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I feel like right now I'm in a major state of flux. So many parts of my life seem to be changing so quickly, and I want to cram as much more into it as possible, and take advantage of everything. In retrospect it seems like the changes I made were so obvious, I regret not making them 10 years ago, but at that point there was no way I could have known what I needed, nor had the maturity to really take advantage of them in a really healthy way.
My major goals for improvement right now are to
It's weird how just a little bit of social interaction with the right people in the world can sort of unleash all this pent up desire for socialization and interaction. I almost feel like I ought to be careful not to overdo it and push people away. But I shouldn't just turn away either.
I am begging for change but I don't really understand what that means for me. I am putting my faith in the universe and letting myself be led through this burning process. I'm restless. I can't wait for it to start in earnest. I know the work will be hard but the rewards will be worth it, even though I don't know what they really are.
Slowly, slowly I will become me.