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NotebookThree.UnNumbered.birthday_thoughts_90
by j z provo
1 oct 90
12h49
one day before my 'birthday'.
one day before i am suddenly older.
one day for much work to be done.
one more day to realize what has yet to be done
...what has been undone.
one more day of broken dreams,
supressed desires,
and buried regrets.
near five years since
Death
shook me Awake;
near five years since
Love
opened my eyes.
near five years
I have been alternately
Remembering
and
Rejecting
these Gifts.
near five years of alcoholic haze,
edited memories,
erased nightmares,
and piss-poor 'art'.
The Immortals look down upon me in anger.
I am pummeled, beaten,
bruised and abused;
They try to kick me to action...
...and i just sit.
my blood flows as my name;
eyes nose mouth chest arms
become a pulsating crimson
river of pain. Within it i
find my solace: drowned in
my own blood.