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Constant
derating, degrading, berating
Highs and louds
stuck sounds in my mind
nightmare music
thoughts that scare, ablate
constant wishes of nothing
wishes that everything wasn't something
that I wasn't the witness
to many years, many
it's reintroduced through the heart
the heart is an open wound
susceptible to infection
making you unbearable, not yourself
killing every part of you
till you're almost dead inside
till everything affects
and nothing affects all at the same time
till you're left wondering
if all of this is worth it
if you should be here
--
you're brought back out
but only on the surface
you're trapped in a comforting darkness inside
never wishing to come out
until you're forced out
and the hurt repeats