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A "Today" aNAda #14 A
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A by Star 02/16/00 A
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Today I'm different. Today I'm someone else. I feel cold deep down inside
myself. And almost as if my flesh is ready to walk right off of my bones.
And I can't even recognize the scarred face in the mirror anymore. And
today I think I am leaving this all behind. Today I am just tired...Tired
of living this way.
It pierced the skin and I felt pain as I never have before. I stared at the
stranger in the mirror watching the mascara run down her cheeks making her
tears seem black. I wondered who she was. And where she had come from.
Because I had never seen her until today.
The blood was warm and made no sound as it trickled on to the floor. I was
amazed at how little I cared about the pain. How it seemed almost like I
was numb.
I thought I remembered reaching for something at that moment. Whether it
was to make the pain go away or make myself hurt more. But I started to
drift away. And I remembered how I tried to live. And I tried to be free
and smile.
And I never thought I would end up this way. But it was different
somehow...... today.
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