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Rebuilding attention span ------------------------- A warm welcome to phlogosphere newcomer christyotwisty[1]! Congrats on taking the plunge underground, I hope you enjoy yourself here. In their first entry, christyotwisty lists "rebuilding attention span" as a "current quest". This is something I can definitely relate to. Just for the past, maybe, year or so, I have increasingly often found myself feeling like I have slipped into multi-hour periods of near total lack of attention span. This hasn't happened all of a sudden, I feel like it is the culmination of a process that has been slowly building. For the majority of my life I have had not even the slightest hint that I have anything resembling a genuine attention deficit disorder. I made it through high school and university easily without any trouble focussing on things for hours at a time. I can't help but shake the suspicion that computers and the internet have something to do with this. I remember being in high school the first time that the idea that this newfangled information age thing might be corrupting the minds of the youth, and being a little proto-hacker I vehemently spat on the idea and dismissed it as the delusions of old people who didn't get it. I realise now that the possibility certainly cannot be dismissed out of hand. The thing is that while I have always spent a lot of time online and been hugely invested in the net, the frequency and immediacy of my internet usage has steadily increased. In the beginning I was on dialup and so only got a few hours of use each night. Then ADSL came along and I was online all the time in principle, but only when sitting in front of a big hulking tower on a desk. Then a laptop, and then wifi, and now smart phones. This rise in connectivity correlates very well in time with my perceptions of my ability to focus on things deteriorating. But, then, again, the rise in connectivity also correlateds, of course, with me getting older, and with transitioning from being "twenty something" to "thirty something". Maybe this is a natural occurrence, or maybe there is a natural decay happening at the same time, making it worse, I dunno. If I had to guess, and I really am just speculating here, I would point the finger at things like tabbed browsers and also terminal multiplexers like screen/tmux as playing a pretty big role in this. Not only am I always either in front or within very quick reach of an online computer these days, but it's very easy for me to have 100 things on the go at once on that computer. When I get in the zone and am multitasking smoothly and swapping between logically separated terminals at just the right times, these tools feel great. But in the increasingly frequent times when I'm not in the zone, I am flitting between tabs and terminals at random like a moth. I will be moving from terminal to terminal looking for the one I need to complete one task, and along the way I'll bump across something I left unfinished from earlier and context switch to that, immediately forgetting what I was originally looking for, and just flail about in that way for a few hours without making solid progress toward any one goal. Because I know that this is not some inherent flaw in my mind but something that I have slipped into gradually over the years, I believe the process is reversible and if I make it a "quest" like christyotwisty I should be able to rebuild my attention span to what it was. I guess I need to do some research and come up with some kind of plan on this front. Hopefully the relevant browser tabs don't disappear amongst the sea of other stuff... [1] gopher://sdf.org:70/1/users/christyotwisty