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Title: When the Flame Extinguishes Author: Nykaeva Date: 02/11/2020 Language: en Topics: anarcho-nihilism, post-civ, nihilism, anti-psychiatry, spiritual, spirituality. Magic
TODAY WAS THE DAY IT WAS ALL GOING TO CHANGE
but then everything changed around me no more connection and im broke
knowing I will be watched in every step I take only a matter of time
before i get locked up again I cant take the ones who say the love me
but actually just want me to be the same when looking at the gas chamber
blessed is the flame that rises in me I would rather go out it an
explosion of brains than spend my life being domesticated this world has
no future and the one i made for myself has been ruined so its time I
live its time i eliminate my sadness and hatred its time my flame
destroys all blessed in the flame that makes me me able to risk losing
my limbs if that's the only way i wont stop to be free a panoptic in my
life has risen but they wont get me no they wont get me never again they
wont get me I will never suffer from their sense of authority cause its
time I stopped suffering never again will I not be free call me crazy
call me a nihilist I understand if you miss me but I have been doomed by
paranoid friends and my small world that i created to escape has been
destroyed again never to be rebuilt as im watched in every step they
wont watch as i fall down back to where i came from I think i deserve to
be at peace I think I deserve to be happy now don't you think? I'm
embracing the goddess to the last level ego death isnt enough for my
mental complete anihilation is my only help so if I break the glass
today know I did it with a smile on my face if I'm locked in the glass
again then you should be sad my freedom is more important than my life
my world has colapsed controlled and disciplined I have been spanked by
those who think they are above me but if I cant be who I want then I
would rather not be please understand it I want to become one with It
and theres no putting our the the air that feeds the flame that burns
inside us and destroys all that tries to control us the flames are
rising its time for my apocalypse may the end of this civilization
procceed so if im no longer with you carry the torch that's all I ask
for I'm a freak saturnine until I die if you are one too and you can
keep burning then I say burn it down I dont wish to be a martyr yet I
can't stop thinking of all the pain this world has given look into my
eyes when my ghost visits you and know it's ok now I'm finally ok I
finally escaped Moloch has no control and dont remember me remember all
I said we need anarchy and this state to end this state of pain managing
capitalist protestant morals that's being drilled into my brain all the
abuse that's called love I think I'm finally fed up but we are together
in wahdad al-wujud wathever happens next wether i lose my life or my
legs you know authority is the enemy kill it and I will be there to see
they said they dont want me to die slowly they said they will control my
life for me that I'm my own enemy so I will make it quick my apocalypse
has come may civilization be next I tried to overcome and for some time
I could but I never wanted to exist I'm disgusted and sad for people
having kids and now that it's all a ruin I deserve to choose between to
end or continue in this life that's being forced upon me if it ends, may
anubis guide me and may you not feel sad reading this instead feel anger
for the authorities that stole my soul from me the ones who killed me
listen to my ghost and get them for it its a matter of time before I get
locked up so I ask if there's turning back.