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Title: Reminisces of a Revolutionary
Author: MPT Acharya
Date: July 23 — October 8, 1937
Language: en
Topics: India, memoir
Source: https://olebirklaursen.files.wordpress.com/2019/09/m.p.t.-acharya-reminiscences-of-a-revolutionary-1937.pdf

MPT Acharya

Reminisces of a Revolutionary

I. WHY I LEFT INDIA AND HOW

(The following is the first instalment of a series of incidents and

situations in the life of a revolutionary, selected from a manuscript

which is going to appear in book form before the public in the near

future. We are thankful to the writer for allowing us to publish

interesting portions of his life-story in advance — E.M.)

TILAK AND PAL

During the Bengal Partition days, I was conducting a Tamil nationalist

paper with the late Tamil Classic Poet C. Subramania Bharati. The

Congress at Surat was coming on. I went to Poona to study under

Lokamanya Tilak. He used to recommend me books to read. Tilak was

attacking Bepin Chandra Pal in the Kesari and the Mahratta for the

speeches the latter used to deliver asking people to eject Englishmen

from India. I asked Tilak why he attacked a nationalist who was probably

working for the same end as he. Lok. Tilak answered that there was a

fundamental difference between his and Bepin Pal’s tactics. He explained

that to talk of ejecting the Government was dangerous when the people

were not organized to do so. Tilak said it was necessary to organize the

people to turn out the British Government before we could ask the people

to eject the authorities. We are neglecting the organization by only

crying that the British Government should be turned out, and such

propaganda as Bepin Pal’s makes the people neglect organization.

TILAK PROVED RIGHT

Tilak said we must preach to the people to be strong and organized so

that when they are strong enough, 24 hours’ notice will be enough to

bring the Government to its knees, failing which to fight them out of

the country. He considered that it was a very fundamental difference as

between seriousness and mischief. Moreover, Tilak said that Bepin Paul

would constitute an offense while telling the people to be strong and

organized was no offense. In any case, Tilak proved right, for while

Bepin’s propaganda amounted to frothy talk till he himself went to

champion the British authorities towards the end of his life, Tilak at

least stood where he was steadily. Asking people to fight without having

the means is to ask them to go into defeat and be demoralized. This

seems to have a lesson today and tomorrow.

IS IT CIVILISATION?

From Poona, I went to Bombay. The first impression of Bombay was that in

spite of the great activity in trade and manufacture, and higher

earnings than at Madras, it was inhabited by miserable people. The first

question that rose to my mind was: Is it to found large cities with

plenty of miserable people barely eking out their existence that we want

to have Swaraj? The only symbols of civilization I met in Bombay were,

according to my impression, at that time, hotels, barbershops, cigarette

shops and other dirty shops all along the road. I was living as a guest

with one Hindu who was proud of his position in Bombay in spite of

poverty. The whole family were sleeping together in one room and they

took me in. His boys used to get up early in the morning before daybreak

to run a flour mill and after 9 AM used to go away to office like the

father and again in the evening the flour mill work went on till 9 PM.

In spite of all that, my hosts were not able to eat well or live clean

and the father of the family was still proud to belong to the

civilization in Bombay. He often told me that unless we Indians were

ready to live on canned food, we will not be civilized.

BOMBAY LIFE

I remembered at that time a lecture reported in the Press given by

Rambhaj Datt Chaudhury who declared that unless Indians have naked

statues at every street crossing, they cannot be considered civilized.

Coming from backward parts like Madras where we are not congested,

cribbed or cramped for space or food so much as in the Premier city or

the Gateway of India, I had an almost nauseating feeling of Bombay life,

in spite of collars, ties and boots used by almost every man. Naturally

I had to ask my mind is it the object of Swaraj to extend this misery? I

consoled myself that the misery was due to a foreign Government but

under Indian government, it would all vanish, because our countrymen

will be friends of the poor when they come to rule. Later on, however,

when I went to Europe and saw misery there, my illusions about

“National” rule were shattered.

SURAT CONGRESS

After a few days in Bombay, of which I had enough, I went to Surat for

the Congress. Thanks to the kind offices of Khaparde, I was admitted as

nationalist delegate from Madras into the Congress.

In Surat, I found the feelings ran high against the nationalists as the

people were not only unconcerned with politics, being only interested in

business, but they were not friendly to Mahrattas who they considered as

mischief-makers and imperialists bringing ruin upon businessmen. It was

more of a sleepy hollow than Madras. At least the Gujaratis were good

businessmen who went to make their pile as far as Java and Japan in the

East, and South Africa in the West of India. But the Madrassis supplied

only plantation coolies to the rest of the Empire. As people with

chances of earning money, they were glad to have peace and read Ramayan

and Bhagavad Gita in their spare time. The Surat Congress was considered

misfortune by the Gujaratis for their avocations.

On the opening day of the Congress, the moderates were jubilant because

they reckoned with the political ignorance of the Gujaratis. But the

nationalists or extremists were looking for trouble as they felt they

were in the minority and they were even expecting to be ejected from the

Congress. A certain Bengali was distributing lathis among nationalists

to prevent being ejected. We, Madras delegates, were placed in the front

of dais and only a few of us had any lathis, since most of the Madras

delegates were moderates. We were expectant, not knowing whether to run

out of the pandal or to fight against being ejected. In my case, it was

the first time I had ever attended a Congress, not having seen a session

even as a visitor before. And this year, the tension between the

extremists and the moderates was very great.

PANDEMONIUM

Tilak asked for permission to speak after the President had finished his

address. The President knew that partisans were at work and refused to

contribute to tension growing into a pitch. Tilak insisted upon his

right to speak, saying if the President did not want it, he wanted to

appeal to the delegates for the permission. Rash Behari Ghose refused

even the permission to appeal to the audience. Tilak stood on the dais,

saying he would stand there so long as he was not allowed to speak.

Meanwhile, some man, said to be a Gujarati, probably a Mahratta

moderate, hurled his shoe at Tilak; that was the signal for a

pandemonium, and I armed with a lathi and being in the front row, easily

jumped on the dais while others ran to the dais soon after. I jumped

upon the President’s table with the lathi held high up almost ready to

beat whoever happened to be below me. When I saw old Surendranath

Banerjee trying to rush out behind the pandal, his chair tilting behind

him, I was sorry and smiling and prevented the lathi from falling on his

head. Meanwhile all the moderates cleared out of the pandal and the

police came out to “Restore order.” Thus, the Surat Congress ended.

After waiting one or two days more to see the resumption of the Congress

deliberations, I returned to Bombay.

SHRINIVAS SHASTRI

As soon as I moved into the Sardar Griha, whom should I meet on the

stairs but the now Hon. V. Shrinivas Shastri, who had left the school

where he was my headmaster in order to join the Servants of India

Society in order to get political training under late Gokhale. He was a

stern headmaster in our school and prevented every pupil from taking

part in politics. I was one of the few hard nuts for him to crack. I

told him on the stairs of Sardar Griha, where he saw me limping and with

the lathi from Surat that he was no longer my headmaster and the lathi

in my hand must be proof of our belonging to opposed camps in politics.

He simply smiled and went away. That is the last time I saw him before I

left India shores and I could not meet him even in Europe until I

returned to India in 1935.

From Bombay, I came straight to Madras to resume the conduct of the

Tamil paper, which was left in charge of another editor during my

absence. During my absence, the acting editor, who was an old friend and

was therefore entrusted to declare himself the owner of the Press and

the paper, watered down the tone of the paper and he wanted to keep the

paper for himself. I told him to transfer the paper to my name but he

thought he was safe in its possession by the very lowering of the tone,

and he would not transfer it to me.

OFF TO PONDICHERRY

Some days after this quarrel between him and me, I was left word in my

office by someone to see that everything is clean. I could not trace the

identity of the man who left the word. I thought some raid was planned

against the office. Really after two days, the CID began to search the

office and arrested the acting editor. Only two days before, I had taken

charge of the paper after persuasion and even slapping the acting editor

to part with it. But the counts on which the paper was prosecuted were

all for articles which appeared in my absence, although the tone of the

paper had been lowered down.

For fear that the acting editor would now denounce me as responsible for

his misfortune, I arranged for his defence and provision for his family

if he remained steady during the trial. He was finally sentenced to six

years’ hard labour for the articles during his period. I absented myself

in Pondichery with CS Bharati during the course of the trial in order to

not be a witness.

II. WHY I LEFT INDIA AND HOW?

BITTERNESS AGAINST REFUGEES

Life in Pondicherry was not safe for refugees. There are many British

spots with police stations where one could walk in unawares. Moreover,

the Police or Police Chief tried to make the lives of refugees hell by

telling people to tell us that we would be extradited. One day having

heard this rumour, we went straight to the Secretary to the Governor and

asked if we would be extradited. He inquired of the Police Chief who was

answering him that nothing of the kind was known to him. Next time, he

became very bitter against us, especially as he was Indian. We have also

been told that we would be carried away by force into British territory

with the help of rowdies for whom Pondicherry was famous. Fortunately

nothing of the kind happened as long as we were there, but chicanery did

not stop. At that time, there were some born French-men who were

patriotic and friendly to Indians, especially towards refugees. The

local semi-French and Europeanised Indians were for bad treatment of

Indians as in British Territory. Particularly, there was a born French

lawyer who told us that we need not worry as refugees. He will see to it

that we would not be expelled. A French librarian long resident there

became so Indian as to have married an Indian woman. At the time we were

there, the Anti-Asiatic and imperialist policy of local, semi-French

Europeans was growing. Later on, several French imperialists travelled

in British territories and wrote books recommending British “economical”

methods of governing French India, and this view has gained upper hand

even in French India, although it is not a colonial territory like

Indo-China but an ancient department of France, integral part of France.

GOOD-BYE TO PONDICHERRY

Being cooped in Pondicherry almost always threatened with persecution,

it was not at all interesting to live there. One night, after long

consideration of all these points, I made up my mind to leave the shores

of India. I cut off my hair and felt very peculiar. The first Mandayam

orthodox Brahmin cut off the jutteo. When the sedition case was over, I

went to seek my sick father in Shiyali, all of a sudden, so that the CID

may not pester him in his sick bed. His illness was enough to convince

me that I should leave the home so as not to be [a] burden upon the

family which I could be if I stayed at his sick bed. I was nearly going

to cry at having to restrict the means by staying with him and also at

leaving him sick, most probably not to see him anymore if I went out of

India. But economic moments and arguments overcame my weaknesses and I

decided to leave the country.

GOING BUT WHERE

I took just a little suitcase and Rs. 300 which I had kept. I did not

buy any equipment for foreign travel for I had not [the] money to pay

both for the ticket and the equipment and I was not decided whether to

go East or West of India. I walked away to the railway station in such a

manner that neither I nor my parents were sure whether I would change my

mind at the station and return home. I said both to quiet them and my

own heart — I shall see if [I] will leave at all. So I went alone to the

station with the suitcase and it looked to them and the little brothers

as if I was only bluffing and would return if not from the station but

atleast from half the journey. I took [a] ticket to Colombo and sat down

[on] the train. My heart was being torn asunder on account of the actual

journey I undertook under a dream as it were. It was impossible for me

to return to be made fun of by all my nearest and dearest even. And if I

returned, what shall I do then? I will have no more money to make the

journey back, so I sat helplessly tight in the train, almost unable to

move under my divided state of mind. I said, if I should return, let me

do so from Colombo, not before I take ship at Tuticorin. Thus I

travelled as if pushed on against my will, thanks to the money given

away to the ticket.

JAVA OR EUROPE?

I landed in Colombo. I had been in Colombo before when the Swadeshi

Steam Navigation Company was run by Chidambaram Pillai. He was perhaps

there or he was in prison in India, I do not know now, I did not want to

meet him or any of his friends since I may be observed and sent back to

India by force or persuasion. I put up in a Dharmashala, thinking what

to do whether to go forward or to beat retreat. The illness of my father

troubled me and would nearly compel me to return home. But it is exactly

which decided me to leave home. Why should I return now? So I decided to

go further. There were only two directions to go. Either to Java or to

Europe. The CID would be after me and would chase me back. Moreover, the

people in the Dharmashala were curious who is this morose young fellow

who though looking Brahmin had cut [his] hair. The rumour would catch

the CID and might lead to my identification if not [my] arrest. So I had

to make up my mind to leave soon, one way or [another]. To leave for

Europe was out of the question, for I had not sufficient money to land

there unless I went by the deck class in winter without winter dress.

Europe was also too far away, so that if I had to beat retreat, it would

be impossible after paying all my money for crossing over. Java seemed

the most distant risk I could take.

SEPARATED FROM INDIA!

I simply went to Carson and Co. to inquire if any ship leaves for Java,

although the Dutch of Consul had written to me not to go there not to go

there if I had not sufficient money as there was no chance of earning

money by work. Still I thought if I went there on deck with my Eastern

dress, I would have some money left with which to start seeking for

help. So my intention was to start for Java. But the agents told me that

no ship would leave that direction before a week. Staying in Colombo

meant spending part of my money which was already oozing out owing to my

ignorance and inexperience in foreign travel. I simply asked the agent

which ship leaves for where. He was no doubt surprised at such a

question. It proved that I was compassless traveller and he might have

taken me for a crook who is trying to flee for life. But somehow,

probably on account of childish [mein?] and question, he did not seem to

suspect anything but was only surprised and paralysed in mind. I was

told that a Japanese ship was leaving that afternoon for Europe. I asked

him to give me third class passage to Marseilles by that ship. It cost

me 11 pounds and I paid out Rs. 165 or so out of what was left with me

in Colombo. At once, I rushed up to the Dharmashala and fetched my poor

“trunk” and got on board ship, as there was only a few hours between my

buying the ticket and the ship leaving. Within a few minutes of my

catching the ship, the anchor was lifted. Thus I was irrevocably

separated from India, partly with my will and partly against my will. No

use regretting now.

A JAPANESE PIPE

Among the third class passengers, I found an Indian youth from Bengal

who was running away from his uncle New Orleans with no more money than

to reach London. He was Muslim by name Abdurrab. He could not speak

English nor I Urdu. There was a Japanese lead worker going to an

exhibition in London. These were the only passengers and there were only

three berths, of which I had the luck or ill luck to get one at the last

moment. It was impossible to exchange words with the Japanese at all

although he was equipped with a Japanese-English dictionary. He was all

the time smoking philosophically a Japanese pipe.

“LAND OF MY DREAM”

Not being accustomed to see meat or even to bear the smell of meat in

the markets the food was disagreeable to me, as the Japanese ships

served only English fare, mostly boiled beef. The very smell for beef

which my companions ate used to make even the coffee and bread

unbearable to me. I consumed these last two only as a medicine to keep

me alive in the voyage. It was 22 days long voyage upto Marseilles.

Naturally I starved and became weaker daily. My sight began to grow dim

and my ears began to buzz. I became evidently pale. None could induce me

to eat. But one result of my starving seems to have been that I could

bear cold owing to want of sensitiveness. One day, nearing Marseilles,

our ship passed between Italy and Sicily, the white horses on the rocks

of the Italian coast shining under sun made me yarn to fly away to

Italy, the country of my dreams as I had read all the writings of

Guiseppe Mazzini. But I was going to a colder country. Towards the end

of the voyage the steward who knew that I was starving came to me and

said I would land only as a corpse in Europe. He asked me if I was a

priest. , I said yes (though I meant, by caste). He took pity on me

being Japanese and he brought me an apple which is all he could give;

since he had no authority to give thrid (third) class passengers, he

parted with the apple he took at table.

“VAUNTED FREEDOM”

When the ship reached Marseilles my heart began to quake, for my

troubles began, the length of voyage being exhausted for the fare. I was

going to land on an unknown foreign territory, of which I did not know

the language nor I knew anything to do there. “Liberty, Equality and

Fraternity” written on all official papers and on the walls of buildings

is not going to help me to earn a living. 1 had made up my mind that I

was going to be buried that very winter on the French Patrie, simply out

of sheer starvation and cold. I was unwilling to leave the ship and even

felt myself stuck to it owing to the confusion and consternation that

prevailed on my mind. Why do the laws allow me to land and not turn me

back without expense to me ? But France is a free and hospitable country

for all nations and especially for refugees, isn’t it? But if only the

authorities knew that I was landing there pennyless, all that vaunted

freedom and hospitality would have vanished into air, with them all

liberty, equality and fraternity. However, they did not ask me, if I had

money or not. No, there was no examination in my case.

MONEY TALKS

When the passengers all left, I was sitting tight on the deck shivering

and trying to warm myself in the cabin, alternately. I had my Bengali

Muslim companion still on board as he wanted to land in England. In the

evening, the officers asked me why I did not leave the ship. I said I

thought the authorities would ask me to land. It became dark and the

officers said if I wanted to sleep in the ship I would be charged for

it. That made me hurry up. I asked how can one pass through customs at

that time. All offices were closed, of course. As luck would have it, a

Thos. Cook guide happened to hear the conversation. He undertook to pass

me through customs at that hour. He engaged a porter and I walked with

him through customs gate. A soldier challenged, ‘who goes there.’ The

guide answered something in French and was prepared to meet the

situation. For he had asked me already to put a two shilling piece in

his palm. When he came near the soldier and the coin passed off from his

palm into the soldier’s. Money talk. The soldier said Passez. I never

thought such things could happen in an incorruptible country-it looked

so Indian but more refined. Anyway, I mention this to thank the two

persons for having helped me to come safely out of customs at that late

hour. They were more sympathetic to a stranger than the law would have

been.

Directly out of customs’ barrier (fortunately I had nothing valuable to

declare), I thought what I should do. I asked the guide if I could start

right away for Paris. There was very little time to reach the next

train. He said he could manage to put me into the train. So we rushed to

the station in a hackney and he bought the ticket for me and saw me into

the train. Of course, he tried to take as much out of me for his

extraordinary service and I was willing, especially in my situation, to

part with as little as possible. He never saw such a tough customer, for

he generally carries rich tourists as baggage and they are ready to pay

as much as they can. Meanwhile the train whistled away. Of course, I

paid him something for Thos. Cook’s kindness. I was very polite to him

as a friend and said [if] I pass another time via Marseilles I would do

him good. No need to say, he was skeptic[al].

CITY OF REVOLUTIONS

In the train, fortunately after midnight, we were only two. Opposite was

a Frenchman. He was looking askance at my peculiar and insufficient

dress from tropical climes and exactly that night I saw the snow first

in my life. Of course, I felt warm in the heated train. I had seen snow

before without going to Ootacamund, but only in a stereoscope.

Anyway, I felt pleased to go to Paris, the city of revolutions,

especially because I had a letter of introduction to a Professor of

Tamil there, who might take pity upon me and perhaps help, as he was an

old gentleman having long lived in Pondicherry.

When the train steamed into Paris, rather there was not steam in the

locomotive, as only electric locomotives dragged the train from some

distance into the station, the gentleman instead of packing off without

saying goodbye, waited for me to get prepared, took me out of the

station upto a tram and told the conductor to make me get out at a hotel

mentioned by him (for he did not want me to pay dear), a hotel which was

just near Mons. Vinson’s residence, I don’t know if he also paid a tip

to tram-conductor.

The conductor showed me the hotel and I walked in with my poor small

suitcase, which was half empty. I must have made the impression of being

very poor and that must have terrified the lady-owner or manager of the

hotel. All the servants were certainly curious and must have asked

themselves what manner of church mouse this is.

After breakfast, I went to the house number on the same street where

Prof. Vinson was living. I pulled the rope at the entrance after

knocking several times. A young man opened the door and tried to inquire

from me what I wanted. Before he inquired, I blurted out Prof. Vinsons.

He shrugged his shoulders with elbows close to his body and making

grimaces. I was about to laugh but did not understand at that time it

meant no. I began to repeat the professor’s name, again the same

attitude, grimaces and shaking of the head to a side. Afterwards I came

to know with the help of a bit of school English be used that the Prof.

was away and would come in a few days. So, I had nothing but to wait.

III. WHY I LEFT INDIA AND HOW

IN PARIS

At last, when I went to [P]rofessor Vinson’s house and pulled the rope,

(no electric bells even in those days in Paris), I found him and he

received me and I handed the letter of recommendation from his friend.

He knew I required help from my shabby appearance, but how long to give

it? I told him I wanted to learn at least process work. He said he could

recommend me to a process engraver and did send me to him, and that man

was ready to take me as an apprentice. But I had no money to live. “but

how are you going to live?” “that is exactly my question”, I answered.

“Sorry I cannot help you to live,” he answered me. All the conversation

went on in English, he being able only to write and read Tamil but not

understand talk. So my good Professor’s help could not be availed of.

Now what next? I thought he would be glad to make sacrifice to help an

Indian to learn something, but he was French man, how can I ask him or

even entreat him to pay for my living? Moreover, I was not accustomed to

ask even for recommendation in India from my own relatives. How dare I

go down on my knees before a stranger? So I gave it up as hopeless.

One morning, however, when I was wandering engrossed within myself as

what to do next and fearing falling dead, I saw a tram with a board

indicating the direction to “Passy”, Passy? Where do I know the name

from? Suddenly I remembered that a certain gentleman there was writing

some letters to the Tamil paper office in Madras. That led me to

remember his name: S. K. I made up my mind to find out if my memories

were correct, especially as it was the last hope of seeing any Indian. I

knew he was an independent and patriotic man, at least from his

ferocious letters. So I walked along the tram line waiting at every

crossing for another tram bearing the board ‘Passy.’ I followed right up

to the terminus, it seemed a trip to North Pole.

When I came to the terminus, I found several good houses indicating rich

people were living there. In those days Paris has ramparts near there.

Now, how to find any such gentleman were living there among any of the

several high houses? Finally I made up my mind to ask anyone if he knew

an Indian gentleman there. The first man I met was an elderly French

bearded gentleman. I asked him in English trying to make French: An

Indian gentleman, where? Gentleman, gentile homme, Indian? Oh oui, he

understood my wants. He pointed out the last house near the rampart.

COLD WELCOME

I went up into this house and looked upstairs upon every door after not

being able to get any information from the door keeper except yes to the

name S.K. At last I found the sign of the Indian name on the door. I

rang the bell thinking that for the first time in the strange land, I

would be welcomed by an Indian patriot with open arms. (This house had

really an electric bell being a modern one for that time.) an Indian

lady opened the door instantly and was probably surprised to see a

shabbily and insufficiently dressed Indian with sunken eyes owing to

long involuntary fasting and suffering from cold. It meant no doubt to

her that something was wrong with the man. She suspiciously asked me:

what do you want? I said I wanted to see Mr. S. K. The lady understood

me as she spoke sufficient English. “Who are you?” I said I was a recent

arrival from Madras and that I was correspondence with Mr. S.K. That

quieted her. Mr. S.K. was not there at the time, she said, and that I

should leave my address with her. I scrawled it upon a paper

disappointed not to see him. For me, time was everything in my situation

as I did not know wherewith to pay my bill and live further. Not even a

polite nod to ask me in and sit from an Indian patriot to another. Would

he at least answer, when my shabby appearance “made an impression”? I

thought I was trying to see an English gentleman and I may not be the

fit company for him- in spite of our common patriotism. However, let me

wait and see patiently till a day more.

Next morning, however, the waiter gave me a postcard: not even a letter,

which could only be from that gentleman. But the reading was

disappointing. Instead of calling me to his house, which I could have

compiled with only on foot in spite of the long distance, I was

surprisingly asked to meet him a 10 a.m. or so in the writing room of

Thos, Cook. What a wonderful way for a gentleman to meet a man for the

first time on appointment at the house of a firm, I thought, and that a

compatriot! It could not be the custom of the country and that it is

certainly not Indian and gentlemanly. But in my situation I should go

wherever called to.

MEETING S.K.

I rushed through my meager breakfast and walked along hastily to Thos,

Cook’s office which I had seen in my lonesome wanderings through the

city. I was fortunately in time as I wanted. But already a gentleman

darker than any in the writing room was prowling about with cat’s eyes

from which I concluded he must be after me. He also maturely recognized

me from my colour and asked: Are you Mr. A? For some time he asked me

what brought me there and why so suddenly before informing him. That was

not the place to tell my story. After making certain that [I] was the

man with whom he was in correspondence, (of course I was only writing

him in the name of the paper just to acknowledge his fiery letters and

pointing out dangers of publishing his articles and photographs). He

decided to invite me to his house that afternoon itself. Also some

success, I thought. I told him I would have to walk whole miles in the

cold before I could reach his home. He at once put a small and a bigger

copper coin in my hand saying “That is for your train fair.” Shame for

the first time to accept only the tramfare as Dakshina to a Brahmin from

his own country, even in India, but worse as between patriots in a

foreign country, when he saw my insufficient dress and shivering body.

However nothing doing till we sit down and at least have a ‘chat.” In

the evening I was readily opened the door and straight away led into his

study. For the first time, I saw an Indian living what they call in

Europe “decently” and even having a white faced maid servant. But the

gentleman himself was dressed like a pastor and pandit, avoiding the

necessity to shave daily or trim whiskers to stand on its end either out

of desire to avoid expense and trouble or only to look like a serious,

unworldly, learned professor.

“A MEAN PATRIOT”

After so many days of starvation, I was served with keer spiced in the

right Indian fashion. It was a treat to eat in Paris even more than in

India. Anyway, he seemed to be impressed with me [in spite] of my Indian

habits and poor dress, because he began to pour out all his troubles

with local Indians, patriotic or otherwise, and incidentally made

propaganda about his daring and sacrifice at the altar of the

motherland. Oh, God. If he sacrificed and yet had everything, then what

about me who gave up the country and had nothing in Paris? But that does

not count. After all, I was a small, meaner sort of patriot. Sacrifice

means to give a part of what you have, but not everything. He used to

produce letters and papers to prove from the testimonies of the

high-placed like himself and even the lowly, as to how perilously he was

living, yet how he was working to liberate the country in spite of the

ignorance and opposition of still greater patriots. I neither knew one

side nor the opposite and had only to nod to whatever he said.

He had written to me he had spent lakhs in helping the persecuted and

patriotic from India. Now I wanted to try something for myself. After

telling my condition, I put him point blank whether I could not help me

either to study or carry some work on behalf of the country. “Sorry, I

have paid out all reserved for the purpose”, was the prompt answer, as

point blank as my question. That shut my mouth up.

I was sent to another gentleman from India who received me coldly. The

next day, he was, however, kind enough to take me out of the city for a

flying demonstration with his family. I remember a flight of 500 yards

was considered a wonder because even within that distance many accidents

happened. Looking backwards to that time, it was too short a time before

[the] flying machine was perfected for war purposes. All along the

visit, I was exchanging words with him explaining to him who I was.

Finally, he said, why don’t you write to your countrymen in London, Mr

V.S. Aiyar? “Oh, I know gentleman by correspondence,” I said. He gave me

his address: India House, Cromwell Avenue, Highgate, London. Mr Aiyar

was the London correspondent of our Tamil weekly but I had not thought

of him or of remembering to bring his address when I left India. After

all he was doing service free as [a] correspondent but I did not know he

would take interest in me if I had informed him; I was starting or

landed without a penny in the pocket. Now any straw would do for a

drowning man. I wrote at once to Mr. Aiyar telling my predicament,

asking him to see if he could do something to save me. Promptly I got a

reply in two days asking me to go to none other than the giver of the

address and saying he requested him to make arrangements for sending me

to England and assuring he would be pleased, nay glad, to see me there

soon. I never intended to go to the English “home”. I therefore went to

the gentleman who suggested to me to write to Mr. Aiyar to avoid being

pestered by me. Pestering to some extent is true in my desperation but

only to some extent. I felt shy of asking, but asking didn’t help — that

became “pestering.”

He said he received the letter but was still disinclined even to advance

the fare to London and my expenses, although it was promised there Mr.

Aiyar would repay it. Now he has started some other excuses.

Finally he told me to get ready, as if I was not ready to start for

England. He advanced me the hotel bill, but asked me to come with my

“baggage” to his house when he would take me to the train and see that I

sat in it, ostensibly to be helpful in finding the station, but really

to see that I did not use up the fair and again come to him. So, I

brought my “luggage” to him and he took me to the station and bought me

a ticket via the longest-route, Boulogne-Folkstone in order to save

laying out some shillings. Being a cold winter night, I had to sit up

all night shivering on the sea, being a third class passenger on the

deck. It was torture to me as I was not provided with a rug and none

asked me how I was going to manage in Paris or on the route with my

meagre clothing, for asking would redound upon themselves, since I might

ask them to supply me warmer necessaries.

So I gladly put with the shivering and chattering in the cold during the

long period in which I felt very minute like ages during the voyage to

“old England,” knowing well that I’d be better cared for as soon as I

reached London. Mr. Aiyar came to the station and fetched me home.

IV. “HOT BED OF SEDITION-MONGERS”

The India House was in the aristocratic villa quarter high up Highgate.

It was inhabited by a few students who managed the household

co-operatively. Mr V.D. Savarkar was the head. It was like an Indian

batchelor [sic] hostel. But there was no English company or even English

servants in the house. The only persons to serve was an Indian cook, a

Lascar and a Czechish refugee, both of whom spoke very little English.

In a way I was very happy to be in purely Indian company. Mr V.D.

Savarkar was, of course, introduced to me, rather I to him by Mr. Aiyar.

I had a place to sleep and could eat at [the] table. So food and roof

worries were over for the time.

In the India House, I had not only my rest after worries but also some

support for learning a trade as I wanted to do in France. I soon went

into the Trade School of the London County Council to learn

Photo-engraving.

“A LEPER’S HOME”

In a few days after my arrival, I found that all the inmates had

detectives shadowing us wherever we went in the “land of the free and

the brave.” It was considered a, rather the only, “hot-bed of sedition.”

Naturally, very few Indian students dared to visit the inmates of the

house or even receive them in their homes. There was a barrier between

India House residents and all other students. It was like a lepers’

home. Patriotism and sedition were synonymous, as far as Indians are

concerned even in England. Naturally, none but the most reckless Indian

student would dare to visit India House or have anything to do with the

Indian fellow students there, for he may be debarred from institutions

on account of even his chance visits. We had meetings every Sunday when

usually V.D. Savarkar lectured on some phases of Indian history. He was

a very thorough speaker on Indian history, being a gold medallist of the

Bombay University and doing research at the Indian Office library and

archives. Moreover, his lectures breathed the spirit of patriotism. Even

those who did not like his patriotism sometimes dared to come to the

lectures, as he was also a very good speaker, full of literary fluency

and much learning of Sanskrit.

SAVARKAR AND SIKHS

One day it was the birth anniversary of Guru Nanak Singh. The Sikhs

engaged the Caxton Hall for the celebration. But there was no speaker

available who could do justice to the subject. The Sikh students wanted

to have a speaker but they did not want a marked man like Savarkar.

Finally they had no choice but to request Savarkar to address the

meeting. Only they asked him to be purely religious in outlook about

Guru Nanak and not mix politics with it. Savarkar also undertook to do

so. His learning of Nanak’s and Sikh history impressed the audience and

Sikhs. No Sikhs could have spoken better on that occasion. Exactly

because he showed the patriotic spirit of Sikh History, I heard later,

they regretted Savarkar’s speaking in spite of his eulogy of Sikh

Martyrs, for they were afraid that the few Sikh students or at least

those who suggested Savarkar as speaker, might be considered to be in

“conspiracy” with Savarkar, an “India House” leader, as if it was

infested by a gang of subterranean criminals.

MYSTERIOUS WAYS OF THE CID

Every now and then the Times and other papers got some story about the

activities of the inmates or the India house, this “hotbed of

sedition-mongers”. So, we were always expecting a raid, accustomed as

Indians were to such possibilities, nay certainties in India. But the

Police in London was more circumspect than in India since they were

unable to raid unless they had certain evidence that something terrible

was being perpetrated. Besides the articles in the Press, occasionally a

man used to report himself at the house saying he was a reporter of this

or that liberal or labour paper, adding “you know we are sympathetic to

Indian aspirations and we want to contradict the statement of the Times

and other Tory papers”. Naturally, Savarkar used to be interviewed. The

interview did not appear in the paper. When asked in the office of the

paper, the editors did not know of any such interview and there was no

such man in that office as the one indicated on a printed visiting card.

Naturally, the conclusion is these interviews were conducted by the CID

men. That in free England. Savarkar used to put away interviewers,

telling them that he would write if the editor wanted any questions to

be answered.

One evening a man named Bhattacharya ran into the India House saying he

beat Sir Wm. Lee-Warner and wanted protection for the night. Suspecting

that it may be a way of getting the police cause for raiding, Savarkar

told him he cannot give the asylum. Naturally, Bhattacharya went away.

There was a real case in the court for assault upon Lee-Warner and

Bhattacharya was sentenced to a fine for some days’ imprisonment.

Bhattacharya bravely chose imprisonment rather than pay the fine, in

spite of an Indian lady offering to pay the fine. The next day,

Bhattacharya was found going about in London and he said one Mr.Ganguly

paid the fine. This Mr Ganguly was known as a man of the Indian Lascars

Home and also as a pet of the Indian office minions. Later on, we will

meet him without the mask.

FOOLING THE DETECTIVE

Early in the morning, the detectives used to stand or loiter about near

the house to follow anyone who went out of the India House. First it was

disgusting to me to see their faces. I want to make use of them as my

guide. I went out for my walk. About 50 yards behind me one detective

followed me like a shadow. I went on walking till I passed a post

office. Then I walked back. The detective was waiting before the post

office to let me pass. Suddenly, when I came in front of the post

office, I asked him , “ Where is the post office, please ?” . The man

answered, “ I do not know.” I asked him then, “ If you cannot help me to

find the post offices and other places I want, why do you follow me?” He

was very perturbed, and angry . I used to try the same method upon every

new man that was set against me, to show that I knew who he was.

Sometimes, Savarkar and other members of the house tried to get rid of

the detectives in a peculiar manner. They walked till they came to a

lone taxi and suddenly jumped into it and drove away, while the

detective used to stand helpless looking for a free taxi.

In those days, there was no Indian meeting centre in London, except for

occasional gatherings in the South Kensington Museum Hall. There was of

course Indian National Liberal Club supported by Moderates, but the

members rarely met. Naturally, the membership was thinning down .We of

the India House wanted to use the club platform and finances for

patriotic purposes. one day we decided to get all of us registered as

members and outvote the other members. we subscribed our fees just

before the annual meeting of the club and I got our men elected to

office, except the chairman. It was surprise and disappointment to those

who thought we were entering the Club only to nod to them. And we were

known as” firebrands”. So, the chairman resigned.

As the India House residents were followed everywhere and those who made

them were also shadowed, it became difficult for many students to obtain

admission into the institutions. Naturally, our ranks thinned down, and

the house could not be run. Under the cover of advice and help to Indian

students, censorship was established by the India office and unless one

submitted to it and brought proofs of absolute loyalty, entry into the

institution was made impossible. Naturally, as our ranks thinned down

and the club could not be run, our members

had to disperse.

SAVARKAR THE FIREBRAND

At this point I may mention showing the charm and tactfulness that

Savarkar exercised upon others. Mr. V.V. S. Aiyar was a rabid anti-

Savarkar. When someone tried to introduce Aiyar to Savarkar, Aiyar is

reported to have said: “I will have nothing to do with that firebrand.”

But in the Inns of Court, accidentally both of them were present and

Savarkar’s way were observed by Aiyar and he was glad to be introduced.

Aiyar was a terrible anti-Hindu till then and cared little for

patriotism. In fact, he considered himself a Christian and superior to

Indians. But this contact of Savarkar changed the whole being of Aiyar

and he became a staunch Hindu and patriot. Savarkar used to be liked by

Government of India scholars also.

In those days, in London, one of the prominent Indian politicians was

Bepin Chandra Pal who ran there to escape being imprisoned in India. He

was good propagandist writer and the Partition of Bengal gave him

opportunities for his talents. He settled down in London and made some

impression on W. T. Stead, or Stead impressed upon him. He used to say

with every bomb thrown in Bengal, the Government will go down on its

knees before him. He tried to maintain himself by opening a boarding

house for Indians. Niranjanpal, his son was staying in London. The

latter was friendly to Savarkar. Another companion of Niranjan Pal was

Sukhasagar Dutt, the brother of the Bengal terrorist who was hanged,

Ullashkar Dutt.

Bepin Chandra started a national magazine where he tried to maintain a

middle position between terrorism and constitutionalism, defending the

latter against the former, and in the absence of the latter, trying to

defend the terrorists. The last article of his magazine was “The

actiology of the bomb” which broke his back, for he defended the

terrorists against the terrorism of the Bengal Government, rather

condoned the latter. When he could not maintain himself in London and

returned to India, he was sentenced to 6 months prison for that article.

V. INDIA HOUSE AND SAVARKAR

The greatest of dangerous events to India House members was the

publication of Savarkar’s book “The Indian War of Independence” and the

shooting down of Sir Curzon Wyllie and Dr. Lalkaka at a function in

South Kensington Museum.

“WAR OF INDEPENDENCE”

“The Indian War of Independence” was written out of materials collected

by Savarkar in the library and archives of the India Office. Since it

could not be published in India in Marathi, Savarkar wanted it to be

published abroad even in English. In England no firm would print it,

although the materials were culled from books and documents published in

England itself. If any Indian undertook to publish it in England or

Europe, he was likely-nay, certain – to be prosecuted.

At last, Savarkar collected sufficient money to start printing this

historical work. Many of the students who did not sympathize with his

views of independence or even were afraid of association with him were

willing to contribute funds for the publication. I do not know if some

Government scholars or even high officials did not subscribe for a copy

of the book. Savarkar knew how to approach them and induce them to

subscribe.

The order for printing had to be given and there ought to be some to

sign the contract with a printer. All were afraid that their studies and

career would be ruined if their names leaked out in that connection. We

found a German agent for a continental printing firm and he undertook to

get it printed. But when he saw the contents and showed it to a lawyer,

he said his business would be ruined if the firm is known to undertake

such works. So the agent told us that he would transfer the contract to

the printer in Holland who should deal directly with us. The proofs used

to come directly per post to us.

MADAN LAL DHINGRA

When the India House was liquidated, I went to put up for sometime in

Bepin Pal’s boarding house. One morning I was awakened early and told

that the papers report that Sir Curzon-Wyllie was shot dead the night

before by Madan Lal Dhingra who was living in the India House. Only the

evening before the act, Dhingra had rung the bell and I had opened the

door and he asked where Savarkar was, I told him that he was out of town

although he used to put up with Bepin Chandra Pal. Madan Lal Dhingra was

the son of a D.S.P. of Punjab, had finished Engineering course, was

about to return to India, and his father was a friend of Sir Curzon

Wyllie. Madan Lal used to go sometimes to Sir Curzon privately and

therefore it was bewildering that he should shoot down the friend of his

family. And the evening before, when he came to look up Savarkar I found

him happy like a bird. He was always of a brooding temperament when he

was in India House but not so that evening. But it is true that he spoke

very little so that one could have no inkling of what was going on in

his mind.

SCOTLAND YARD IN ACTION

Naturally, when the assassination took place, all the India House

inmates would be hunted up by the Scotland Yard to connect as many of

them with the act as possible and thus get them punished. They went to

every one of them to find out if there was any conspiracy behind it and

who were in that conspiracy. They went for example to one Syed Hyder

Reza, who has come to England with Asaf Ali and for sometime both were

residents of India House. Syed Hyder Reza was considered a nationalist

editor and poet and had many interviews with Tilak whom he admired very

much. As the Scotland Yard could not prevent movements of any person in

the name of preventing crime, they asked Hyder Reza to induce me to

leave for America. One day, Hyder came to me and said in the course of

the conversation on the situation, “I suggest to you to go to America

where you can make yourself self-supporting and also study. Why do you

continue here in misery and dependence?” Many of the dangerous

characters in England have been shipped off thus to USA simply owing to

suspicion that they might give cause to some sensation to the Press even

at the risk of their own safety. Some days after the assassinations of

Sir Curzon and Dr. Lalcaka, there was a meeting of Indians to

demonstrate their loyalty and their horror at assassination. It was the

biggest Indian meeting ever held till then. There were the Aga Khan,

Mancherji Bhownagree and Sir Theodore Morrison brought the brother of

Dhingra all the way from Edinborough to confess his shame at having such

a brother. Naturally, the father of Dhingra sent a cable disowning his

son.

ATTACK ON SAVARKAR

It was [a] difficult matter for us India House friends of Dhingra to put

up with the meeting and dangerous to protest against the meeting.

Finally within the short time, we made up our mind to attend the meeting

and, if there was any chance, to protest against the resolution that

would be drawn up against him. We distributed ourselves in the hall and

patiently heard speech after speech against Dhingra. At last a

resolution was drawn up, read and voting was proceeded upon. The

chairman said that he hoped that the resolution would be passed

unanimously. Who would vote against the resolution in order to become a

marked man? When the president asked if all voted for the resolution,

there was a chorus of yes and a forest of hands rose up! Unfortunately

for the meeting, the president made a mistake in asking if there were

any opponents which gave us the chance to speak out and it spoilt the

unanimity of the vote. When he asked, if there is anyone against the

resolution, naturally Savarkar stood up to say he was against it. Soon,

from different corners of the hall about a dozen voices were heard

similarly. The surprise was too great for the enthusiasts of the

meeting. There was also a large sprinkling of plainclothes men in the

hall around the India House residents present there. One Mr Palmer,

Barrister, at once turned up his sleeves, went straight at Mr. Savarkar

in the centre of the hall, and hexed the latter on the eye. No sooner

did the blow fell upon Savarkar, than I who was standing on a chair to

see the commotion and happened to have a stick in the hand,

instinctively struck him on the head. Naturally, I got into trouble with

some of the proud loyalists around me, of whom a Sikh gentleman took me

by my tie and began bravely to strangle me and the

plain-clothes-policemen began to remove me out of the hall.

When I and Savarkar and several protesters were removed from the hall,

Barrister Palmer, appeared with his head bandaged and from the platform

he vociferated “See, how I defended the Empire with blood from my own

head”.

SAVARKAR’S LETTER TO TIMES

I was taken to a separate room by secret police and I thought they were

going to take me into a lock-up that night. But they simply asked for my

name and address and let me go.I was surprised and learned that in

England beating a man is a private civil affair and the aggrieved party

had to go to court. Naturally, I had no mind to sleep in Bepin Pal’s

house and face him in his excited state. So I went and slept that night

elsewhere.

On the road, Savarkar and I argued about the consequences of the

disorder in the meeting. He said that Palmer is likely to bring a case

against me for using the stick on his head and the only way to prevent

him was for him (Savarkar) to threaten him with [a] case for using his

fist, the first in a public meeting. He wrote a letter to the Times

explaining that the disorder was not due to the protesters since they

were justified in protesting against a resolution which called Dhingra

the assassin while the matter was still sub judice, and incidentally

stating that he (Savarkar) was going to file a suit against Palmer for

using illegal violence against him. The Times published the letter for

the opportunity of commenting against Savarkar. It said that if

Chitpawan Brahmins used their brains for “better purposes” (meaning of

course the Empire) then their arguments could be considered honest or to

some such effect. Probably this letter of Savarkar prevented Palmer from

going to court against me, for nothing of the kind happened.

VI. ON WAY TO MOROCCO

INTERVIEW WITH POLICE CHIEF

The Scotland Yard became interested in me after the beating in the

Caxton HaU, especially as my friend Hyder Reza had told them that I was

a desperado. They went to Bepin to bring me to the Chief of Scotland

Yard. Mr Ral Sent word to me to see him. Thinking that every storm is

over I [acceded] to Mr. Pal’s request and went up to him. (In those days

there was no registration system as the British Police introduced during

and after the War, learning from the Germans). HE had ordered the plain

clothes men to wait outside till I entered his house. When I went in, he

told me that the Scotland Yard Chief wanted me and he was unable to

refuse to help them and therefore I should go with the detectives.

Meanwhile, the plain clothes men came in and I had no go but to face the

Police Chief, Superintendent Mr. Quinn.

SCOTLAND YARD’S OFFER

As soon as I went into Mr. Quinn’s room all persons cleared out, except

one young man at a table. Mr. Quinn he was pleased to see me and as if I

came there to ask for help as from a pastor. After inquiring when I came

to London and what I was going to do (to the latter question I answered

I was studying in the London County Council School of Process Engraving)

he asked me if I thought there was any conspiracy behind the

assassination of Sir Curzon Wyllie. As I believed there was no

conspiracy, I told him so. The man at the table with his back towards us

was pretending to do some scribbling but was really taking stenogram of

our conversation. “What do you know about Dhingra ?” he asked. I told

him, “He was quite a silent man.” Then he came down to business. He

asked me how I was paying my way. I said my friends were helping me to

study. Naturally, he asked who were those friends. I told him the names

of Savarkar and Aiyar. Then he told me that if I cared. I could have

help for study if I found out if there was any conspiracy and who were

in it. I flatly declines to do such a job as it was neither of my liking

nor in my interests. ‘No, no, please consider it and let me know, Mr.

Quinn said. Another question he put in the course of the conversation

was, why I didn’t go away from the country? I said since I was not a

criminal, I do not need to run away or take his suggestion. I simply

wanted to get away from his presence taking advantage of his suggestion

“to consider his offer.”

POLICE CHIEF’S BUSINESS

Some days later I went to Mr. Quinn to tell him I would stick to my

decision. During the course of his conversation this time I asked him if

he considered if Indians were criminals. “No, no, I have myself been in

India with King Edward the Seventh when he was Prince of Wales and found

that Indians were the quietest of people on earth.” Then I asked him why

he followed up Indians then. “Oh, my business is only to prevent crime,”

he said. I asked him, “Do you mean to say that the nationalists mean to

perpetrate crime?” Mr. Quinn answered: “I am not against views, for in

England you are free, but my business is to prevent crime!” “Do you mean

then that holding nationalist views are alright but acting up to them is

crime”, I asked. Mr. Quinn answered again, “My business is only to see

that no crime is committed.” Inspector McCarthy, the next in position to

Mr. Quinn, I believe, said during our conversation that it is easier to

police all India than to rule London City. He was also another personal

guard of King Edward VII.

From all this, I found out that staying in England would mean further

persecution, since I was not made an amenable tool. Further with the

breakup of the India House, I could not maintain myself. So I decided to

go anywhere where I could live cheaply and also do some nationalist

work. I was also nauseated with the “freedom in the freest of all

countries”. I would have returned to India already if I was sure no

persecution would take place. But after the actions in England,

persecution was more certain than ever in India. To go to find work in

another country and to eke out a mere existence and vegetate there was

repugnant to my wish, since I left India not for that purpose; but to do

something useful either for myself or for the country was really my

objective.

PASSAGE TO MOROCCO

While I was thinking what to do next, news came in the papers of a

rebellion of the Moors against Spaniards in Morocco. I consulted Mr.

Aiyar whether it is not worthwhile to join the Riffs in their struggle

for freedom. An excellent idea, no doubt it was. My passage was assured

if I went there. Moreover, Sukhsagar Dutt was ready to give up studies

and go there. So I could have also companion to share my fate there.

Sukhsagar had a regular passport but I had none. If I applied for one,

they might refuse it. However, I tried to get a passport through the

mediary of Thos. Cook and Son, Uncle Cook of Indian tourists with

well-lined purse – as they promised to get one for one shilling for

their services. I filled a form and they sent it to India Office. The

reply was that as I was an Indian, I should apply personally to the

India Office; so I went to the India Office and wanted to speak to the

chief of the Passport Dept. London was still in hubbub about the Dhingra

affair as the newspapers kept up the story and even prophesied that

further murders were expected and all ministers were guarded. Naturally,

they asked me at the entrance what I wanted from the chief of the

Passport Dept. I of course said that I have come to get a passport. The

man went inside and came back to say that I should come next day at a

particular hour. I felt they were under fear that I wanted to find this

pretext for shooting down another official. Next day when I went there,

and mentioned the appointment, two persons came to take me to Sir Leslie

Probyn. I told them they were detectives but they need not fear since I

come for no other purpose than declared. They smiled. One went on each

side of me always looking askance at my hands. I was given a seat and

the two persons stood guard over me.

Sir Leslie Probyn asked me why I wanted a passport. I said I wanted to

go to Morocco. What did I want to go there for? I said I wanted to join

the Riffs in their rebellion. “Why do you want to go exactly to the

Riffs and not to join the Spanish Legion?” I said that I did not want to

help invaders but those who were defending themselves against them. “If

you want, I can give you a recommendation to the Spanish Legion and I am

sure you would be able to get into the Spanish Legion.” “No, thanks, I

am not also fit for a regular army but may be able to take part with

irregulars.”

MY IDENTITY

After asking all these questions, he asked what papers I have got to

prove my identity. I said I have none, but there are enough people in

London to prove my statements and will stand witness to them. “Oh, if a

man came to me and said, he was the Emperor of China and wanted a

passport, is that enough to issue a passport to him?” I pointed out to

him the example does not hold good, since I do not claim to be Emperor

of any country and the Emperor of China would not come to him to ask for

a passport. He did not even smile. I felt the authorities did not want

to leave this opportunity go to get rid of me. “All right, I shall issue

you a passport as an exception.”

I told him passport or no passport, exception or not, I am going to

Tangier although I had an inkling that without a passport I would not be

allowed to tranship in Gibralter [sic] for a boat to Tangier.

So, we bought the tickets on the German Far East Liner “Luetzow”.

Sukhsagar Dutt would not leave unless he had a Mauser rifle and a

Browning revolver. In England at that time, one could purchase firearms

by paying a shilling to a post office for license. I did not like the

bombast of holding the long rifle, of which we did not know the use, but

had to put up with it although I felt its carrying in civil dress might

raise ridicule and suspicion. We got on top of bus to take train and

held the rifle. Our detectives sat next to us as they said “to wish us

good bye and good luck”. One of them asked us to be writing to him. “Of

course” I said. We slept in a hotel in Southampton and got on board, on

the day on which Dhingra was hanged in Pentonville prison, just 8 weeks

after the murder. We reached Gibralter. The customs authorities asked us

to deposit the arms, and gave a receipt with which we could recover them

on leaving.

AT GIBRALTAR

Gibralter was sultry and arid. After taking room in a Spanish hotel we

went out to walk. There were 6 Sindhi shops, all dealing in the same

article, silks, curious [sic] from Far East, and India. I tried to enter

into a conversation with the owners but as soon as they found we had not

come to buy, they went back to their desks and were looking askance

whether we did not come to lift their goods. The same scene was repeated

in every shop. So we went on without the pleasure of meeting them.

We could cross over to Tangier every day but my friend Sukhsagar would

not; saying let us go tomorrow. Thus nearly a week passed and our hotel

bills rose up so that there would be nothing left if we stayed there

further, I found that my companion was not willing to go to a country

and for a purpose which would not give the comforts of London student

life. I was not willing to retreat, even if we had money to go back.

VII. “MY GUIDE BECOMES MY FRIEND AND PHILOSOPHER”

I took up the last shilling or two and made up my mind to cross the

Tanger landing there without a penny. Sukhasagar had made up his mind to

return to London somehow. (I heard afterwards, that in Marseilles he

borrowed some money from an unknown person to reach from Paris and after

borrowing there some Indian reached London. That was the last I saw or

heard of him.)

After crossing the water, I was accosted by a guide: “Hotel, Guide,

Sir?”. Not knowing where to put up for the night, I asked him to take me

to a hotel. Thinking I was a gentleman fit enough to pay, he took me to

the best hotel in Tanger at that time, Hotel Bristol. Room four

shillings I did not protest, for he would suspect that [I] was short of

money or stingy.

AT TANGER- WITHOUT PENNY

Tanger of those days was international administration, the chief being

taken over by the French, and Spanish Governments. It has no roads, all

the paths of any breadth being strewn with stones. Therefore, there were

also no carriages, the chief conveyance for man and goods being donkeys.

It was however, a picturesque town, for which reason tourist ships used

to stop there.

The evening of my arrival was sultry. After failing to enter into talk

with “my countrymen, “ I went dispondent [sic] to the beach and sat

down. My head was reeling with thoughts as to what I should do to hold

out till at least such time as I could write to my friends in London and

see what assistance they could give me. Meanwhile, how to stay and live

in Tanger, before I could even attempt to go the Riffs ? While brooding

over these thoughts, my guide passed taking a walk alone. He was not

only curious what I was thinking sitting alone, but also knew from my

face that I was melancholy, and he greeted me. Soon, he asked me what I

was unhappy about. I told him that I was not at all unhappy, which he

said, he would not believe in spite of my attempt to impress upon him

that I was alright. At last, knowing as he did that I was from India,

therefore an Oriental, he said point blank extending his hand “I am an

oriental and so you are, tell me as a brother, what troubles you.

Perhaps, I can be of assistance to you and if I can I shall assist you.”

Now, to give up this opportunity of unburdening my heart would be

suicidal. My situation was desperate as the reader knows. So I started

my story.

THE GUIDE AS A FRIEND

I told him, I came to Tanger to join the Riffians in their fight against

Spain. I had no money. I had no friend who would be able to assist me to

go there. I did not know any language except English. I was a Hindu and

did not know Muslim habits and customs. I was therefore cudgeling my

brains not only how to achieve my objects but also how to maintain

myself till I could go there. To be at retreat was also impossible. I

had asked him to take me to the hotel without having a penny in the

pocket and I did not know how to pay even that night’s lodging. What

shall I do? Doing nothing was also impossible!

My friend, as he now was, was a young tall man with just growing beard

made his face still longer than it was and pondered seriously heaving

sigh. But there was a smile emerging at the corner of his mouth. I felt

he sympathized with me, for being a non-Muslim and coming to join the

Riffian all the way from India and landing for that purpose without

penny. He did not ask as my Parisian Indian sympathizers in good

circumstances bombarded me, “Why did you come here at all if you had no

money.” For the first time somehow, and a non-Indian with whom I had

nothing in common as interest, tried to break his head as to how to

relieve me from my predicament, the same afternoon as I met him.

He told me like this: You come in wrong time. If you had come some

months ago, I could have helped you to any amount. Just now my business

is bad, very bad. I have no money. You being a stranger, I cannot put

you up in my house where my people are orthodox keepers of harem. Wait a

minute, I have an idea which may solve the problem temporarily at least.

I know a Spanish family and I shall ask them to give you bed and

breakfast till we can make other arrangements. All right let us go to

the hotel and take your baggage and I shall take you there.

At once, we left the shore, went into the hotel, he paid my bill for the

night, lodging, and took out the baggage. Thus I went out as gentleman

like as I entered it, led by my “guide” who became also friend and

philosopher.

NEW FRIENDS

He took me to a Spanish family, who readily gave me a room and a promise

of breakfast. What agreement he made with them, I did not know. After

this, we went out together. He took me to an Arab, rather Moorish

singing Cafe, introduced me to the proprietor whom he told to give me

whatever I wanted, and also introduced me to an old Moor, a singer and a

middle aged blond eyed riff with a twirled moustache and a French beard

both well trimmed. If this man was found instead of an Arab Fez only in

a European suit, he could have passed for a northern European, so

European his skin, and manners were. I understood he spoke excellent

French having been in France and educated in French schools. But there

he was also a guide among the darker and orthodoxically dressed Moors,

all just eking their existence. My guide’s name was Selim Atyyeh.

In those days Morocco was the only North African country not yet

completely swallowed up by some Western Power. There was at least

nominally a Sultan in Fez, though the French upset one Sultan and

offered him pension to replace him by one more subservient to

themselves. But my Moorish friend told me, pointing to the coast of

Spain which is clearly visible from Tanger: “You see we had once

conquered and ruled that country for centuries and now the turn comes to

us to be ruled and conquered by them. Probably, we deserve it and in any

case we are going to be swallowed up by France. In fact in temperament

and features, there is very slight difference between the Moors and the

Spaniards and whom they mix together in Tanger, they are scarcely

indistinguishable except by dress: The Moors being able to handle some

Moorish pieces on Moorish instruments. Only when politics interfere we

see they are ferociously against each other.

That very same evening when I was introduced to the Riflian (called

trouble or Kabyle), we three went into a European restaurant, European

in the sense kept for Europeans.

From next day on, I was meeting them in their cafe daily, and I even

stayed long than they there [sic], observing what was going on in the

cafe. Whole day, there were waiting for some tourist ships so that they

may conduct the tourists into the town and earn some money. Very often

tourist ships did come and they lived by the earning

MY FIRST SMOKE

I was spending most of my time in the Arab cafe, One thing I observed

was that all the Arabs there at least were smoking Hashish (Hemp)

whenever they were idle. Even a young boy of barely 12 years smoked

Hashish, which is a poisonous narcotic. I did not know at that time to

be poisonous, but which I thought was only like cigarette smoking. I

took one or two puffs, soon had my head reeling with headache, and I

lost consciousness. Only after several hours, I could recollect what had

happened. I was lying at the time lying dazed on the ground. But the boy

was not affected and was doing everything as if he was free from the

habit. That was the first and last time I tried Hashish, it was so

awful.

By and bye [sic], I came to my friend upon my plan to go to the Riffs.

He said he would try to approach the ex-sultan of Morocco through, a

friend of his. Later on he told me that the ex-Sultan Abdul Aziz, who

was pensioned by the French Government was willing to give a

recommendation to Riff Chief but he could not help me with money to go

there. Upon inquiry I found it would cost me £ 10 at least to reach the

Riff country, if I got permission from Fez. So my going to the Riffs was

a hopeless affair and my attempt failed.

Being pennyless [sic], I had to get out of the country as soon as

possible. My friend told me that if he had money he would have helped me

to smuggle myself into the Riffian country, but his business was bad.

What was his business? He himself explained to me he got to know me more

chummily. He said that the guide profession was only a camouflage. His

chief business was bank and jewel shop robbery in Spain. He was a member

of a Spanish gang. In Morocco also he stripped off travellers of their

all after taking them for an ‘outing.’ Some women travellers played

frolick with them when they were in company or alone with them. He said

all the active members of his gang in Spain were caught and sentenced to

long-term imprisonments. So his business did not “go.” He further told

me that as there were some enemies among the police, he “removed” them

and thrusting the dagger through the slits at the side of his overcoat.

One night, he asked me to wait in a cafe in the interior of town. I

waited long and at last he came back. He told me he had slipped into the

harem of a house where a woman loved him and she had kept the door for

him to enter. He said it would have cost him his life as such escapades

are generally punished by death.

TERRIBLE YET FRANK FRIENDS

We introduced me to a man — Bu-Homara, who was plundering all the

villages of a province. Bu-Homara showed me some places where he had

buried the heads of his enemies. All terrible fellows but they were

open-hearted with me. The Homara’s ambition was to become the Governor

of a province and then live off the people like a lord. He sent an

ultimatum to the Sultan saying that unless he was made Governor, he

would lay waste to all that province. He was more powerful with his band

than the actual Governor with his troops. He carried out his raids so

perfectly that the troops could not hold out.

After the failure, rather impossibility to reach the Riffs, for want to

a big sun there was nothing left but to quit the country. Where to go?

It was dependent upon money. Anyway, I had to get money to go away. I

wrote to my friends in London about the expenses required to reach the

Riffs, knowing well that they cannot afford that sum. I asked to make

arrangements to enable me to shift to any other country, even India. I

knew only a few pounds would be available with great difficulty. And it

would take weeks before they could gather that sum. There was also

suspicion that would take months before I got any money. After some

weeks, I got a letter and money order telling me that they could send me

only enough money to land in Portugal. Where a friend would meet me and

see what can be done.

One day the postman brought a money order to the cafe but he would not

deliver the amount without witnesses. Passport was not enough, for in

these days the passports had no identity photographs, that was an

invention of Germans. So I had to take my friend to get the money. Now

it surged in my mind that my friend would surely expect to be paid for

the two months and off he kept me alive so generously. If I paid

anything I could not reach Lisbon, for there were only a few shillings

left behind passage money. If I do not pay, my friend might think I

would be unjust and God knows what other consequences he would draw

therefrom about my mentality. When I got the money from the

post-official, I told him to keep it for me till the ship for Lisbon

came. He told me to keep it with myself. Very reluctantly, he

safeguarded the money for me. I told him to buy of ticket of Lisbon

[sic]. But he said it is better to wait till the ship came; for he said,

some British informers were asking who this fellow (myself) who was

ubiquitous with him, what I was about and wither I intended to go. How

right my friend’s information was will be known in my description about

Lisbon.

The ship came. My friend at once went to a Dutch steamship office and

bought a ticket for Lisbon asking me to be in readiness to board the

ship and then he took me into the ship. He not only have me my ticket

but also the rest of the money. He asked me to write to him as often as

possible and if I could afford, he had only one with: He wanted a small

bottle of some French perfume. I never expected he would not ask for one

penny for all the expenses he went through on my account during months.

He did not ask me to send money if I could at any time. This as the man

I had to engage once as my “guide”. From guide, he became my benefactor

without any reward.

VIII. DRIVEN FROM LISBON TO PARIS- PORTUGAL — A COLONY OF BRITISH

CAPITAL

At last I sailed away to Lisbon with a few shillings to land. My

acquaintances on board were a pastor couple and mechanic both English.

During the travel they were different from the “high brow” Englishmen we

are accustomed to deal with in India. Who is not a “high brow”

Englishman in India?

INDIAN CULTURE

When I landed in Lisbon, I was informed that I had to pay a head-tax

upon landing and it amounted to £1. I had not a penny again. I would not

be allowed to pass the bar unless I paid. The English mechanic

volunteered to lay the money out if I repaid. I agreed and gave him my

Friend’s address in Cascaes near Lisbon, where all people who can afford

rent or own a villa for residence in summer. It was King Manuel’s time.

I thought I would somehow settle down in Portugal with the help of my

friend. I was too tired already within a year of continuous wandering

without a penny, tossed as it were by every wind and wave. I was first

put up in my friend’s villa but the very next day after my arrival, I

was transferred to the house of a Member of Parliament--a very nice

elderly gentleman--Dr. Lacorda. He was interested in Indian culture and

used to point out that Indians had calculated the age of the earth more

exactly than any and that their invention of the decimal system had

revolutionised mathematics and thus all sciences.

JUICES OF ROTTEN GRAPES

When I first landed, my dress was very shabby and I could not introduce

me to any in that town. So my friend kindly gave me the suit of a

brother of his who had died some months earlier. I was only sleeping in

Dr. Lacorda’s villa, eating in my friend’s house nearby. I made

acquaintance with wine for the first time. When table wine was served

and I tried it, I could not understand what pleasure there was in

drinking the juice which nearly smelled of rotten grapes. I did not

think it had alcohol in it, however little, nor was it considered

medicinal in properties. For the first time, I was living in a European

family and had to learn to use knife and fork properly at table,

especially as my hosts were aristocrats. Except my friend, none in the

family understood any English. But my friend was most of the time away

on duty and it devolved upon the other members to keep me engaged. So

gradually, I tried and could understand what was being said at table,

which they thought was a great progress.

The English mechanic companion on board steamer came to me and my friend

generously paid what I owed him.

I was living like a well-to-do tourist thanks to the good position of my

friend’s family, and it is considered a great honour done to me when

people knew I was also guest of the Dr. M.P.

SECRET SERVICEMAN

I was also taken into the Casino there and introduced to several people.

My dreams of settling down in Portugal were shaken in a couple of days

when one morning my friend rushed into my room in Dr. Lacorda’s house,

asking me to dress up quick as I was summoned to the Ministry of the

Interior. He said that in the dead of night, Secret Servicemen had come

to his house and wanted to remove me at once, but when they were told I

was sleeping in the M.P.’s house, they could not do so, as he was immune

as a parliamentarian. Thus I was spared the misery of sleeping in the

lock-up. So there was nothing to do but to rush to Lisbon and face the

very Ministry of the Interior. In those days, if anyone was denounced

even anonymously as an anarchist (bomb-thrower or terrorist), he was at

once spirited away to the Island of Macao in China to die a slow death

there, unless some warder killed the accused quickly. Not only the man

accused but all his relations and friends had to be prepared to be

deported. Yet in the streets of Lisbon, there was no sign of revolt and

all the “devil-may-care” went about drinking and dancing night after

night. “All was quiet in Portugal.” I was not so much worried about my

fate as that of my friend and his family, who were also terror-stricken

since the visit of the Secret Servicemen in the dead of night. I had not

been two days since the trouble started although I entered the part

legally and was not travelling like a lord observed by all. It was

mystery to me how and why especially the latter. The Government

considered me so dangerous as to be heard by none lower than the

Minister of the Interior. Such an honour is very much to be avoided by a

man in the ordinary, below the ordinary, walk of life.

We went to Lisbon early in the morning to the Ministry of the Interior

in Lisbon as it was an urgent and dangerous business to the State. But

hours passed till the gentleman entered his office in the afternoon past

3 P.M. If any office-worker came some minutes late, he will be warned.

But the important ministers who save the State, can come anyhours late.

So we were waiting, thinking every minute now he comes--perhaps.

DO YOU KNOW BOMB MAKING?

At last, the Minister entered into the room dressed in impeccable style.

After a few minutes, I, the potential enemy of the State, law and order

was asked asked to come in. The Minister was kind enough to give me seat

in spite of my criminal position.

There was a letter before him which he read first. While reading he

asked me where I came from last. I told him I came from Tanger. Why did

you go there? — ‘I wanted to join the Ruffians.’ What did you want to do

with them? — ‘I liked to help them in fighting’; “Oh, you wanted to

become — what is his name — the bandit chieftain of S. India — yes,-

Shivaji?” He remarked, adding “you want to found an empire like him!” I

told him in answer: I am not a great man nor would like to be one like

Shivaji: “Yes yes, I know” he retorted.

The next question was: Do you know bomb-making? — “Sorry, no.” He kept

quiet instead of putting further questions on that point, as I thought,

he would.

The third question was: What do you intend to do here? “I only want to

settle down and naturalise myself in Portugal.” “I have no objection to

staying here but you must place yourself under police supervision and

cannot change your residence without police permission. I answered: No,

I don’t want to stay in this country under these conditions, since I

wanted to live as a free man. “Sorry, I cannot do otherwise.” “Then I am

going away from this country.” “Where do you want to go?” “I will leave

for France” “All right: When are you leaving? I have to send a man to

see that you leave.” I fixed a day right on the spot and informed him

that he can send his man at a particular hour to “see me off.”

He asked me to write my answers to the three questions on a paper and

sign it. Why? I saw that the questions came from the British Minister in

Lisbon, and he had to send a signed paper to him from me. I saw the

heading of the letter on the table.

This “minister” of an independent country was formerly chief justice of

Portuguese India and he “studied” Indian history to the effect that

“Shivaji was a bandit.” Every school-child “knows” that in India. If

Shivaji was European, history might be written otherwise, as a wise,

clement ruler, whether he failed or succeeded, to found an Empire.

A COLONY OF BRITISH CAPITALS

I suspected that Portugal was a colony of British capital, for all the

municipal work were concessioned British companies, such as tram, gas,

electricity, and I was told by a man from Portuguese East Africa, that

Portugal holds “her colonies” only with the benignness of the British

authorities in the adjacent British territory. If someone escaped to

Portuguese East Africa, the British authorities sent British policemen

to catch him and the action was ratified later by the Portuguese

“authorities.” I have known a case before I went away from India where

an Indian refugee was fetched away from Goa with only a semblance of

formality. But I never thought till I had to answer the Minister of the

Interior in Portugal that Portugal itself was [a] colony in spite of a

different colour painted on the map of Europe. No wonder, Portugal had

to enter the war on the side of the allies during the Great War.

On the appointed morning, the plain clothes-man came to the house, saw

that I was ready to start and accompanied and observed me till I got

into the train for Paris with a real ticket in my hand. I was also glad

to lift the anxiety of my friend’s family about deportation to Macao by

leaving the land, although one was never sure they would not be deported

for giving me refuge. Dr. Lacorda himself would have been deported if it

was not for his high and respected position.