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There have been well over a dozen instances in my life when I started keeping a diary (occasionally digitalĀ¹, but more often, analog). Iād write entries regularly (maybe even daily), sometimes for over a year. But always, eventually, Iāve abandoned the project.
Recently Iāve had a change of heart. I realize now that my shelf of half-filled journals doesnāt represent multiple abandoned projects ā it is a single project. Sometimes I keep a journal, sometimes I donāt, and thatās just fine.
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Perhaps related to this, Iāve drastically reduced my participation in and consumption of social media over the last several months. I did this to help with my mood, and itās been an unequivocal net good, but there have been drawbacks. Between the isolating nature of parenthood in this culture, and the continued Covid pandemicĀ² I feel lonelier without my parasocial infinite scroll. For now, Iām choosing to believe that even this is for the best; itās like Iāve cut back on empty calories and now I feel hungrier. But I need to find a healthy alternative soon, and Iām not sure where to look.
I wrote the above before I saw the post by Drew DeVaultĀ³ about losing interest in Gemini, or the ripples it has already started sending around Geminispace. Maybe the same impulse that took me off Twitter, and got me to finally deactivate Facebook, is chasing some people off of Gemini? Itās hard to say ā I feel like all the cool Gemini users ditched those platforms ages ago.
Maybe weāre all chasing something that internet-mediated communities canāt give us.
Maybe weāre all sad and angry about how the past two years have played out, and anxious about what that means about the next two.
Maybe itās just me.
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[1] I wrote about a previous bout using Diaryland.
[2] Not to mention the well-documented synergy between these ā the baby is still unvaccinated and thereās no telling when a vaccine will become available.