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(TW: suicide mention)
The most annoying thing about my life right now is I get 10-12 spam calls a day and I'm paying for RoboKiller to help me deal with it. It's still annoying to get 10-12 notifications that RK has blocked a spam call.
My career is at a point where I can continue to climb the ladder as long as I put effort into it. I don't want to ever become a manager even though I'm good at mentoring junior engineers. I can plug and chug for the next 20 years until my industry deems me too old to continue. I shall be taken out back and shot. I'll be happy because I'll be paid well.
But every day that passes makes me more certain that software engineering is not the thing I'm here to do. I would not be satisfied if I died with no legacy, which is what would happen if I continue to work for company after company my whole life.
I probably need to become a full time writer. There's no way around it.
Throwing away a well-paying job to do something unstable like that is really scary, so I'm not thinking too much about it. But I need to really start putting effort into it or it'll soon be too late.
My relationship is going well, which is still something I'm getting used to. Coming out of my previous shitty one and having done 4 years of therapy, I'm like an S-tier boyfriend. It's like I was playing basketball with weights on my ankles for years and now I'm Shaq. E and I talk about weddings and stuff like that a lot, so that'll probably be happening in like late 2023 or something. It's weird how not weird it is to talk about that stuff with her.
What a life. Ten years ago around this time I was planning on killing myself because I didn't think anything would be good ever.