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# Hack club hah hah whoops i never actually finished that last post. actually, it was because my laptop has this issue where, if it's on battery power, it'll sometimes just lose power for a second. which means i gotta reboot the whole system. so that's why there's like two paragraphs of phlog there. but, then again, is that really a bad thing? Brevity is important. And good. And such. So, last night somehow, I just kinda wandered into a Mastodon CTF hack team. What's a CTF hack team? I dunno, lol. No, it's basically professional white-hat hacking challenges. Here's a bunch of problems, see if you can crack them open and reveal the goodies. There's, naturally, a whole spectrum from beginners (like honestly most of this Mastodon team) and literal professionals who do this stuff for a living. Anywho, I got to chatting with some of the people on that server on a Matrix server. 1.) Matrix is cool actually. And 2.) these people are cool really. graaaaanted i'm saying that because i could just infodump a little about stuff i'm working on there with people who *got it*. but even besides that, they genuinely seem like good, chill people. I like meeting new people. I'm just usually really bad at it. :p Besides that, I've been kinda getting myself into a little bit of a rutty routine. From about 10-6 I do, ya know, *my job*. Like I'm supposed to be doing right now. ...yeah. And then after that it's like, "well cool, i just have free time. literally what do i do with this." I'm still really internally used to, I guess, either having mountains of studying and homework to do, or just being so broken and exhausted that i just kinda collapse the moment i get in the door. That's not happening anymore, really. Granted I won't say I'm a constant productivity machine, but eff it, I'm comfy, I'm hitting deadlines. Who cares. Universty has kinda unfortunately ingrained in me that my 100% is not enough. I absolutely MUST run on all cylinders 24/7 if i just want to keep my head above water, never mind actually do *well*. Granted, yes, I do have a giant deck of cards stacked against me just due to situational happenstance. But still. I'm honestly surprised at how absolutely forgiving people at workplaces tend to be. Like, they get it if you're taking time with something, or if you need to take the occasional day off. I dunno. Maybe I just hit the jackpot with my employment situation. I genuinely keep forgetting I'm still an undergrad. I feel so distant from that hellish life, and I never want to return. But I must. Ugh. ...so yeah, snapping back to the present, I have a surprising amount of time on my hands and energy to do things. My old habit of just browsing social media isn't fufilling enough for the time I have. So, dare I fucking say it, I've been doing stuff again! I'm slooowly getting back into doodling. I've tried... okay for like one day but I've *attmepted* to start learning ASL. I'm not gonna overwork myself. But, like, heck. Turns out I'm much happier when I'm not horribly overworked. Who would have thunk.... Thing is, I don't really have a goal or a hobby in mind. I kinda want one. Preferably one that doesn't involve computers so heavily. That's my job. I want to experience the other parts of life, you know? I was totally gonna buy a houseplant a few months ago, but you know, pandemic. i guess the whole meandering point of this is that oh my god can we just as a society tread our college students with a *little* bit of dignity? i sound like i'm whining but honestly. it's so stressful being broke and lgbt and first- gen and just floundering about in university. tired of it. i just want a stable living situation with people that i truly and deeply love. tired of living out of boxes all the damn time. k that wasn't the point. i just really like venting. that's like most of the phlog posts here. :p