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acrophilia

I have always loved heights. I can't say why for certain.

I fall. It is a symptom of ambition.

To remember I've fallen is to remember I've been at great height; the former implies the latter. For every descent, an ascent preceded. Between these motions, I take the time to glimpse vistas otherwise invisible; to gaze at stars otherwise obscured.

Upon falling, I do not forget them. In time their remembrance will evoke nostalgia at worst, tending toward joy. This is my favorite thing I know about myself.

My memories of the past are uniquely my own, and in that way, I am my past's progenitor; its host. I am a part of it, and every part of it, equally, is a part of me. The choice of action was mine at the moment, but the choice of memory, of identity, is not mine.

Upon falling, those who know me will ensure my bones are intact.

Those who like me will watch awhile for worsening fractures or bruises.

Those who love me will not ask me to stop climbing.

Ty (acrophiliac)