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'##::::'##:::'#####:::'########: VIVA LA REVOLUCION! CERDO DEL CAPITALISTA!!
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##:::: ##:'##:::: ##: ##::::::: THE HELOTS OF ECSTASY PRESS RELEASE #435 !!
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##:::: ##:. ##:: ##:: ##::::::: "The Insistence of Meaning" !!
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...And it hit too close to home. I refused to ignore it anymore
even though it was obviously expected of me.
"No."
...And I can't anymore. Can't be right, can't be wrong, can't do
good, can't do bad. Can't think. Can't feel. Can't know.
"No."
...And I don't anymore. I don't feel. Completely numb. My
stomach churns rapidly at the thought. But nothing comes of it. I
wonder if anything ever did.
"No."
...And I still wonder. There is a future. It's not vmeste,
obviously, but if not s nei, s kem?
"No."
...And I guess time will go on. And I will lick my wounds and
return to the battleground that is life. But I don't want to. Not this
early.
"No."
...And I am supposed to be friends. But it's quite a change. I
was a friend to begin with. But it progressed. Now I suppose it has
regressed, although I don't quite feel it. Deal with it.
"No."
...And I wonder how. How. HOW?
"No."
...And maybe there is a yes out there for me. Just maybe.
"No."
...And sometimes the things you have don't make you happy. But
do the things you don't have make you happier?
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!! (c) !LA HOE REVOLUCION PRESS! HOE #435, WRITTEN BY: NEKO - 1/15/99 !!