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I'm doing really well, personally, but this week has been really rough on people around me. One friend is getting a divorce, another is seemingly on her way to one (slowly, like two oil tankers about to crash), and there's been a lot of drama at work. The slow build-up of empathetic sadness is taking its toll, and today I very much need to /not/, you know?
I'm trying my best to be positive and supportive, but something funky is in the air.
I've been banging on the NES game pretty regularly this week. Mostly learning how to display sprites, change color palettes, that sort of thing. Scaffolding necessary to make a game. I've been enjoying it, but today I'm flat out of spoons and am probably going to veg out for the night. Play some games, read a book, just soak up some "me" time and give myself space to process and recharge.
Sometimes you don't immediately see the effects of your actions, and I feel like being there for my friends and coworkers is one of those things. They're still in some pretty nasty places, but hopefully I've had some small part in lifting them up. Hopefully they'll find their way out of what I'm gonna pejoratively refer to as "Shit Forest," the place in your mind that reminds me of the forest in The Legend of Zelda where you get lost until you happen into the right combination of up, left, down, and right to escape.
There's always an exit to Shit Forest, even if it doesn't seem like it. Eventually you find your way out -- but most importantly, you've gotta keep trying to find your way. I've been there. Shit Forest sucks.
Here's to hoping that all the folks currently lost in Shit Forest find their way out.
Anyway, it's time to take care of myself so that, hopefully, I can keep being there for those I love.
Until next time, be well.
kvothe.