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| There Ain't No Justice |
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| #25 |
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- Another Poetry Interlude -
by Caty Eye
Alot of you guys find my poetry depressing, sad, whatever, well it is..
Not much is happy, though I will try to scratch up a couple of the happy
ones too, I know I have a couple laying around here somewhere.. But most
of it is, indeed, depressing.. because, well, because that's just me, and
my style I guess.. who knows.. My poetry is my way of expressing my
feelings of hurt/anger/saddness/depression whatever you would like to call
it.. I easily express my happy feelings, but it is the hurt that always
seems to have trouble spewing out.. If I wasn't so nice and respectful to
others I probably wouldn't have this problem, really.. I always keep
things bottled up inside of me though, I'll take anything you can dish out
to me, but more than likely, I won't dish anything back out to you, I'll
just bottle it up and store it away.. Sucks, eh? Yeah, I know, tell me
about it, I live it.. I'm getting a little better with that though, not a
whole heck of a lot, but a little, it's the way I was raised I guess, I
was never allowed to raise my voice, or protest anything without being
severely punished for it, so I kept quiet all of the time!
Enough of my babble.. here are some poems, these poems have been
accumulated over the years, dealing with very hard and troubling times for
me, this has been my way to make myself feel better.. I think my later
poems are better, because as I've aged, I've matured, and found my own
styles, some better than others.. all of my poems have extreme meaning and
strong feelings behind them, who knows, maybe someone will actually stop
and thinking about something soon following........ Since there are fewer,
we'll do happy poems first.
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My sun is always shining, never does it rain
I have you to thank for that, for playing my game
Not once would you think about, giving up on me
And how much you love me, I can easily see
Friendship brought us together, love might take us apart
The thing that I fear most, if that I will break your heart
I may not show it often, but I love you so much
And my heart beats differently, at your very touch
Should my sunshine fade, or the raindrops fall
Always remember, I will come at your call
You fullfill all of my dreams of hope, love and life
And if we could make it that far, I'd happily be your wife
March 25, 1992 10AM
"My Sunshine"
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A rose is a gentle thing,
just like my heart,
Dare not to break it,
it would tear me apart.
I know what we have,
is only a small start
But my feelings inside,
have just hit me like a dart.
My love is a great thing,
gentle and free,
You've got to earn your rights,
to become a part of me.
But once you've done that,
can't you see,
It would be very painful,
if you set it all free.
So, what do you think,
is it worth a shot,
You have to let me know,
if this means a lot.
And I know what you're thinking,
what a lot of bull,
But if that's how you feel,
then you're the fool.
And with all of this,
I give you my symbol,
A white dove for you,
a gift from me,
My symboly of love,
now do you see?
August 6, 1991
"A Start"
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Always landing on all fours
no matter how hard they fall
no matter how long they drop
always poised and graceful
Always purring, and lurking about
no matter what mood they're in
no matter who is around
always poised and somewhat playful
Always there when someone needs them
no matter where they are or have been
no matter where they're going or have gone
always poised and pretty joyful
July 14, 1992 11PM
"Cats"
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Someone to understand
is all I need
Someone to listen to care
not a big greed
I thought I had this person,
what I thought was wrong
True friends are forever
they're what keep hearts strong
So when you think you've got a catch
you'd better think twice
People can be very tricky
so make sure they're really nice
I never liked to get hurt
but who ever really does
No one care for any extra pain
what life brings is enough
Before you go and gloat
be sure you're really safe
You don't want to sink your own boat
so check for more than just a pretty face
August 27, 1991 10:30PM
"Inside Out"
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"And now, for something a little different...."
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Another day gone at last
Two good friends, away they passed
Another broken heart to mend
Crying out for me, and only me, Jen
Another sticky situation on this day
What can I do, what can I say?
His cries are serious, his cries are silent
But how can I stop his aweful violence
What does he want, what does he need?
All he longs for is to stop his heart bleed
All he needs is an open ear
To let out his feelings on death, his biggest fear
But memories will help him along
They'll help take care of all that's wrong
But nothing at all can take away his pain
He's just lost a sister, to this there's nothing to gain
Nothing can take away his terrible pain, for sure
Because heartbreak, definatly, has no cure
November 11, 1991 9:23PM
"Heartbreak"
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Everynight she sits there alone,
She can think of nothing but herself and you
She sits there alone at heaven's door
Knocking and knocking, finally to enter
Once inside, she looks around
The rooms are so beautiful
Full of excitment and joy
But she finds herself alone
Shouting and screaming, no one answers
No one hears a lonely girls cries of pain
She quiets, calms, searching for a clue
Into a bright she wandered; a key
Trying to put together a puzzle,
A broken puzzle, the center piece missing
After looking at the unfinished puzzle for hours
She came to realize the piece was irreplaceable
The bright room suddenly darkened
Crumbled, torn apart, the puzzle is places back in it's box
Useless, uncared for, never thought of again
This puzzle brought forth only heartache
The search incomplete, like everything else
The lonely girls walks away, alone as entered
I walked through Heavens dorrs worse than before
Looking back, with a tear in my eye
I cried a good-bye to the lonely house of pain
August 31, 1992
"House of Pain"
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A cold and lonely night
No one is around
A lonely girl sits all alone
Arms folded for warmth and security
Head down to hide her tears
At first glance up she searches
Searching for something not in her reach
She quickly gives up hope
Sitting there alone; it starts to rain
The girl lets out a sudden scream
Picking her head up once again
Again, realizing she is alone
She cries out louder and louder
Hoping someone could hear her
As I sat there, alone in the rain
Crying to myself, all I craved
Was the touch of another
Someone's voice to tell me all would be okay
Someone to hold me, and hide the rain
My third glance up was total blackness
A sudden waken from my sleep
Sweating coldly, shaking in fright
I looked around, only to find myself
Alone and scared
August 30, 1992 7:27PM
"Alone and Scared"
That's it for now.. I think that may be too many as it is.. if you guys
want more, I'll do more, if not, I won't, but it's up to you, you have
to read it.. It's no problem to type out.. I have many, many more..
typing this stirred up many feelings and thoughts, I hope it stirred up
something in someone else besides just me!
All of the above poems are original pieces of work by me, and only me!
--Cat Eye
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