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3 May 2021 I meditated for the first time in a few weeks. It was really intense in an emotional way. My mind was in th right place to start off with and settled quickly. There were not too many distractions which makes a change. I have been using interval bells as 20 minutes feels like hard work after not meditating for a while but they were not required. I managed 25 minutes with ease and only stopped as I have finished my metta routine. The emotion arose from focusing on impermanence of self and others. Impermanence of myself is reasonably easy to comprehend. I tend to remember animations of flesh dripping away leaving the skull. However, impermanence of others was a ride. I ended up thinking about funerals and that lead to how we link to one another with a shared history of oneness. This seemed to put me into a strangey emotional state. Leaving the meditation left me feeling washed out. Colours still feel muted and I still have the weird light head, heavy body feelings which normally disappear as I return to doing things. This was weird enough to make me want to write about it. The last weird meditation event was after a period of concerted effort lasting 2 months of near daily meditation at 40 minutes or so a session. I felt spontaneous joy. It was bizarre but also lasted long after fnishing the session. At least my hands do not spasm as they used to when I started. That was weird. There is more to meditation than simply sitting with your hands in your lap!!!