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My dream and my fears

I said on my index page that I love low-techs. My dream is to be able to live fully and freely, unlike many people who want to have as much money as they can for this. I want to spend as little as possible and live a life as simple as possible.

I would love living in a cabin in the woods, I think... I don't know, for the last few months I am in a lot of incertitude. I don't know anything anymore and I feel weak, I don't know where to start and many people around me tell me my dream is either selfish or impossible.

But I really feel like it's possible and I cannot imagine myself living a "normal life".

I wished I could set some kind of objective here, but I really don't know. As said in a text called "How to drop out", it's a process and there is no destination, it's an always ongoing process. My "achievements" so far is that I don't consume anything that's unecessary or at least almost nothing. But I don't know how to reduce, DIY and optimize other things such as housing, food, etc. It didn't seem that hard a few years or months ago. I don't know what hitted me but now it seems simply impossible.

My "goal" and dream is to be able to not worry about money, not because I have a lot of it, but because my lifestyle is simple enough so it's simply not an issue. That way I could spend more time doing the things I want to do, for instance: writing and sharing stuff online :P

I might update this post or make new ones because this is something that is turning in my head all over again for the past year and it really makes me worried, anxious, angry and sad.