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| | "A Vampire's Thoughts" | |
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| | By: Vampire | |
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To me poetry is an expression of the soul. I write poetry to tell how I
feel, what I believe, what I fear, and what I like. In my poetry I express
my thoughts, feelings, and emotions. When I write poetry - I escape. It's
like daydreaming, but it makes it more believable and more real than a dream.
This probably sounds nuts, but it keeps me sane. When this world gets to be
too much, I just pretend I'm somewhere else, with someone else.. happier...
better. Someone can learn a lot about me just by reading my poetry... and
that's why I like to write it.
Crystal Wine Glass
------------------
i sit at a table
with a crystal wine glass
filled to the brim with red
i stare at the glass
and see all my pain
and with one drink
it would all be gone
i can drink
from the crystal wine glass
filled to the brim with red
and end my problems
and my pain
i can stop the rain
the stinging rain
from falling
if only for awhile
i place
the crystal wine glass
filled to the brim with red
against my lips
and i can taste
the smooth liquid
and the desire grows
i tilt my head back
and with it the glass
and i drink away my agony
i stare
at the crystal wine glass
no longer
filled to the brim with blood
and nothing changes
it only gets worse
i drink to forget
but it makes me remember
what i am
i pick up
the crystal wine glass
no longer
filled to the brim with blood
and smash it against the wall
things will never change
things can never change
it's a never ending cycle
if sleeping and feeding
my pain
my sorrow
my problems
will never end
and they follow me
throughout the years
so i drink blood
out of necessity
and desire
and as the glass shattered
so does my hope
hope for a cure
hope for a change
so i continue to feed
i continue to hate
i continue to "live"
and hope
to die
They
----
They lie
They conspire
They cover-up the truth
They hide the facts
They call it classified
They deny it ever happened
They watch us
They control us
They control what we see
They control what we know
They can not be truted
They are the government
Alone
-----
I walk the streets at night, alone
Looking for my prey
Soon I will take flight
Crossing the sky at night
So alone
I have longed to find a love
For all of the hundreds of years
That this creature has prowled the night
But now I long for blood
I see a victim
Way down there
I can smell the blood in the air
And in a breath
I taste it on my lips
Now dyed red
Will someone help me esca from my hell?
Who would love a creature of the night?
If I had the strength
I would hold a cross up high
And watch the sun rise
But I am weak and can not do it
Oh how I have longed to be mortal again
They offered the gift of immortality
But they never said at what price
There is a lonely sole
Walking all alone
But there is something about him
What is it?
I can't anymore!
Can someone fall in love in a glimpse?
Can I fall in love?
A creature without a sole
Alive but dead
I want a normal life
The life I never had a chance to have
To go out at day
And have fun at night
What a cursed life I live
But what to do about him?
Should I approach him?
Can I resist the desire for his blood
And instead fall in love?
I approach him and try to talk
Try to make sense
All I can managesay is "hi"
I mumble to myself "he will not die"
The urges in me are so strong
But if I am to escape
From my endless night
I must fight
I'm about to walk away
When he asks me to stay
Could it be
That he can see
Deep inside
Where the love hides?
We talk for awhile
And I wonder if
I should tell him
About my curse
What would he say?
What would he do?
He asks if he can see me in the morn'
I tell him I hide from the sunlight
I live in the night
When the darkness outside
Matches the darkness in my heart
He seems confused
But agrees to make it night
And when he leaves I take flight
Still hungry
But with hope
What will happen?
No one knows
But in the end
He will die
And I again will be alone
Forever to fly
Through the night sky
Forever to feed
Forever indeed
Maybe someone will kill me
Or maybe I'll have the strength
Or maybe I'll remain alone
Forever alone
So alone
Alone
China Doll
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A China Doll
So precious
Valuable
Delicate
And frail
So much care
Put into them
And how fragile
They are
So easy to crack
I am
A China Doll
Fragile
And frail
And ready
To break
I can't take
All the pressure
All the pain
All the rain
All the hate
All the indifference
All the problems
Of the world
All the problems
That I have
That I keep
Inside
So dark and deep
So they hide
From the light
The hurt
This China Doll
They hurt her a lot
The China Doll
A scared
Little girl
With all the problems
Of the world
In her heart
In her mind
So much pain
So many problems
So much
Too much
And the China Doll
Is ready
To break
Escape
------
Hold me in your arms
And never let me go
Let me escape
Into your arms
Escape from what
You've asked before
I don't know
Everything
From my family problems
The very many problems
From the pressures
And the pain
I know I can't escape forever
But just for awhile
Escape from judgmental people
Escape from hateful people
Escape from everything
And everyone
Except you
Escape into your arms
And your sweet charm
And your flattering ways
For at least
A couple of days
Let me escape
Don't ask me why
Or from whom
Or what
Just hold me tight
And taay the fright
Of the world
Hold me and let me escape
That's all I ask
That's all i want
That's all I need
Just hold me in your arms
And never let me go
Let me escape
Into your arms
You can help me
You can hold me
Only you
Can keep me safe
From harm
Only you
Can help me
Escape
Paradox
-------
U
L Love
T Hate
R Power
A Fear
Light
V Darkness
E Truth
R Lies
T Good
I Evil
C Birth
A Death
L Life
A
Never
Ending
Cycle
Of
Paradoxes
Reality
-------
What is reality?
Is this reality?
Or are we all characters
in this, a crazy play
written by someone unknown
Or are we just pawns
in a never-ending game
the player - a mystery
Or maybe we are dreamers
in someone else's dreams
the dreamer - above and beyond
Or is what we see what we get
and this is our reality - our hell
which has been created by us
Red Desire
----------
I hide
in the shadows
in the cover
of the night
out of sight
of all unfortunates
who may wander by
I prowl the night
the land
and the sky
no one is safe
from my savage thirst
my desire
my need
for blood
the sweet
bitter
undescribable
taste
dangerous
and satisfying
and how I desire it
the smell
in the air
the taste
on my lips
dyed red
red lips
on a pale face
with dark hair
glowing eyes
and dark clothes
i live in the night
surrounded by black
black sky
black heart
black soul
black desire
black life
red lips
my life is
black life
red lips
my life is
black and red
alive and dead
never to die again
never to rest
always to feed
and hunt
my prey
never to be seen
during the day
how black is my life
the red, burning desire
for the red, thick blood
my savage thirst
will never be satisfied
the burning flames
of a powerful desire
will never be quenched
so i prowl
the night
for all eternity
for the undescribable
unbelievable high
from the taste
of blood
Till Then My Sweet
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Till death
Till life
Till whenever we meet again
Whenever that may be
Whatever year
Whatever time
Whatever life
You may be living
Till then
My sweet
Take care
And take my love
With you there
Why?
----
you put the gun to your head
pulled the trigger
now you're dead
there's a bullet in your brain
you've ended all your pain
you never cared
you never thought
of the people you'd leave behind
you took the easy way out
you didn't even try
i won't shed a tear
i will not cry
you took away your pain
and dropped it all on me
why did you do it?
i'll never know why
and yes,
I did cry.
Out There
---------
There's gotta be
Someplace
Somewhere
Better than this
There's gotta be
Something
Out there
And i don't want to miss
It if there are
Human beings
So ignorant
Arrogant
Conceited and
Confused
With so many problems
We don't know what to do
So many filled with so much need
Others kill out of greed
On some distant planet
On some distant star
Oh so far
Away
And yet, so close
Do you suppose
It could all be true?
And if it was...
What would you do?
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