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2022-03-20 - Off my chest

It was last December when it became possible that a lot of things are going to change soon. It was this February when it became apparent. I'm sorry if this entry sounds a bit cryptic or meaningless. It has to be this way. I hope this will be the only entry in my gemlog that has to do with geopolitics.

Because I really hate geopolitics. I'm not an apolitical person, I take a lot of time and effort to research political and economical systems with all their intricacies. But when these systems clash, it gets dirty, and I hate it.

I don't know if I ever mentioned the fact that I'm Russian. Even though I was not (yet) touched by the unfolding events (other than economically), it still feels like the life was put on halt. Which is why this capsule was silent.

As days and weeks went by, as February changed into March, I still couldn't (and still can't) come up with a final, informed position on what's happening with this world. And, please hear me out, I don't believe that anyone can possibly have an informed position. We have all the information in the world because of the TV and the Internet, and at the same time, we have no information at all. As tension and hysteria go through the roof, unbiased information goes extinct.

There is Oceanian information, there is Eurasian information, there are all other kinds of information, but there's no _information_. All information lies on a continuum of bias, and the reference point is unknown.

In this post-modern world, one cannot take sides without engaging in belief. One either has to put trust into this or that flavor of information, or one is fated to keep neutral and thus be attacked from all sides. I consciously choose to not put full trust in any flavor of information.

I know the consensus that is present in the Western world. I know the contrary position, prevalent where I live. I can, to a certain extent, understand both, and cannot fully embrace either. I have my own bias and leanings, but I will refrain from disclosing them.

Am I a hypocrite for that? I don't know. I just don't want to get mad, for as long as possible. I've seen people get really mad really quick, from both sides. I've seen people regret saying what they said days ago. I've seen families disintegrate over it. I want to process the information slowly and carefully. If there's any truth at all, it cannot be obtained in haste.

In all this uncertainty, there were and still are so many unanswered questions. How do I continue writing a gemlog without addressing the current state of the world? If I do, how do I approach it? Will I be rejected for not fully abiding by the universal consensus? Will I be cancelled, ostracized or misunderstood for being Russian? As the higher powers are resurfacing this world, will we - the people - be able to stay united and human? Will our civilization live to meet the year 2023?

...I so suck at writing this kind of articles. I probably shouldn't have. I should go to sleep.

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Keith Aprilnight (aprilnightk@tilde.team)