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For the past month and a half I have had issues with my right eye having 'watery' and distorted vision. As it turns out, my retina is partially detatched. It might have happened as a result of my cateracts surgery exasperating preexisting issues, or it may have happened regardless. Either way the core cause, as I am given to understand, stems from the fact I was born three months early and placed in a high oxygen ventelator to keep me alive. As this was before widespread micro-surgery nothing was possible at the time to mitigate issues early in, but at the same time while my vision has always been very bad it had always been 'stable' up til now.
Theoretically something could have been done when I first noticed a change in my vision when the distortion was roughly where my eyelid naturally is when my eyes are open, but the behavior did not conform to what I had always been told a detatched retina would look like. It was blur, looking like a bubble was forming as opposed to a patch of blackness. The problem is any mitigation stratagies and the easy treatment of injections ended when the bubble had gotten into my central vision, otherwise known as the macula.
So next Wensday I am going to go in for surgery where they will place a band around my eye known as a scleral buckle, and take the jelly out of my eye as it is what has been pulling at my retina. The band will create a mid-eyeball bulge to give a ledge to keep my retina in position. An air bubble will be put into my eye to hold my retina in place and once there a laser will, as described to me, 'spot weld' it in place. The air bubble will then hold my retina in place as it heals and will slowly dissipate as new fluid is created in my eye.
During the recovery perid I will have a minamum of two days where I will largely be face down so the bubble will press in the correct place and potentially as long as a week, depending on what the surgens find when they begin the proceedure. Even if I am able to get away with two days of being face down I will then largely have to keep an upright posture and will have to sleep on my side until the bubbble goes away.
I will have to be completely put to sleep for this proceedure, which is the part that concerns me alongside post recovery 'don't do anything to mess up.'
I am going to be bored out of my mind during this period as I will be unable to bend or lift and I will have to moniture my positioning. Theoretically I will be able to listen to podcasts and the like, but reading is a no go due to how much involuntary eye movement is involved.
There is no gurentee of this working. The doctor was quite upbeat and positive, but did note that level of recovery wasn't gurenteed. He hada very easy and approachable manner to him and was trying to keep the big words and jargon to a minamum. Nice fellow and while i had questions I am quite sure the man knows his stuff so my own discomfort is more the situation as a whole.
I'm tired of my eyes betraying me.
And... I'm afraid I will not be able to see the stars after this. It's a silly thing in the grand scale, but considering my eyesight getting made good enough to drive was never on the table with cateracts surgery? I had hopedI at least would be able to see the stars, and for that month after cateracts surgery? I could.
God willing, I suppose, but I put my trust more in modern medacine than faith the lord will make an exemption for me.
Should be happy that there are even treatments for a detatched retina. When I was in school a detatched retina was permenent.
Still feel ripped off that we're getting the cyberpunk trappings of political corruption, partisanship, pandemics, bigotry and riots. Yet we do not have the cool things like completely artificial eyes or bionic limbs.
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