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She had no reason to go on. Maybe that's why, at around 4 PM on a Saturday night, she was on the top floor of a parking garage, looking over the railing at the city below. So many pretty cars. So many pretty buildings. So many little people, going about their lives below. Such a shame it would all be tainted soon. It had to be around a 50 foot drop from the top of the parking garage to the hard concrete below. Amy didn't bother counting floors as she went up, but 5 stories seemed about right for this parking garage. This would certainly kill anybody; Amy wasn't even sure Shadow would survive a fall from this height. However, before she jumped, something possessed her to call Zero. He might as well be clued in, right? After all, somebody's gonna have to call the EMTs to scrape her off of the pavement. She pulled out her communicator and picked his contact, he picked up on the 2nd ring. "Hi, Amy." He noticed the distinct lack of brightness in her eyes. "...Is everything okay?" Amy smiled, a wicked smile Zero had only seen her smile a few times. "Oh, Zero, nothing is okay with me these days. But, very soon, everything will be peaceful." She looked over to the railing (though he couldn't see it anyways, it was out of frame). Zero seemed a little... unsettled? "Amy, where are you?" She looked around. "At the top of some parking garage in the city. It's not important." She picked up the communicator, walking over to the ledge to show Zero the drop. "Right now, I'm up here, all alone. Soon, I'll be down there, without a care in the world." Zero was mortified. "Amy, you can't be serious! You're just going to throw away your life like that-" Amy stopped him. "I don't have anything to live for. My Sonic hates me, nobody loves me-" "Amy, you've literally only tried things with Sonic. You don't know if there's somebody else out there-" "Why should I bother?" She was full-on crying now. "Why should I suffer through life to **maybe** find love, when I can get the sweet release of death just over that railing?" "Because suicide causes more problems than it solves. If you think my immediate first thought after being freed *wasn't* to go find the tallest building I could and jump off of it, you'd be dead wrong." He cringed at his poor choice of words. "But then I realized that I'd leave my friends in grief. Gadget would've been sad, plenty of people would've been sad; and I was the villain for Chaos' sake! Can you imagine if you, Amy Rose, widely renowned Resistance leader, died? Can you imagine how many people that would affect?" "It wouldn't matter to me," Amy said flatly through her tears. "I'd be dead with no brain to worry about it." "But what about everybody you leave behind? They're still here. They're still alive." "And they all hate me." "Wha- They don't all hate you! Only Sonic does-" "-and it's only a matter of time before he convinces everybody else to hate me too. I can't live like this." "...Amy, you don't have to do this-" "YES I DO! There's no reason for me to continue on with this *illusion* of a life. My entire goal was to get Sonic to love me, but it wasn't until **you** entered the picture that it went the other way! I **hate** you!" "I'm sorry, how is any of this **my** fault? I **told** you it might go south, I-" "Yeah, you told me it might go south, **after** I had already chosen it! How was I supposed to-" "THIS IS HOW THINGS PLAY OUT! Messing with somebody's feelings, you're going to get burned occasionally. If you pick up your head and try again-" "But why should I bother? Nobody loves me, they're all going to hate me after Sonic tells them-" "WOULD YOU STOP WAFFLING ABOUT SONIC?! Oh well, you lost him, boo hoo. You can try again. I'll help you find someone to try again-" "But I don't **want** to try again! I *failed*. Now, I just want to *die*." "Amy, no, you don't need to do this. Things can work out, you can move away to somewhere where people don't know your name-" "-and then my past will follow me. Sonic's a *world*-renowned hero, Zero. People **all over the world** will know how badly I messed up." "So we'll get you a fake name! Please, Amy, don't do this." Amy was silent for a second, and Zero could see her eyes go blank. She walked towards the ledge and spoke with a finality in her voice. "Goodbye, Zero." "Amy, please, don't do this. Think of your friends. Think of everybody you're leaving behind-" "I said, *goodbye*." She gripped the railing and threw herself over it, pausing to stand on the other side of the railing. Then, she let go, finally feeling at peace.