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McDermott?s Guide to the Depressant Drugs

(c) Peter McDermott, 1993
(c) Lifeline Project, 1993

This guide was first published by Lifeline Project, Manchester, UK.
This electronic version may be freely distributed electronically or as
hard copy. However, be warned that you are missing out on Mike 
Linnell?s brilliant illustrations.



Introduction

Since the emergence of the rave scene, drugs agencies have been falling 
over themselves to court the hip young Ecstasy, Acid and Speed user, thus 
neglecting a major staple of good problem drug users everywhere ? the 
depressants.

Once again, sixties drug trends are repeating itself, as danced-out 
paranoid psychotics begin turning to those old favourites, the opiates, the 
benzodiazapines and the barbiturates in an attempt to unwind after a period 
of manic drug use, while on housing estates all over the north west, the 
true afficionado of quality intoxicants keeps the faith with a tenner bag 
of brown or a fist full of jellies.

Without further ado then, for the sake of those suffering from pain, 
anxiety or insomnia, let us take a trip down memory lane and try to 
discover what effects the various types of depressant drugs might have.


Opiates

Opiates is a term used to refer to any drug with an opium-like action, 
whether they be derived from the opium poppy, like morphine, or synthetic 
drugs made in a chemist?s laboratory. 

All opiate drugs have similar effects. At low doses they relieve pain and 
anxiety, and if the dose is increased, they produce a sedative effect ? a 
good nod. 

Opiates also give us the classical model of addiction. Used regularly, they 
produce tolerance ? a need to continue increasing the dose in order to get 
the same effect, and stopping after repeated use produces withdrawal 
symptoms ? physical discomfort and a mental craving for the drug. 

Commonly available opiates include:

Heroin (Diamorphine Hydrochloride) ? This is the daddy of all 
opiates, highly prized among opiate users because the drug has the minimum 
undesirable side effects and a far superior euphoric potential to other 
opiates. Heroin comes in several different forms.

Pharmaceutical heroin ? A staple of the British drug scene in the days 
when Britain?s heroin scene was limited to a couple of hundred whinging 
middle-class junkies who all lived in the toilets at Piccadilly Circus ? 
this is now a rare, but increasingly available treat. During the sixties, 
it was available either as a white powder (from pharmacy and hospital 
thefts) and in ?jacks?, 10 mg tablets made specifically for injection. The 
form that is most often spotted today is the ?dry amp?, an injectable 
preparation that can occasionally be bought in 10 mg, 60 mg, and the highly 
sought after 100 mg ampoules. These are the drug equivalent of the holy 
grail for serious opiate users, but you need to be very careful. If you 
shot one of those up thinking that it was probably about as strong as a 
methadone ampoule, you could end up seriously dead. 

Far Eastern Heroin ? As the number of users increased and the law was 
changed so that heroin was only available from special drug clinics at the 
end of the 1960?s, the market in prescribed heroin began to dry up. The 
demand for heroin was partly met by the newly-imported ?Chinese? heroin. 
This came in one of two types, and sometimes had brand names that the drug 
had been given by the producers. Pink Elephant, Tiger and Rice Brand were 
all very popular on Gerard Street during the early seventies. 

This heroin is also graded by number. Number 3 is a pinkish-greyish 
granular substance that resembles instant coffee. Although produced for 
smoking, it dissolves for injection when heated. Number 4 is a pure white 
powder that closely resembles pharmaceutical heroin. This form is produced 
for injection and the powder dissolves instantly on contact with cold 
water. Although this is still available in many parts of the world, these 
forms are rarely seen in Britain today. Most of the available heroin on the 
black market is

Middle/Near Eastern Heroin ? This is the ubiquitous ?brown?, that 
dominates both British and Dutch heroin markets. In fact, this stuff isn?t 
actually heroin at all. True heroin is Diamorphine Hydrochloride ? a 
hydrochloride salt. The brown that is sold in the U.K. is Diamorphine base. 
Just as Crack is the free base of Cocaine, i.e., Cocaine that has been 
prepared for smoking by removing the hydrochloride part, so the brown 
heroin is a smokable product that is not soluble in water like real heroin, 
but must be dissolved in some form of acid before it can be injected. 
Dirty, smelly, messy stuff, that is a far inferior product to all of the 
above. So who wants to throw in for a bag?

In Britain?s big cities, heroin currently dominates the market in opium-
derived opiate drugs. From time to time, ?fancies? like raw opium or 
morphine ampoules appear, but always in limited quantities. In relation top 
other opiates, heroin is more efficient than morphine, and morphine is more 
efficient than opium, but once they get inside your body, they are all 
converted to morphine anyway, so the effects are much the same. The only 
place that any distinction can be discerned is in the rush, if the drug is 
injected intravenously. Morphine and opium may produce more nausea, or more 
itching, but they all do much the same thing.

Heroin is usually taken in one of two ways ? it is either injected or 
smoked. Smoking is by far the safest way of using as injecting makes you 
much more liable to the risks of infection or overdose. The risk of 
overdose is further amplified if the heroin is mixed with cocaine. Although 
the two drugs might seem to cancel each other out, in fact, they appear to 
potentiate each other, so the sum is greater than it?s parts, so if you are 
used to heroin and you do try a speedball, make certain that you use less 
heroin than you normally would. 

Though heroin dominates the market for opiates, the price is expensive. 
After all, the mafia have to pay for those stretch limosines somehow, and 
how else is your dealer going to afford a BMW and a cocaine habit if there 
isn?t an enormous profit on the gear? 


Methadone

To cater for those of us seeking to starve the dealers, a newer product is 
becoming more widely available. Methadone was originally developed by the 
Nazi?s during World War II. When the supply of opium was cut off, Nazi 
smackheads like Goering wanted to avoid the possibility of withdrawal, so 
he instructed the German drug companies to produce a wholly synthetic 
opiate that didn?t need to rely on the poppy. With typical Teutonic 
efficiency, the chemists came up with a drug that not only worked, but also 
lasted a long time. As a result, Methadone has become the drug of choice 
for doctors who are trying to help users manage their opiate dependency. 
Heroin wears off after a couple of hours, thus requiring several hits each 
day. Methadone, on the other hand, lasts anywhere between 24 and 72 hours, 
depending on the dose that you take and on your individual metabolism.

Methadone comes in several forms ? 10mg ampoules, 5 mg tablets, Methadone 
Linctus ? 1 mg in 2.5 ml or Methadone Mixture DTF ? 1 mg in 1 ml. Again, 
very rarely somebody will break into a chemist and pharmaceutical methadone 
powder will come onto the market. This stuff is very, very strong, so if 
you ever happen to come across it, be extremely careful how much you use, 
especially if you are only used to street smack.

Many users claim that the problem with methadone is that it lacks heroin?s 
intensity. It doesn?t give you the same rush when injected and many users 
believe that the high is inferior compared to heroin. How much of this 
resistance to methadone is psychological is unclear. Many users become 
obsessed with the rituals of drug use ? cooking up a hit, or rolling a bead 
around the foil. 

In blind trials, users who were given both drugs orally were unable to 
distinguish between the effects of the two drugs. Where heroin does have a 
real advantage over methadone is in withdrawal. Withdrawal from heroin 
should be over after seven to ten days. Withdrawal from methadone though, 
can take up to a month or even longer.

Any discussion of the properties of Methadone must also be an appropriate 
place to warn of the dangers of Cyclazine. In an attempt to replicate the 
effects of a now almost defunct drug called Diconal, desperadoes of the 
drug scene have been known to mix certain travel sickness pills with 
methadone ampoules before injecting them in an attempt to produce a 
Diconal-like rush. In fact, the use of this combination just produces self-
destructive Martians whom all right-thinking junkies shun because of their 
tendency towards compulsive and chaotic behaviour. In the past, I have 
watched many a time-served junkie who after managing to keep it together 
for many years, eventually fell to pieces after discovering Cyclazine. 
Hopefully, as the Diconal experience retreats further and further back into 
the annals of folk memory, fewer people will experiment with this 
combination, but until then, I can only make one recommendation with regard 
to this substance ? avoid it like HIV (or the plague.)


The best of the rest

There are a whole bunch of other weird and wonderful opiates in the British 
National Formulary, some of them organic, others totally synthetic. If you 
are serious about pursuing a career as an opiate user, the chances are you 
will come across them all at some point or another. Here are some of the 
more common ones.

Diconal ? If pharmaceutical heroin is holy grail of opiates, then Diconal 
is the Lost Ark of the Covenant.  For everybody who tried them, Diconal 
immediately became the drug of choice. Diconal is a drug cocktail with the 
most amazing rush known to man. Unfortunately, in accordance with the great 
cosmic law of nish for nish, it also happens to be one of the most 
destructive forces known to man. The drug comes in pink tablets that are 
made from silicon rather than the more benign chalk base. After a couple of 
hits, your veins become filled with sand and get as hard as glass. Keep on 
injecting and you end up with abcesses and ulcers at best, and amputated 
limbs if you are unlucky. Thankfully for us all, creative intervention on 
the part of the ACMD meant that doctors needed a special license to 
prescribe Diconal to addicts now means that Diconal are currently as rare 
as hens? teeth.

Palfium ? Because it is a strong drug, Palfium has it?s fans, but 
personally, I?ve never been among them. This drug is known primarily for 
two things ? dirty hits and overdoses. For some reason, Palfium seems to be 
very unpredictable. You can use say four tablets one day, then, the 
following day you just try three and end up having blue and slumped against 
a wall.  Thumbs down.

MST Continuous ? If you do like to take tablets then these are the 
business. MST?s are Morphine Sulphate Tablets produced in a time release 
format. These will keep withdrawals at bay for many a long hour, due to the 
way that the tablet is manufactured. The particles of drug are enveloped in 
wax particles of different sizes and densities, so the drug is continuously 
released over a 12 hour period. This production process makes the tablets 
difficult to inject as there is no apparent way to seperate the morphine 
from the wax. Do you really want to shoot half a Latin Mass up your arm?

DF118?s, Di-Hydro Codeine ? DHC?s are popular with people who have a 
small habit and are looking to withdraw. If you fall into this category, 
then DHC?s are ideal. However, iof you plan to use them long term, there 
are serious drawbacks. Due to the effect that opiates have upon gut 
motility (your ability to shit), the combination of opiates and chalk in 
DHC can make you extremely constipated. If you are being maintained or you 
have a large habit, think seriously about changing to methadone. Chronic 
constipation can be a serious health risk, as well as depriving you of one 
of the greatest pleasures in every junkie?s life ? discussing the state of 
one?s bowels.

Temgesic ? in places like Scotland where the heroin supply is erratic, 
there is a greater reliance upon various pills. Temgesic grew in popularity 
because for a while, the medical profession thought that they had little 
potential for misuse. In fact, because they were designed to dissolve by 
being placed under the tongue, it was discovered that they were quite a 
reasonable tablet to inject as they were not laden with chalk. 

The strange thing about Temgesic is that they are an opiate antagonist. 
This means that if you?ve got a smack habit and you do some Temgesic, 
you?ll end up in withdrawal. On the other hand, if you don?t have a habit 
at all, they have an opiate like effect. They have become popular with 
injectors who lack access to ?real? injectable opiates in places like The 
Outer Hebrides.


Barbiturates

During the seventies, the ?barb freak? was probably the most regular punter 
at street drugs agencies like Lifeline. This was because they tended to be 
those drug users who were least able to take care of themselves.  Even the 
most desperate bagheads look down upon barb freaks because of the mess that 
they invariably get themselves into.

Barbiturates are a sedative drug. Normally prescribed to induce sleep, 
their use is now almost completely discontinued for this purpose, though 
milder variants such as phenobarbitone may still be used to manage 
epilepsy. Nevertheless, Barbiturates occasionally turn up from time to 
time, usually as

Sodium Amytal - most frequently as a bright blue capsule that contains 
60 mg of the drug.

Seconal ? 50 mg orange capsules, and finally

Tuinal - which are a cocktail of 50 mg of Amytal and 50 mg of Seconal 
which, unsurprisingly perhaps, come in a capsule that is half Amytal blue, 
half Seconal orange. Whoever was responsible for the design of these 
capsules certainly had a flair for marketing substances to junkies and 
hypochondriacs.

The first thing to get clear about barbiturates is that these things are 
dangerous. I don?t mean ?Heroin screws you up? dangerous, I mean seriously 
fucked-up style dangerous. Is that clear enough for you? During the 
seventies, around ? people died every year as a result of barbiturate 
poisoning. Many of those deaths were people who just took the drug to 
sleep. 

The pattern usually went like this. Have a few scoops to help you get your 
head down. Then, drop a couple of nembies and pour yourself another drink 
while you wait for the drug to take effect. After a while, you don?t 
remember whether you took the caps or not, so you?d better take a couple 
more to be on the safe side. They?d find your body in the morning. If you 
hadn?t choked on your own vomit, your breathing had slowed down 
progressively until it stopped. 

Like opiates, barbiturates are addictive, only more so. Taken to help you 
sleep, after a few days, it becomes impossible to sleep without them. Like 
the opiates, barbituates produce tolerance so that you need to keep upping 
the dose to get the same effect, but the real hum-dinger is the withdrawal 
syndrome. If withdrawal from opiates is cold turkey, then withdrawal from 
barbiturates could be cold raven. Besides the craving, discomfort and 
inability to sleep, barbiturate withdrawal also causes major epileptic 
seizures. Nobody dies from opiate withdrawal, but it is a strong 
possibility with barbiturates and you should only think about it under the 
supervision of a doctor, preferably as a hospital in-patient.

The possibility of overdose is amplified greatly if barbs are injected into 
a vein rather than taken orally. By and large, it is usually only those 
people who have had their switches set to automatic self-destruct mode who 
use barbiturates because the drug isn?t at all pleasant or enjoyable. Barbs 
lack the euphoric content of opiates and the social lubricant properties 
associated with alcohol. They simply produce a dark, blank oblivion and as 
such will always remain popular with those people who hate themselves or 
their lives so much that their behaviour is governed by a compulsion to 
obliterate all possibility of thought and self-examination. Do yourself a 
favour. Just say no.


Benzodiazapines

When it became clear that large numbers of people died each year simply as 
a result of trying to cure insomnia, the drug companies spent a vast amount 
of money in an attempt to discover a replacement for the barbiturates. 
Eventually, the pharmaceutical industry came up with the Benzodiazpines. 
Eureka! No side-effects, they said. Non-addictive, they said. Safe, they 
said. Unlikely to be misused, they said. Loads of money, they said. (Much 
more quietly, to stockholders, in boardrooms.)

Like opiates and snake oil before them, Benzodiazapines were marketed as 
being good for whatever ails you ? the original mothers little helper. If 
you go to the doctor and tell him that you?ve lost your job, your wife had 
left you, your dog has died and your next door neighbour keeps giving you 
funny looks, the chances are, that he?ll write you a prescription for 
benzodiazapines. Well, five or six years ago, he would. At the moment, 
doctors and the drug companies are being sued by thousands of people who 
allege that they have suffered from the side effects of benzodiazapines, so 
now they think twice about it. Then write the prescription.

They tend to be divided into two major types. Some are used as hypnotics or 
sedatives, drugs that are used to induce sleep in insomnia. Benzodiazapines 
in this category include

Nitrazepam ? Nitrazepam are a long-acting benzodiazapine hypnotic. Before 
doctors were forced to prescribe the generic equivalent of a drug, 
Nitrazepam were possibly the most commonly used sleeper in the U.K. Sold as 
?Mogadon?, they were the sleeping tablet with the smiley face. In recent 
years, their popularity seems to have been massively outstripped by the 
shorter acting benzodiazapine hypnotics, the most popular being

Temazepam ?  Also known as eggs, jellies, temazzies, norries, rugby balls 
and a host of other pseudonyms, Temazepam seem to be the drug of choice for 
the treatment of insomnia. They have also replaced the barbiturates as the 
self-destructive drug user?s intoxicant of choice. We will discuss this 
substance at some length a little later.

Other hypnotic benzodiazapines include Flunitrazepam, Flurazepam, 
Loprazelam and Triazolam. They all have similar effects. Triazolam 
(also known as Halcyon) have recently been taken off the market because of 
concern over the side effects. So much for safe! 

The other major use for benzodiazapines is as anxiolytics ? drugs that 
reduce the anxiety levels of the user. The most commonly used 
benzodiazapines of this type include

Diazepam ? Also known by the trade name, Valium

Lorazepam - A short-acting anxiolytic, also known as Ativan

And a whole host of others with very similar effects, including 
Alprazolam (Xanax), Bromazepam, Chlordiazipoxide (Librium), 
Clobazam, Chlorazepate Dipotassium (Tranxene) Medazepam and 
Oxazepam.

Regardless of which particular benzodiazapine is being used, the side-
effects seem to be much the same. Some experts feel that the shorter-acting 
benzodiazapines like Lorazepam (Ativan) are more addictive and more 
difficult to withdraw from than the longer-acting types such as Diazepam. 
For this reason, many doctors recommend substituting Diazepam in any 
detoxification programme.

All benzodiazapines depress the breathing and so if taken with opiates or 
alcohol, can result in death from respiratory failure. They should be used 
with caution by anybody who is pregnant or who may have suffered from 
hepatitis or any other kidney or liver problems.

Taken over a longer period, these drugs can make you crazy. Besides 
becoming addicted, you can become paranoid, agoraphobic (frightened of 
leaving the house) or develop obsessive/compulsive patterns of behaviour. 
Still, if it ever happens to you, at least you?ve got the consolation of 
suspecting that it?s probably a result of the weird, mind-bending drugs 
that you?ve been taking. Imagine how it must feel to be a straight 
housewife, getting a terrible habit with all these wierd side effects, 
which you got from the medicine that your doctor gave you to help you cope 
with the depression that you felt when you found your husband was fucking 
his secretary. Just a little something to help you sleep, my dear. Oooo?
eee?ooo!

At the moment though, the most popular benzodiazapine must be Temazepam. 
Temazepam use is on the increase among several different constituencies of 
drug user. Due to a lack of real MDMA on the club scene, amphetamines, LSD 
and other, longer-acting psychedelics like MDA currently dominate. As a 
result, many club-goers have taken to using the little green and yellow 
Rugby Balls in an attempt to get some sleep. Smoking a reefer is a much 
less hazardous method of chilling out, but if you must use benzodiazapines 
to get to sleep, then don?t take more than one and don?t use them 
regularly. Once a week is probably still too often. 

Hard-core cocaine and rock users are also turning to Temazzies to soften 
the crash when the charlie or the rock is all gone. The same messages apply 
here. Using weed or even alcohol is a much safer strategy, but if you must 
use them, then do make sure that you stick to occasional oral use. Your 
cocaine use is probably a problem already ? try not to make it worse by 
getting another habit.

The final group who are using Temazepam are injectors who probably prefer 
heroin, but use Temazzies because they can?t afford to score, or because 
their tolerance is such that supplementing their script with Temazepam is 
the only way they can work up a good gouch from their methadone. If this 
description applies to you, then you are probably at enormous risk from the 
impact of Temazepam on your life, your health and your social status. Even 
the worst smackheads look down on a Temazzie user. 

Benzo?s reduce inhibitions, making some people aggressive, but the lack of 
co-ordination that the drug produces means that you are more likely to get 
a pasting.
Some people feel that the Dutch courage that benzodiazapines produce is 
actually a cloak of invisibility, even invulnerability. They might go out 
shoplifting, believing that nobody will be able to see their subtle moves 
as they swiftly teleport the goods into their stash. In actual fact, the 
store detectives are thinking, ?If this shop thinks that they pay me enough 
to apprehend that dirty, stinking AIDS victim, they?ve got another think 
coming. Phone for the man with the big net and the tranquillizer gun.?

Due to the way that the benzodiazapines reduce inhibitions, some people 
view downers as an aphrodisiac. (Remember ?Mandies make you randy!?) In 
fact, this is a myth that is perpetuated by rapists. (?Err, they were a 
good hit them Temazzies, but they haven?t half given me a sore arse!?) 
Using any downer decreases your self control. Given the role that sex plays 
in the transmission of the HIV virus, everybody needs to maximize the 
amount of control that they exercise whenever there is the possibility of 
sexual contact ? downers and fucking just do not mix.

The same is true of injecting. Like the barbiturates before them, Temazepam 
have become popular among certain sections of injecting drug users. 
However, the risks associated with this drug are far greater than the risks 
associated with heroin. As with sex, the drug minimizes the control that 
you have over your injecting behaviour. This may lead you to forget which 
syringe belongs to who. Have you cleaned it out? You may even forget all 
about the need to stay safe and not share other people?s works. You 
probably couldn?t care less ? drugs like Temazepam make you feel 
invulnerable while you are under the influence.

Temazepam also creates other risks for injectors. In order to stop people 
injecting the eggs, the drug company filled them with a solid gel in an 
attempt to prevent the drug from passing through the needle. People got 
around this by warming the gel and diluting it with water. However, now 
when it hits the vein, it resolidifies, causing thrombosis. This can lead 
to Deep Vein Thrombosis, serious abscesses and ulcers. Should you miss the 
vein and inject into an artery, you will probably develop gangrene, which 
often results in the loss of a limb. Injecting temazepam, or any other 
tablet or capsule come to that, is not a good idea at all.


Alcohol

When considering the depressant drugs, few people pay suficient attention 
to alcohol. Alcohol has very paradoxical effects ? in small doses, it acts 
as a stimulant, but after a few more drinks it acts as a depressant. While 
some experts believe that a couple of glasses of wine a day may improve 
your health, larger amounts are definitely not good for you.

Just because a drug is legal, it doesn?t mean that it is safe.  Like all of 
the other depressant drugs, alcohol is addictive. Unlike the opiates, 
alcohol causes damage to various organs. Brain damage and cirrhosis of the 
liver are just two serious potential side effects.  Contrary to popular 
opinion, you can also overdose on alcohol. Every year there are a sizable 
number of deaths from alcohol poisoning ? generally when young people who 
are unused to drinking start drinking spirits. With beer and wine, the 
volume that you have to drink to get rat-arsed helps you to titrate the 
dose ? take the drug in successive small doses (i.e. pints) until you reach 
the effect that you desire. With spirits, you can easily pour half a bottle 
or more down your neck after earlier drinks have rendered your taste buds 
inactive ? before you know it, you are in a coma.

Another crucial fact to remember about alcohol is that it potentiates the 
impact of all the other depressant drugs. Alcohol is a contributory factor 
in a majority of deaths from drug overdoses. Opiates like heroin depress 
the respratory system ? they slow down the rate at which you breath. 
Alcohol has the same effect. Mix the two together, and you may find that 
your breathing slows down to the point of stopping. This bad enough if it 
happens in company, but at least they can attempt to resuscitate you or 
call and ambulance. Very often, you are O.K. while you are out with your 
mates ? the problem occurs when you sink that last pint at closing time and 
then go home to bed.  Alcohol doesn?t produce it?s full effect until some 
time after you have taken it ? so you always feel a couple of drinks behind 
your consumption. Go home, hit the pillow, and the next morning your 
partner wakes up next to a stiff. 

The other problem with alcohol, is that it also produces nausea. Likewise, 
the opiates. So once again, the two drugs enhance each other?s side-
effects. Pulmonary oedema ? drowning in your own vomit ? is the second 
major cause of  drug related death and alcohol is often a major 
contributory factor.

Personally, I think it best to avoid the stuff altogether. Anybody who has 
ever had Hepatitis B has already done serious damage to the liver ? alcohol 
will make that damage far worse. The same is true of Hepatitis C ? although 
the damage may not be apparent for some years to come.  

If you do drink, the liver works overtime in order to metabolize the 
alcohol. If you?ve got a habit, the liver will also metabolize the drug at 
a much faster rate than your body normally would, so you end up sick from 
withdrawal much earlier than necessary. So, a sociable drink every now and 
again is one thing, but if you do drink large amounts of alcohol on a 
regular basis, then you?re stirring up trouble for yourself one way or 
another ? but if you?ve got a habit as well, then you?re fucked, mate. 


Summary


There is a whole lot of information in this booklet, so when it comes to 
the depressants, what are the key points that we need to bear in mind?

1. All depressants are addictive. If you must use them, try to limit your 
use to occasional use. That way, you will maximize the effects and minimize 
the cost.

2. Injecting drugs raises the stakes enormously. The risks from HIV, 
Hepatitis, Abscesses, Gangrene, Overdose are very high. It is best if you 
can avoid injecting drugs.

3. If you do inject drugs, only use drugs that are designed to be injected. 
Follow safer injecting practices.

4. Mixing drugs increases the risks enormously. Only use one drug at a 
time.

5. Alcohol is a drug too. Used in combination with other drugs, alcohol can 
potentiate their side effects. Never drink and use other depressants 
together.

6. Some depressants reduce your self control. Remember, if engaging in 
risky behaviour of any kind, control can mean the difference between being 
alive and being dead.


(c) Peter McDermott, Lifeline, 1993