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Torn attention, distributed burnout

I'm feeling very torn between many, many, different projects and priorities right now. Every single thing I have on my plate doesn't feel like enough to sate me and yet I don't even have half the time to finish half the work.

It doesn't help that I've been in a pretty bad place lately and it feels like everything has just been falling apart. No, sorry, that's probably a little dramatic. It's more like I just dropped a lot of my personal and professional projects in ways that feel hard and, well, even humiliating to admit.

It's been difficult to live down and live on but here I am.

I've been so burned out and tired and yet I can't help but feel like there's a lot of ways that all that energy isn't going into enough to be worthwhile. It feels like a lot of my work ends up being unnecessarily busy, inefficient, putting out fires.

I'm trying to figure out now how to do things different, how to do and be more than I am and how to accomplish even a fraction of what I want.

I think a lot of it is going to involve doing the hard work of saying "no" to more, delegating more, and protecting my time so so much more.

Let's get started.