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~tetris

But I've always had a rather terminal case of work ethic

Restless hand and mind syndrome. I suffer from it too. I like to think that I'd live out my retirement in some virtual reality game-sphere thing, but I've had vacations where I do nothing but that and it gets mind-numbingly boring.

I need to create instead of just consuming, otherwise I feel like I can't justify my existence. There's a nice anime called "Welcome to the NHK" which explores similar themes, of a uni-dropout shut-in NEET whose trying to bring meaning to his existence, and it resonated with me a lot.

But... well, my wife was horrified to hear I was 166 lbs a couple weeks ago (was about 185 lbs when I started the job)... and this morning I blew 163 lbs on the weight scale whistle. No idea what to make of it, as I'm eating to beat a "the band" conference.

You lucky SOB! Stress does the opposite for me, where I just gain and gain without release. At least you can look at yourself in the mirror amidst the most wretched mindset and think "hey, I still got it".

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~inquiry wrote (thread):

> Restless hand and mind syndrome. I suffer from
> ittoo. I like to think that I'd live out my
> retirementin some virtual reality game-sphere thing,
> but I'vehad vacations where I do nothing but that
> and itgets mind-numbingly boring.

"Doing the dishes" (manually) provides the most relief.

And that's actually childhood related, as I recall at family gatherings on my dad's side feeling far more comfortable around the "womanfolk" (a non-offensive term in my day) than the men in conversations after the meal. The males seemed what I want to call "uncomfortably gruff" in speech, and of course at least one wasn't unfamiliar with drinking at levels conducive to "saying things you probably shouldn't". That invariably led - yea, drove - me to becoming the primary dish-washer at such events.

> You lucky SOB! Stress does the opposite for me,
> whereI just gain and gain without release. At least
> youcan look at yourself in the mirror amidst the
> mostwretched mindset and think "hey, I still got it".

Oh, sure... load me up with quality guilting while I'm down and out! :-)