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(*) (*) * (*)~*~(*) HOE E'ZINE RELEASE #883
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~ 0 0 ~* *~ 0 hOGS ~ "I Am Laughing At You:
( 0*~*~*0 ( ) 0*~*~ oF ) An Angsty Rant"
~ 0 0 ~ ~ 0 eNTROPY ~ By: Anjee
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cold. a dark world. blank. my head, heart, soul, entire, self.
empty. i want to go to the ball. will you take me? i wish for feelings
that transcend. time and. everything. the blackness takes over!
disposing of all. that means. something. everything (to me).
their stare, sharp and mean dabs away at my brain. it hurts a
little, kind of. i want to remain secret, yet shout it out. it makes me
sad. sad, sad, sad! she has all she needs, but she is sad. silly, girl.
greedy, greedy, greedy little girl! don't take things for granted. never
steal. but then, how will i get what i desire from people unwilling to
provide it for me? silly girl, find the ones who are! silly narrator, you
don't know what the fuck you're talking about. do not swear. i will never
do it again, i swear.
deep. thoughts rushing. mean. entities disturbing. my sleep.
voices, all mine. but i really just have one. souls burning within. the
little hell that resides in my heater. warming my room. waiting for my
turn to stand up and yell obsceneties at the world. a collective FUCK YOU
on the part of all my different selves. releasing my metaphorical penis for
the world to suck.
can you hear what i am thinking? can you sense my rage and
frustration despite the silliness and smiles? can you really say that you
know how i feel? no! i am all that is not you! and you, my precious
little fuckhead, are a liar. how can all that has not been, and will
probably never be, torment me so, my darling asswipe? lead me on & i will
use you until i have emptied every last bit of all you have. i will steal
all that is yours and swear to laugh at you.
i am laughing at you.
can. you. hear. it?
have you gone into hysterics yet,
my sweet dickwad?
i am laughing at you.
heehee.
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( *(c) hOGS oF eNTROPY pRESS* HOE #882 ~ WRITTEN BY: ANJEE ~ 10/23/99 )