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1 If you are in need of help, you need but ask...
2 ************************* INSTALLED: 7 SEP 86 ************************************
3 Welcome to BWMS (BackWater Message System) Mike Day System operator
4 ************************************************************
5 GENERAL DISCLAIMER: BWMS IS NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY INFORMATION
6 PLACED ON THIS SYSTEM.
7 BWMS was created as an electronic bill board. BWMS is a privately owned
8 and operated system which is currently open for use by the general public.
9 No restrictions are placed on the use of the system. As the system is
10 privately owned, I retain the right to remove any and all messages which
11 I may find offensive. Because of the limited size of the system, it will be
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13 To leave a message, type 'ENTER' and use ctrl/C or break to get out of the
14 ENTER mode. The message is automatically stored. If after entering the
15 message you find you made a mistake, use the replace command to replace
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17 Type 'HELP' to see other commands that are available on the system.
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20 ###########################################################################
21 The differenece between love and hate is not so great. They live side
22 by side, one always struggling with the other. When love is strong and
23 shows its range, the beauty of the world opens up and surrounds us.
24 But when love is supressed. When it is hidden. When it is striken and
25 held inside, foul hatred rises to take its place. The expanse of the world
26 is lost and it reduces down to a narrow tunnel of vision. Only the hatred
27 is visible, only the wrong is known.
28 It is so easy to switch from love to hate that often we don't even
29 realize it. It enters our lives in an insidious fashion, filling the cracks
30 and nooks in out heads when love retreats and the anger of the world seeps
31 in. And like water in crevises of a rock it sits and waits biding its time
32 for when the cold winter season sets in. Then it does its worse breaking
33 apart the bonds of grace and strength. Leaving our emotions scattered and
34 destroyed. Leaving only only shattered hopes and dreams.
35 Then is when hatred paints its image in our minds, giving reason where
36 none exists. Filling the void left by the lost vision of love and hope.
37 Then hate works to finish what it has begun, feeding on the lost and
38 ravaged vision of the past. Breaking the mind into small grains of sand,
39 until nothing is left but a warped image, a ghost of the past, and all our
40 hopes and dreams lay as shards at out feet.
41 Can this be changed? Yes, but it isn't easy. It requires great
42 strength and desire to build anew, to find new and stronger foundations to
43 build anew. Build incorporating pieces of the past, or leave them behind
44 and start fresh, but don't let the cold snows of hatred deter you. A solid
45 foundation is important. Begin with a thought and form you can believe in
46 and hold as your own for all time. For the stronger the foundation, the
47 greater the strength against the storms that will always test you.
48 You build with joy, love, and faith on a foundation of sense and
49 purpose. It is long and at times tedious, but in the end it is more then
50 worth it, for it provides you with a strength and vitality, a sense of well
51 being that is unachieveable in any other way.
52 You can start easily today, just look out your window, or step outside
53 and see the wonderous beauty that mother nature gives us. See the clear
54 blue sky, the fluffy white clouds, the rich green of the leaves on the
55 trees. When it rains see the rainbow it brings. Don't just look at these,
56 see them, know them for what they are. They are there for you to enjoy, so
57 revel in their existance, and love the wonders that life has to bring.
58
59 Remember, the world sees you as you see yourself.
60
61 Stiring, I looked up at the dying flames of the hearth. What an odd
62 dream, what did it mean? Oh, I had seen the death, hate and suffering many
63 times of those I knew and had known, I knew all of that, and I knew what
64 that aspect of the dream ment, I have lived it often enough in my own past.
65 But why did I dream of such things now? To what purpose, to what end was
66 this displayed before me now? Perhaps it is simply the rememberance of
67 good and dear friends brought on by the flickering flames in the great
68 hearth of the Inn.
69 Getting up, I gathered an arm full of solid Alder and Birch to feed
70 the fire. Stiring the embers to encourage the fire to the logs, I then
71 moved back to relax in my chair again to enjoy the warmth that it always
72 brought. As I watched, the flames grew and licked at the logs, the mosses
73 and lichean clinging to the bark crackling and emitting sparks and bright
74 flashes. The flames grew and grew, hideing the logs, filling the fireplace
75 with a flickering yellow-white light.
76 ########################## The Innkeeper #################################
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78 DAMN!
79 I'd hoped to have the time to get a story entered again, but the fates have
80 cut in to have their say. Mundane reality has taken a big slice out of my
81 available time again. I'll have to leave it hanging (maybe finish it off
82 line and write an upload program?) and return later. Sorry folks, but I do
83 hafta pay the rent and feed the kid. Back when I can.
84 pppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp
85 curses.....curses ... curses.... must you begin opening with that?????
86 qqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq
87 _______________________09.08.86____________13:01______________0002.0_________p1
88
89 {+|+} <89> 860908^2017 !
90
91 BEVERLY HILLS CENTURY CITY
92 EVERYONE'S SO NICE A PRETTY
93
94 KILLING YOU KILLING ME REAGGAE
95 MURDERING YOU MURDERING ME REAGGAE
96
97 NO MORE REAGGAE
98
99 DUDE LET'S SMOKE OUT AND GET PLASTERED!
100
101
102 WHAT A BUNCH OF STONED & DERANGED
103 SCUM SLUTS....
104
105 .-.-.-.-.sigh.-.-.-.-.-.-.Emu
106 PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPsigh^2PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
107 {+|+} <107> 860909^0822
108 ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
109 Sometimes Love leaves and hate fills the void, but sometimes isn't everytime. The cliche' rings true: 'Tis better to have
110 loved and lost than to never have loved at all. How else can Man and Woman ever experience the truly important emotional
111 state of Love? Being bombarded on all sides as to how black the time after love can be, many are scared of ever letting
112 down their defenses and letting Love enter.
113 Our Western mind has a strange idea of Love. It has its origins in medieval times when knight and lady strode arm in arm
114 betwixt and between Dragons and Robber Barons. Love was an exciting breathtaking experience! Leave that plain, albeit steady
115 feeling older couples had for each other behind. This fresh, invigorating dash of romantic love was the true emotion. And
116 when this brightly burning candle goes out, so be it. Love is through. Time for the depression, the blackness, the void where
117 hate might gain a stronghold.
118 Does this approach sound good? Is the continual thirst for high romance the
119 rock a lasting, loving relationship should be built on? As the excitement diminishes, and there is no avoiding that, all that
120 is built on that is in jeopardy. A relationship should not be devoid of romantic love, quite the opposite, that is where it
121 will start. But we must learn to move beyond that initial ecstasy into the realm of the steady, assured, long-time Love that
122 lasts, and leave no room for hate. It is at this point when we have truly, honestly found Love, the all-powerful force within
123 all of us.
124 Then Love is boring, some might say. What is better, the emotional tides of romantic love, where our insides are awash
125 one day with romance and the next day with hate, or the steadfast caring of a loved-one who will always be there, needing,
126 helping, listening, and Loving?
127 Perhaps this ideal is too difficult to live. We are all masochists then, because that higheplateau of existence will
128 never be available to us on our current path.
129 French Toast
130 _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
131
132 PC'S LIMITED TURBO PC(tm) - BETCHA CAN'T BUY JUST ONE!
133 _______________________09.09.86___________11:18______________0003.0__________p1
134 PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
135
136
137 Hang On A Second!!!
138
139 %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%
140 CONTRARY TO THE OPINION OF SOME, THE EDITING OF BACKWATER IS BY NO MEANS
141 RANDOM. THERE ARE THREE KINDS OF EDITING DONE:
142 1. REMOVAL OF EXCESSIVE BLANK LINES (AND OTHER ATTEMPTS TO FILL THE BOARD
143 AND PREVENT OTHER USERS FROM MAKING ENTRIES).
144 2. PROFANITY & OBSCENITIES AND OTHER OBJECTIONABLE MATERIAL (SEE THE FIRST
145 NINETEEN LINES OF EACH DISK).
146 3. RE-UPLOADS OF OLD MATERIAL (MOSTLY BECAUSE IT NOT ONLY WASTES SPACE, BUT
147 ALWAYS SEEMS TO HAVE BEEN UPLOADED BY SOMEONE OTHER THAN THE ORIGINAL
148 AUTHOR & THIS PERSON OR PERSONS ARE TRYING TO TAKE CREDIT FOR SOMEONE
149 ELSE'S WORK)
150
151 OCCASIONALLY A LEGITIMATE MSG WILL GET REMOVED WHILE THE JUNK IS BEING CLEANED
152 OUT. FOR THIS WE ARE TRULY SORRY. BUT ACCIDENTS DO HAPPEN.
153 *********************THE PHANTOM OF BACKWATER*********************************
154 So that's it!
155 ____09/09/86__________Leonard_JD 2446683.5860_________19:04:06_PDT_________
156 {{{{{{{{<<<>>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>
157 Emu: All the people they look the same/don't they know there so damn lame
158 <<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>>}}}}}}
159 <<<<SIGH..>>>>
160 MY GIRLFRIEND IS SO RUDE TO ME.
161 WHY DO I PUT UP WITH IT?
162 BUT I PUT UP WITH IT.
163 <<<<SIGH>>>>
164 [][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][]
165
166 New BBS. The Underground Crue! BBS
167
168 Strickly for commodore 64 users, Call Tonight!
169
170 Hours: 10pm - 6am 7 days a week!
171
172 (503) 659-xxxx
173
174 Note:The number to this bbs has been change from 654-xxxx to 659-xxxx
175
176 [][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][][]
177 French Toast--- Have we met? Things you say ring familiar...not
178 necessarily brilliant, just familiar. Tee Hee. Spelling's fine; meta-
179 phores are a bit mixed. Humbug passin' through
180 ===========================================================================
181 And on another topic...no response required: Will it matter to anyone that
182 so-called 'leaders' and 'wise men' and 'unbiased' scribes have blindly
183 shouted that one so-called reporter is INNOCENT of espionage should he
184 actually be guilty of it? Do you young people recognize how subtle the
185 acti of persuasion can be, when those who can capture the ear of the common
186 non-thinking masses are not effectively accountable for their acts and
187 their motives?!! Humbug gone years away
188 ==========================================================================
189 French Toast: Those of us who are more educated can clearly see that you are
190 just trying to impress us with your vocabulary and bad spelling. Quite
191 frankly, we're not impressed at all. On the contrary, it just makes you
192 appear as the very <explitive deleted> you indeed are.
193
194 AT&T
195 A keeper's a keeper,
196 of course, of course,
197 and the keeper,
198 never makes sense, of course,
199 That is of course,
200 unless the keeper
201 is the famous Keeper of Souls!
202 Go right to the source,
203 and ask the Keeper!
204 He'll give you the answer,
205 that you endorse.
206 He's on a rather
207 suicidal course,,
208 TALK TO THE KEEPER OF SOULS!
209 He'll go ranting and
210 raving a streak,
211 and waste the space of the board,
212 But that Keeper of Souls will
213 never speak,
214 about anything but dismay.
215 A keeper's a keeper.
216 Of course of course
217 and this keeper
218 will talk
219 till his voice is hoarse.
220 You never heard
221 Of the Keeper of Souls?
222 Well listen to this!
223 EYE IM DE KEYPER UF SOWLS!
224 PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPHAHAHA!!PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
225 {+|+} <226> 860910^0006 !
226 ->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-<-
227 weird, really weird.
228 I'm not sure whether I love or hate it
229 #=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#
230 # THE BLACK HAND VERSUS THE SUN MAN - PART 1
231 # One night the black hand was crawling on the sun deck of the Capitol. A
232 #beam of light barely missed him. He picked up his pinky and shot 27 rocks of
233 #granite where the beam was coming from. Suddenly a guy with a sun face
234 #appeared. I shot that light to beam you. "I'm not you, I'm a hand," said the
235 #black hand.
236 # PART 2
237 # They both laughed at that. The black hand was hoping to make friends,
238 #but they didn't.
239 #=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#=#
240
241 ~~~~~~~~ I Am In lOvE.
242 ~ ~ I wAnt tO tEll YOU All AbOUt hEr.
243 ~ ~ bUt In thE dEEpEr pArts Of mY mInd,
244 ~ ~ I nOtE thE IdIOcY Of thE dEscrIptIOn,
245 ~~ hIgh, In thE ExtrEmE.
246 ~ LEt mE sImplY sAY thAt shE Is wOndErfUl, plEAsE?
247
248
249 I drink alone. Yeah, with nobody else... Strum, strum, da, da, dum...
250
251 WHaT a CLeVeR iDea! He CaPiTaLiZeS aLL HiS VoWeLS!
252
253
254 ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
255 Does anyone know what has happened to the Blue Parrot? It seems to be down for the big one-two-three count.
256
257 Love. what a concept.
258
259 yours:
260 Rhian Marshall
261 98989898989898989898989898989898999899889989889989899899889889889899898998998998
262
263 Kindred souls on a journey towards oblivion is not love. It is blatant fear and failure in the face of the unknown.
264 How pitiful.
265
266 Devils advocate.
267 Piper: In general, you are a <explitive deleted>. However, your last entry about the
268 Keeper was wonderful.
269
270
271
272 I would like to commend the sysop on his use of selective editting on the passage
273 by the AT&T man. If you don't like a word,
274 change it. Don't wipe out the whole message.
275 Peace for now will remain.
276
277 RVM
278
279
280 .......................................................................
281 Betcha the Blue Parrot is on temporary crash mode. I wouldn't worry too
282 much, maybe check back later. Like this evening or next morning.
283 .......................................................................
284 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
285 How right you are... the Parrot was on temporary crash mode, but now
286 all is well. The Parrot is back in the lands of the living. (That'll
287 teach me to try to take a couple of days at the coast.)
288 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
289
290 ---------------------------------------- GREETINGS
291 ---------------------------------------- FROM
292 THE MASTER CONTROL PROGRAM
293 CALL
294 THE GAME GRID BBS
295 ---------------------------------------- A C=64 BBS, but welcoming all
296 computer types. Special SysOps
297 Message Base.
298 Hours 9pm-7am
299 7 days a week
300 (503)281-xxxx
301 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
302 Forget what I said about the Blue Parrot being back. Now, the phone
303 line is completely dead. <Grumble, grumble> Anybody got some pull with
304 PNB?
305 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
306 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
307 Is everybody having problems with the people they love or does it just appear
308 that way? I too am at a rough point in my life, I love one, but she loves
309 another. What am I to do? I've asked myself this many times, and still no
310 answer. If I could I would just leave, that would be best for them, but I
311 am not sure as to how she feels about me. Besides, I do not think I could
312 stand to be away from her forever. She is all I can think about, I dream
313 about her whenever I sleep, I see her face when I'm not sleeping. Is this
314 love? What do I do? Do I fight for her? Do I try to forget about her?
315 No, I've tried that before, won't work. Maybe I should join the army and
316 make a career out of it? So many things I could do, all of them painful.
317 Life was so simple before I met her. I wish I could take her in my arms and
318 make her forget about all else. She knows how I feel yet she doesn't know
319 what I should do, she doesn't want me to leave even though I've told her that
320 if I stay near her my feelings will grow. What do I do?
321
322 ++++++++++++++lovesick+++++++++++++++++++++++++++Darbon+++++++++++++++++++++++++
323
324 ____09/10/86__________________JD 2446684.6312_________20:08:59_PDT_________
325 9898989898989898989898989898989898989898989898989898898998
326
327 What do you do? What any sane person would do. Go shoot the guy she likes then
328 be a big hero type by ostensibly solving the murder. Then give her some flowers,
329 act tough, and voila! She'll fall into your arms. ( Or bed, whichever you feel
330 is more important.) Of course, you might have the trouble of finding a patsy
331 to push the killing off on. I suppose you could find some bum down on Burnside
332 and make him out to be the heavy, but that wouldn't be dramatic. You need
333 gunplay, shooting, death scenes in which your love takes her wounded knight
334 inot her arms and heart and suddenly, passionately, loves him.
335
336 ( this, by the way, is that romantic love that someone else was saying was
337 needless and stupid. I doubt that any relationship could start without passion
338 and excitement.)
339
340 Just a thought.
341 Yours:
342
343 Rhian Marshall.
344
345 Is Backwater turning into a Dear-Abby love forum?
346
347 =+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+=
348 Wonderful, Wonderful,,,,
349
350 We are having a real on rush of kiddies and there so-call "BBS's"
351
352 *************
353 *Triple Five*
354 * Was Here! *
355 *************
356
357 =+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+=
358 .-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.
359 French Toast - I've loved and lost more than once, but all the past nastiness
360 just makes my relationship with my fiance' that much more cherished. What's
361 more, is that this Sunday I'll be the happiest man around, because she's
362 consented to spend the rest of her life with me, and Sunday is the wedding!
363 .-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.finally lucky in love.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.Emu
364 =+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+==+-+=
365 $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
366 'EY! LEFTY! GOT ANY IDEAR IF THEM
367 BIAMI MICE AM GONNA BE HITTIN THE
368 RIVERWAY INN SUNDAY? DID'YA GET
369 THAT ROD YA WAS BLABBIN ABOUT? I'M
370 STILL UP FOR 'JACKING THE PASTEL
371 TWINS IF YOU ARE. WADDA WE GONNA
372 DO WIDDOW THE BIGMAN'S PLACE TO
373 TALK AT? FINGERS
374 $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
375 XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
376 fingers: we might haveta use da phone
377 instead. never could trust dat bigman
378 anhwho. maybe we'll haveta stake out
379 the riverway and see if dose mice guys
380 show their mugs. lefty
381 XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
382
383 Blue Parrot back in operation (for the moment at least). %*#@!$#
384 phone company,
385 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
386 DARBON: IN RE YOUR LAST MSG....
387 "DON'T, IT ONLY ENCOURAGES THEM" (IF YOU WISH TO DISCUSS THE POINT, LEAVE A
388 MSG FOR "FLASH" ON BLUE PARROT.
389 *************************THE PHANTOM OF BACKWATER****************************
390 Where have I heard that before? Nickelodeon?
391 ____09/11/86__________Leonard_JD 2446685.6033_________19:28:55_PDT_________
392 Maybe from Danger Mouse? "Quick Penfold We've got to stop Barron Green
393 Back and Count Duckula from stealing the worlds supply of toilet paper!"
394 DMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDM Danger Mouse DMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDM
395 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
396 You got it dude. green and yellow apts.
397 Now, I've done this, you come alone and we'll see who cries. Good thing
398 I'm in a real bad mood, otherwise I wouldn't have bothered to lower myself
399 to this level, but this is gonna be so much fun. I don't think I'll stop
400 when you're down either. They're gonna have to pick you up with a shovel.
401 Now, if THIS gets deleted I don't know what I'll do....
402 Just got back from the Journey concert, WHAT A SHOW!! My ears are still
403 ringing..... Anybody else out there see it? How about when they did
404 Jailhouse rock? I almost fell off my seat. Kinda took me by suprise.
405 Mike (different Mike): I've stepped up my working out with the chucks,
406 haven't even hit myself in the past week. Still gotta work on the left
407 arm but my right arm is doing fine, you wouldn't believe how quick I'm
408 getting. I'm just waiting for the one time that I DO hit myself, it'll
409 probably end up with a broken arm, oh well, as they say, no pain, no
410 gain. Hmm, maybe I should continue this on a different system, one
411 with E-mail.
412
413 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++Darbon++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++DM: Nope, "You Can't Do That On Television"
414 ____09/12/86__________Leonard_JD 2446686.2477_________10:56:44_PDT_________
415 Crumbs! Eek! Oh ick!!
416 PenfoldPenfoldPenfoldPenfoldPenfold <the great>
417 Shush Penfold, just shush!
418 DMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDM
419 +++++++I'mwaiting++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++Darbon+++++++++++++++++++++++++
420 {+|+} <421> 860912^2009 !
421 PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
422 {+|+} <423> 860913^0102 !
423 ____09/13/86__________________JD 2446687.3935_________14:26:41_PDT_________
424
425 ........... 9-13-86 .......... 7:50pm ............ 00-425-T ..........
426 <<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>>
427
428 --- good evening...11:40:00.00...september 13, 1986 AD...system 1 ---
429
430 MORE BITTERSWEET DREAMS...
431
432 "In Praise of Rainbows"
433
434 I would have taken my fury out on myself
435 in barefoot torment
436 across the soggy leaf mush which squales
437 as Wheaties do when left alone in milk
438 but bites as breakfast cereal never could.
439 My face: two black river
440 map lines, a nowhere topography,
441 a legacy of sudden death. I would have died,
442 but there are painters of promises
443 who paint streaks of color in queer
444 places where masochists hide,
445 drowning in leaves where grey prevails,
446 as if they knew leaves, and grey,
447 as if someone had told them of me.
448
449 "The Conversationalist"
450
451 i meet myself rarely nowadays
452 only in unlit alleys
453 dark street corners or
454 empty backrooms
455
456 it wasn't like this when i was a kid
457 teachers did not question
458 if i talked to the wall
459 cried for no reason or
460 screamed at no one in particular
461
462 and it wasn't like this when i was a wife's husband
463 with three children and a litter of cats
464 when i could sit myself down
465 in a black vinyl chair
466 to talk back to t.v. announcers or
467 radio newscasters
468
469 but now with the boys grown
470 Allison dead
471 and my hair grey and balding
472 i am careful to introduce myself to me
473
474
475 CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM WELCOME, ALTHOUGH THESE POEMS ARE WRITTEN
476 FOR ME, AND I JUST THOUGHT YOU MIGHT LIKE TO SEE THEM.
477
478 LOVE,
479 BITTERSWEET
480
481 <<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>><<<>>>
482 (((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))((( Ripple )))
483 just a quick hello, there are so many I haven't seen or had a chance to
484 hear from in quite a while.
485 (((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))(((*)))((( Ripple )))
486 EGADS! IS THIS THE SAME DISK THAT WAS ON YESTERDAY? TWO DAYS AGO? IS SOMEONE
487 CHANGING DISKS OR EDITING IN REALLY WEIRD PLACES. I MEAN, GADZOOKS, I AM
488 REALLY CONFUSED! BELIEVE YOU ME, THE FABRIC OF BACKWATER'S TIME-SPACE
489 CONTINUUM HAS BEEN TORN. I THINK I'LL HOP IN THE TARDIS AND HEAD FOR ANOTHER
490 DIMENSION WHICH HAS A SEMBLANCE OF CONSISTENCY. GOLLLLLLLLLYY!
491 HK
492
493
494 #=#=#=# Makes me wonder. How many of these people I see on my screen
495 are insane. Just leaves me wondering, that's all. #=#=#=#
496
497 Not insane, merely, schism pestered. /} Jeeves {\
498 \} Of Fei {/
499
500 hi mikey
501
502 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
503 I thought as much, I guess 555 didn't expect me to supply requested info.
504 But wouldn't it be nice if it's just that he hasn't logged back on yet?? I
505 know, this sounds like I live for stuff like this, well, I don't, I'm just
506 sick and tired of what he says and does. But, I'm not planning on moving
507 anytime in the near future so if he wants, he can find me here. Who knows,
508 maybe this little incident will make him shut up forever?? Wouldn't be any
509 great loss to BW. I gotta learn to control my temper better, this is stupid.
510
511 +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++Darbon+++++++++++++++++++++++++++
512 ::::::O O:::::::09/14:::::::::::::voyeur::::::::::::::::::15:10:::::O O:::::::::
513 !''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''!
514 To the lovelorn:
515 Life seems to be not worth living when you have lost your love. Suicide
516 doesn't seem like such a bad idea. It's really easy to do something rash. Pain
517 is simply part of life. No one ever promised that life would be easy or comfortable.
518 However, not all is lost. Grieve. It is good for you. It is the only way that
519 you can start to go on with your life.
520 I would recommend to you a book called "Good Grief". Even though it is geared
521 to those who have lost a loved one through death, the principles therein surely
522 apply to anyone who has "lost" someone.
523
524 What it comes down to is this: life and the world go on. You will, too. You
525 will be enriched by the experience of pain and loss. You will love again.
526
527 That's difficult message to swallow for artists and romantics, but it is true
528 nonetheless. Take it from an artist and romantic!
529
530 !''''''''''''''''''ohne Sorgen'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''!
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533 Sure, but what about when the 'love lost' is, in whole or in part, the World.
534 Life. Living in this place?
535
536 Can you really get into a book? I can. I read for hours on end, shut up in
537 my hovel (<-dramatic words!) like a rat nibbling at cheese, I can soak up the
538 plot and involvment of protagonist and antagonist page after page. And now,
539 after finishing a series of really good works, I find myself haunted by this
540 vivid wish:
541
542 The only world I really would like to live in, is a world much the same as
543 the one reflected in these books.
544
545 In particular, a twon like Sanctuary; like Solmania; like QKrynn. Towns built
546 in an almost-real idea, where men speak with steel and magic rules the day.
547 Where gods are gods and evil always a battle.
548
549 And then, I think, 'Why is this? This is not reachable, this is not reality.
550 Why strive and wring your hands and wonder when you know as sure as anything
551 you have ever known that this will never, can never be.'
552
553 But then I consider what I once thaough I knew. What I once thought was real.
554 Is this, after that reflection, so much fantasy?
555
556 PEN NAME
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559 Voyeur: Have you received my communique concerning our meeting this saturday?
560 If not, hopefully you'll receive it soon. Please call me when you understand
561 and we'll make further arrangements.
562 PEN NAME
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564 PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
565 ::::::::::O O::::::::09/15:::::::::::::::::::::::::00:30:::::::::O O::::::::::::
566 PEN NAME: Since I saw the preceding message, I've called 4 of the 5 other
567 boards I call daily, and I saw no mention of Saturday. So, unless
568 your communique is on rtable/percival, I'm at a loss. Also, your
569 identity is not definitely known to me, and the more likely one has
570 (apparently) already been shot down. Ergo, if I am not going to
571 find what I seek on rtable/percival, you'd best be more explicit.
572 :::::::::::O O::::::::::::::::::::voyeur:::::::::::::::::::::O O:::::::::::::::
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574 Emu: congratulations! i've spoken with another adventurer recently
575 and he's told me a little about the past couple of days. a lucky
576 man you are -- married too. best wishes for V. and thee.
577 &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& the scarlet lion &&&&&&&
578 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
579 Coming Attractions from The Story Teller....
580 A Day in the Life of Lucky-----
581
582 Lucky Jake, the big town private eye meets up with his destiny in
583 life as it walks through his door one day. A story of those
584 hot summer nights in the big city...the ones you've heard so much about
585 but always wanted to know more.
586
587 Stay tuned to this board for the full work which will be presented
588 for your approval shortly.
589
590
591 Agent to the Great.
592
593
594 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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596
597 Stay tuned for an upcoming net story. It's in the works and I expect it to
598 be one of my finest ever. Now if Mikey will just change the disk so I can
599 get some room to put it on.
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603
604 The White Boys next door got a new
605 RUN DMC tape and I have to sit here through 45+ minutes of pure
606 Jiga-Boo brother music. Go back to Botswana
607
608 Rastsus.
609
610
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612
613 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
614 Darbon: Did you get the disks that I left for you at the desk?
615 I told Phillip (Drake???) that you would be stopping
616 by later to get them. There is some neat stuff on them, but I will
617 tell you more later after I am sure you have them.
618 As for me, well yes I did see the new system, but it looks way too
619 expensive for me right now. Maybe when I get that check from
620 you know where. Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and let you
621 know that I do drop in over here every now and then.
622 I have noticed a lot less problems on here lately,
623 Maybe they got the problems ironed (or pounded!!) out.
624 Oh well, I might even try uploading some of that poetry I was working on when we last talked.
625 I try you know!!!
626 I am looking forward to your comments when you get the disks.
627 If Phillip doesn't find them...I'll shoot him!
628
629 Ooops Gee...I guess this is it. Have a good night C U -Jack and Jill
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