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I'm not smart
and i'm not witty
i'm not even funny
sometimes i can be twisted
but that hurts so i try to avoid it.
I'm 18
which is an in between age
i don't know how to be an adult
cause i'm not smart.
i was the youngest child in a family of 6
til my parents had more children.
But lets not think about that
parents can't have children unless they're sprayed with some kind of spores
that induce childrenism or something like that
parents don't have sex. We all know that.
So anyway back to me.
No one really cares do they?
...if i'm not funny
i know i'm not
and i already specified so
it's not really misleading.
So i'm 18
i can be repetitive sometimes.
i chat on IRC
so that explains why i can't syntax sentences properly sometimes.
I'm not clever like people who write for this thingy.
I'm boring
yeah... i figure if i tell everyone whats wrong with me
they'll say hey.. okai at least she's honest.
i feel dead today
but i know i'm not coz my fingers are moving.
I could be a robot. A cyborge i something really big and long and
complicated.
But i'm not.
I do read here's a quote to prove that i read:
"....Now I'd like you to step forward over here. They're not that different
from you, are they? Same haircuts. Full of hormones, just like
you. Invincible, just like you feel. The world is their oyster.
They believe they're destined for great things, just like many of
you, their eyes are full of hope, just like you. Did they wait
until it was too late to make from their lives even one iota of what
they were capable? Because, you see gentlemen, these boys are now
fertilizing daffodils. But if you listen real close, you can hear
them whisper their legacy to you. Go on, lean in. Listen, you hear
it? --- Carpe --- hear it? --- Carpe, carpe diem, seize the day
boys, make your lives extraordinary...."
That's from Dead Poets Society. Robin williams said it. It was movie.
But i read it on the net
so i copied and pasted it.
i thought a carpe was a fish.
Something's wrong with me today.
I think i woke up stupid
either that or i was born that way.
I can't remember.. being born that is.
So anyway... this guy told me to write for this.
i was attracted to him.
But now i'm not
cause u know... yeah that.
He doesn't talk to me.
I think superiority is attractive.
he's clever i'm not...
i like him.
i'm attracted to a lot of people. Specially smart ones.
Sometimes i don't understand them
But that's okay because i'm often misunderstood too
so we have things in common.
But yeah.. i stopped being attracted because i don't like being inferior. It
makes me feel stupid.
Which isn't nice because i'm not that smart to begin with.
I put myself down a lot.
I think it's just my mood.
I didn't want to write for this.. because i'm not funny
and i need people to like me
but a lot of the times the just give me donuts.
There's this girl at my Uni who just looks at me.
I think it's because she doesn't understand me. Or she's gay.
But once i offered her a chip
and she took one.
I was happy
she liked me.
Maybe she just liked the chip. Or she was hungry
so then... i forgot what i was saying
i think i'll start over now
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