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Title: One Morning Author: Jamie Heckert Date: 28th September, 2006. Language: en Topics: beauty, connection, desire, environment, propaganda, recruitment Source: Retreived on November 2, 2010 from http://queerswithoutborders.com/wpmu/files/2010/09/qv3.pdf Notes: This piece was first performed at the launch party for Benjamin Franks’ Rebel Alliances: The Means and Ends of Contemporary British Anarchisms at the Street Level Gallery, Glasgow, 28th September, 2006.
One morning, not that long ago, I answered the door in my dressing gown
to the sight of a man from the energy company. He came to ask me why I
had chosen to switch suppliers. As I explained that I preferred one with
a better environmental policy, I slowly realised that not only did this
guy have gorgeous eyes, he was watching me closely. I went on to say,
performing a bit for this beautiful man, “Of course all corporations and
really capitalism in general is bad for the environment”. He agreed, his
eyes glowing with excitement. But, what could he do? He had a mortgage
to pay. I’m not quite sure why, maybe I was scared of the intensity of
my attraction, but suddenly I found myself channeling some broken record
of anarchist propaganda and said, “We need resistance on the inside,
too.” That was it. His beautiful eyes looked away and the connection was
lost.
I feel grief remembering that morning; I would have liked to have
listened with empathy to both his desire for change and for security, to
maintained that beautiful sense of connection. Instead, I tried to
recruit him. When I replay the incident in my mind, it has a different
ending. I ask him, “What would you like to do?”