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as of late, i just haven't been as sad. sad, sure, but not "i'm literally organizing my life around the fact that i'll probably kill myself soon" sort of sad. i guess i'll just use this 'sad' folder for general mental health updates, then.
i think starting estrogen a week-ish ago has had a helping hand with my mood. i don't know if it has any *direct* influence on my emotional state, but maybe just knowing i finally have the stuff is making me feel better.
what does my family have to say about it? i think i mentioned it before, but i'm never admitting anything to my family! no matter how much evidence they get. speaking of evidence, i'm probably the worst secret-keeper in the world, cause both my parents already have their suspicions.
my mom's generally not okay with transfolk. she told me to get a counseller, which is alright, but she also randomly tells me stories about people who have "ungayified" themselves through catholicism, and that's less assuring.
my dad, who i thought would be way worse, is actually surprisingly based. on our drive to buy some new bookshelves, he told me "if you want to transition, just know that i'll fully support you going down that path". he went on to mention the analogy that "it's no more different than being left handed", and that made it so much harder to keep playing dumb.
i don't have any friends in meatspace, so that makes it easier. as for cyberspace, i'm only friends with cool people, so they're cool about it. i also have ventalts (like this!) where i talk about being trans, and that always helps, i think!
march 12, 2021