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/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\ =| T.Y.M.E. - Twisted Young Minds Expand | #42 by NScrambler | 2/22/94 |= \=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\=/ The Strength of Love \=----------------=/ As I was just going to see if steph wanted to go to the basket ball courts, Her door was unlocked.I knockedm first but nothing,no alarm,silence until I heard a scream.All my fear andf anxioties filled me.I went in.no 1 was home. I stared upstair and I heard a crash in stephs room and the door was shut.I ran upstairs and put my ear to her door.I heard a struggle but I made sure to be sure;its not nice to barg in on something.I opened the door to hell. Robert was sit on top of half nude steph holding her down and hitting her. She was tied to the bed sumhow and her bra was ripped.He was hitting to her. she was practially unconicous.I jumped on him and swung hard into his back. I knew I had to get him towards the stairs 4 the win.he tripped and got offa steph and on to the ground his pants were unzipped and he grabbed my legs and tripped me into steph's dressor and I hit my head pretty good.I wrested with him 4 a while until I hit his head against Luey's(Steph's fish) table.Luey's Bowl fell and crash bingo on Roberts head sum blood but sum of the glass got on me too.I got up and pushed robert out into the hall.he got up and slugged me 1 in the stomach.I worked towards the hall.I got infront of the stairs waiting for him to take a swing and then I'd dodge it but my reflex weren't the best and I landed lucky on the upper stairs and rolled all the way down on to the marble he almost came with me.this was the second time I had hit my head.it was throbbing and I could barely see anything ,I was disorintented. He was still at the top recovering.I layed there the longest 10 sec of my life wondering if it could be me last and then sum magicly forced pushed me up and I ran up the stairs full power.I was amaze and so was robert unexpecting it and I lowerd my head like a bull and I hit him in the groin so hard he fell across the hall and hit his head on the wall blood splattered and he was messed up.I grabbed him and rolled him down the stairs.He got up and out the door so fast,I tripped down the stairs again landing on the platform where the stairs turned.I wanting to go to sleep so bad.i was so tired.I couldn't think straight after 10mins laying there.I gathered enough will power to get up and help steph.I climb 2 stairs and felt very woozy and threw up on the stairs.when I finally got to the top I saw a Knife at the foot of the wall where all the blood was.It must of have been roberts.It made me worry about steph and I limbed up to her room.There she was peaceful and quiet.I got a sick feeling.I went over to the foot of the bed and untied her arms and feet and I check her pulse,she was still alive probably in shock.she was passed out.She had a black eye and she was barely breathing.I got to the bottom of the bed and folded my hands and prayed 4 her and me.I wasn't too good myself.I couldn't get off my knees.I started thinking about what of happened.how robert came over and Y her parents were gone.I go over all the time when her parents aren't there but they know me.I stayed on my knees,folded hands,just thinking 4 it seem an a hour but was probably only 10-20mins.She stirred.I smiled but couldn't move.I managed to say "U owe me." I wanted to say r u alright but was too distorted to think and she started to cry and say "even".Then I asked if she was alright,long pause,she didn't answer.I guess it was a stupid question.I managed to get up and grab her a shirt outta her drawer and I zipped up her short jeans.I put the shirt on her.she was in pain.I was too but I had too B strong.I was in a house with bloody walls and broken glass and I was guilty 4 the mess.I said "Welcome" and I picked up luey.he was in a broken semi sphere piece of glass enough to hold sum water.he would be alright.I picked up what was left of the fish bowl and filled it with sum water and put him back in.I felt that was enough 4 the cleaning.I would never finish b4 her parents got home.Her parents what they think? oh shit that made me wonder what really happened but I was too tired and so was steph to talk.I got on the bed next her her and held her in my arms.I figured I deserved that much.I tryed to look 2 her 4 approval or disapproval but nothing.We fell asleep 4 at least an hour.all of sudden I was picked up and was slugged int he stomach and thrown in the closest wall.He wait 4 me to respond but I was so messed up I wanted him to do me in.Steph woke up and yelled told him to stop.then all lot of shouting and I passed out.It was her dad.I woke up to an ice pack.He wasn't sure what had happened but steph convinced him to not hurt me anymore.He had herd what had happen b4 i got there but he or steph didn't know about the fight.I was too out of it to think what to censor but I told the hole thing the whole truth.I knew I shoulnd't have but I didn't have the time to think.I think he brought it.He took us to the hospital and he called my parents.Steph had 2 broken ribs and I had 1 broken rib and a serious concousion.we were treated and released the same day.We went back to her house.I was feeling much better.I didn't want to leave steph.I asked if I could talked to her alone and her dad left.I asked her how she was.It was strange.She answered.I had to ask this but I didn't want to "What happened?" She told me her parents left to go shopping and she invited him over w/o them knowing and they were downstairs watching a movie and he put his arm around her and basicly the moves.and after wards she said wanna go upstairs like me and her do and play games and write letters and talk but he got the wrong idea and when they got up there he put her on the bed and she pause and started to cry I was numb "Did he?" the big question and she said "I want to say no so bad but Yes he Raped me."A girls worst nightmare true.I always knew girl had life just a bit harder than boys but this was totally unfair.The next day I planned to go kill the bastard.I ahte him with all my heart.I'd hated him b4 but now I hated with with everything I could.Steph was bawling.I knew i should of said sumthing to comfort her but I was empty and she started to cry even more.I knew it was bcuz I didn't comfort her. Ever since I became Best friends with her,I wanted to comfort her in her time of need and I didn't.I felt hella bad.I opened my mouth to say anything but was interupted as she said "Go Away" like a Time's Up buzzer in my head and I knew the line was drawn.She now hated all boys including me.I started to leave when my plan form perfectly.I turned around and said "R U sure?Do U really want me to Leave?" and I sat down beside her.That was what she wanted sumthing to showed I cared.I put my arm around her and she said "Yes".That wasn't in the plan.I got up and left the room and leaned against the wall not caring it was all bloody and I went back in to her room and sat down next to her and said "All I ever wanted was to protect u and to keep you safe and now this I let u down once and I'm not doing it again" and I said it like a movie star struting his stuff like in the movies and I knew it was kinda cliche but it worked she put her arms around me and I held her and keeped telling her everything would be alright.Her dad yelled that he had to go get her mom and He told me if anything happen while he was gonna he'd kill me and he went in to his room and pulled out a gun to show that he was very serious.I almost shitted my pants.I went back to steph who had stop crying.I wrapped my arms around her again.she said "Thanx." I smiled and said "anytime".She said "I love U" and I backed off.No way,thats totally unfair.I fell in love with her already and she said she didn't like me and just wanted to be friends.I don't know,but how could u use rape as an excuse to fall in love.I'll take the prize of a hero but nothing more.I said "Y? O all of sudden U can love me now?".she thought 4 a sec she said "I didn't mean to say that it slipped.I...I...I did like u back then but I couldn't let us become more then friends" and I interupted and said "Well I can't let us become more then friends now." and we both stoped to think and I realize that this was probably the end of our relationship;they'll probably move away and we'll never see each other and even if they don't the courts and her parents will stop us from being friends I thought.In the sileince I said "I love u too." and I wish so much to B friends 4ever but If this was the end I rather bemore then friends.Earlier we both tought being more than friends would destroy the relationship but now the relationship was destroy but we didn't destroy it.we might as well let our feeling take over instead of our thoughts and with all this thinking a tear came to my eye.Steph shook her head and I let go of our embrace and I grab her remote 4 her stereo and I turned it on cd # 2 which I knew was boyz ][ men hit song 9 and ask her if she would liked to dance.She had owed me a dance 4 a while actually I had never danced with her.the whole 4 mins was amazing.it wasn't like at the 8th grade te`e with all the light,I was in her bedroom with the broken glass and the bloody wall but it didn't matter I was holding her.we let the cd go to # 10 as well kept dancing.We looked into each other eys and I knew that she had never french b4 and I or we took the chance.It wsa slow and sweet.Oh how I wanted too 4 so long to kiss her sweet lips and feel her togue with mine. Oh god I didn't care if her dad came back and shot me.I felt like if i had served my purpose of life.and In disbelief she lead me too her bed and told me to make love to her.She was raped yesterday and now she wanted me to have sex with her.Something wasn't right but I wanted too so much and I didn't mind a bullet in the head it had already been worth it.We both strip and the cd hit #11.It was my first time and her second but everything went perfect.It was sweet again worht every last second.afterward we stay in bed holding each other.I'd marry her if I could and I ask if she would and she said yes but the chance of that happening.were pass the quintillions but things were different.she told her if I didn't want my head to be blown off We had to get up and clean up but I would have rather stayed in ber with her the rest of my life which would be 15min but she got mad and start crying again so I didn't.It didn't take long and when we went downstairs we were confused.her mom & dad were back already,I guess we didn't notice them we were in own which we had earned 4 so long.Luckly tha obvisously didn't know what we had done because the gun was put away.I knew it was time 4 me to go back yo my house and I did.I left.My parent were so worried I just shut myself up in my room 4 the rest of the night.I sat at my computer.I was off my high.I watched people logon and off of my board.not moving.I just sat there listening to my boyz ][ men cd reacting ach monment in my mind so slowly and so sweet. until it think it was 2:00 am knock knock It scared the sh!t outta me.It was steph at my window and she didn't look too good.I poped off my screen.I was expecting her sumhow.she came in and held me.when she let go she said she was moving and as my empire fell I was glad it was over.I was expecting this already but in my life there was 3 things that kept me going my computer(skills),music,and her.I couldn't listen to music w/o her and I wired her in my texts and computer already.I knew after she was gone I had nothing left and I had a plan to kill myself.She told me that she sneaked outta her room window and ran down here.She said that they were leaving tommorrow and she wanted to spend her last night in Napa with me.I smiled made sure my parents were asleep.I made her room on the bed and we started to spent the night together.We both striped to our birthday suits and got int he bed but we didn't want to make love I held her and she held me.I told her about my plan to kill myself and she said "Don't" and thats all she said.We both couldn't sleep we just keeped tossing and turning hold each other tight and dear.I never planned on seeing her again.I got my money and bought $100 worth of 40's and started to drink my problem away even though I can stand alcohol.I woke up went home again and I slept a month w/o waking up,not even going to school.She was gone and as far as I go,I was dead.Then Life started crepping back into me and after a few year Stephanie Berger was just a memory and after a few more that memory died.I had married a girl I met in college and I owned a Successful computer store. Steph had just became that best friend u have in junior high liek every1 else had but somewhere in memories tucked way far back there in the smallest corner I knew that she was more than just that. 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