help, they'll find out why and shoot
you for holding out.
Your only real chance now is to give your neighbors the
benefit of the doubt or move to an isolated farm. In any event, the
more allies you have, the better your chances. But if all you see
now are enemies, that's all you'll see when you need friends the
most.