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After facing again and again the same problems in life I decided finally to get diagnosis for Asperger's (now it's properly called Autism Spectrum Disorder, as far as I know). I already have formal diagnosis for ADHD, which was required to get meds, which made me actually able to successfully fulfill normal everyday duties and responsibilities.
I wasn't thinking that diagnosis for ASD would be ever useful for me at all (since many years I considered being autistic as obvious fact about myself) as there's no way to get any benefit or gain from it, but I changed my mind after being banned in Discord server ASDirect for writing that I might be not autistic, when server was for autistic people only.
I never thought I'll ever need to be absolutely sure about my neurotype, but this experience convinced me that potentially someone can say I'm appropriating something that doesn't belong to me, and identify myself with some disorder I potentially could not have. But, to be honest, the main reason is that I just want to know how to stop being banned everywhere and make everyone around me upset, regardless if I want this or not, and to know for sure should I force myself to maintain eye contact in conversation or to not try at all.